matt1993, posts by tag: asperger - LiveJournal

Woefully late in posting this, but:

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Go to Wordle and...

1) Paste in all entries you posted in January 2017 and make a Wordle configured any way you like
2) Paste in all entries you posted in February 2017 and make another Wordle configured any way you like
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12) Paste in all entries you posted in December 2017 and make another Wordle configured any way you like
13) Make a Wordle out of your entries from ALL months of 2017, configured any way you like

Then post all of these Wordles to your LiveJournal and/or DreamWidth and/or whatever other blogging site(s) you're on!


You may do steps 1 - 12 only or step 13 only if you prefer.

It's up to you if you include subject lines, comments, community entries, friends-only entries, music tags, location tags, etc., and it's up to you whether you post your Wordles in a public or friends-only entry. Anything else I didn't think of is probably optional as well.

And if you're on more than one journal site (in this example, LJ and DW), you may do this for your LJ entries only, your DW entries only, your entries on both sites combined, all of the above - whichever. And you may post it to only one site or the other, or to both - whichever you prefer.

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Personally I opted to do this for my LJ and DW entries separately AND combined, and post all three versions of each to both LJ and DW. Which means this took about six times as long to make as it usually does...

Left: LJ only
Center: LJ+DW combined
Right: DW only

You can also tell because I tried to skew the colors of the LJ-only ones towards LJ-blue and away from DW-red/pink, and vice versa for the DW-only ones. Looking at how some of the color schemes turned out, though, I might need to adjust my algorithm before my 2018 Wordle Year in Review...

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Oh, and this year, I thought of a little word search game I could add onto this meme! (you don't have to make a little game like this if you make your own Wordle Year in Review though)

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Okay, it's become ABUNDANTLY clear that EVERY community I've ever posted in on LJ is probably going to be gone by the end of the month, so this is definitely the best time (unless I can go back in time and do this several years ago...) for me to finally start creating a backup account on DreamWidth.


Dear owners/maintainers of _dreams_, add_me, asperger, corrupted_wish, goodbandnames, iwish, newfriends, omgrandom, randomthought, strongbademail, suggestions, synaesthesis, the_number_206, and even thequestionclub and ask_me_anything since I know I posted in at least one of those two (and also any community that I forgot I've posted in):

PLEASE LEAVE YOUR COMMUNITIES UP AT LEAST UNTIL I HAVE EVERY ENTRY I POSTED IN THEM SAVED SOMEWHERE.

The sky is falling,
Matt1993


Before I create a DW account, though, I still have a few more questions:

- What happens to the userpics on my entries if I start having them be automatically copied over to DW before I upload the same userpics to DreamWidth? Will the keywords still be there so that if I upload userpics to DreamWidth with the same keywords, they'll show up where they're supposed to? (Does DW even use userpic keywords?)
- Can entries that are automatically transferred from LJ to DW be edited manually when they're on DreamWidth? Because I might have to if something in them doesn't get copied over.
- I want to backup my entries in my own journal AND my entries in LJ communities to DreamWidth so the latter won't be lost if when more communities I posted in disappear. I'm so desperate that I'll even copy every community entry over one by one if I have to (which I will have to for autism, anyway - via email notifications about comments on my entries there, because luckily I still have those), but is there any way to have that automatically be done? And if so, will the comments stay there?
- Which of the communities I mentioned do you think has the highest chance of being deleted anytime soon? That way I can start with those.

EDIT: Created my account on DW - my username is still matt1993. (Is there a way to link to a DW account from LJ or vice versa, like with the <lj> tag?) Anyway, I'm still setting up a lot of things on DW, but if I list you as a friend on LJ and I know your DreamWidth username, I added you there as well. If I didn't add you yet, then add me on DreamWidth and I'll add you back (if you have different LJ and DW usernames, tell me your DW username through LJ or vice versa). :)

This has been kind of a disappointing April Fools' Day because:

1) Homestar Runner didn't update at all today, even though they did for April Fools' Day 2014, 2015, and 2016, and April Fools and Halloween are almost the only times they ever update nowadays.
2) I don't think many people noticed my April Fools prank at all.

For reference, my April Fools prank was this entry; however, when I first posted it (on March 31 in my time zone, but late enough that it was April 1 already for some of you), it was an exact copy of my first entry. Then I waited a few minutes or so and changed it to a copy of a different past entry in the same way... then changed it to another after a few more minutes, and so on - basically, if I was at my computer, I'd change the entry anywhere from once an hour to once every few minutes. (At first. I gradually updated it less and less often because it seemed like no one was noticing...)

By "exact copy", that means including the subject line, repost button, userpic, tags, mood, music, location... basically, everything except the timestamp, the comments, and friends-only status [though, of course, the only friends-only entries I used were ones that probably would've been fine being public]. And anything that I intended to change each time but accidentally forgot sometimes. Though if I used an entry I'd posted in _dreams_, autism, or asperger, I added a notice saying that it was cross-posted (even though I don't think copying a community entry to my own journal years later for April Fools' Day actually counts as cross-posting).

I chose the entries semi-randomly, sometimes by going to my Calendar for random years and months and picking a random entry I'd feel comfortable posting again, and sometimes by just putting in notable entries that I remember and wanted to include in this prank at some point. Some entries were used more than once.

And just to mess with your heads even more, I thought it might be fun to come up with a hypothetical FUTURE entry and add it into the mix! That's what the 2023 year in review is for. It ended up being my favorite thing about this prank, so I left that one up significantly longer than any other single entry.


Now that April Fools' Day is over, all the entries I ended up using are listed below for posterity. (Don't expect the repost buttons to work correctly, though...)


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[This entry is the dumb April Fools prank from 2017. For my actual 2023 Year in Review... wait until it's actually December 2023 and I make one. Most of the links aren't actually supposed to go anywhere.]

Wow, it's 2024 already? It feels like just yesterday it was 2017!

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Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2023. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".

← 2022 2024 →

January 2023

Happy New Year! :)

February 2023

WHOA. SOMEHOW A COMMUNITY FOR MARIO/ENYA CROSSOVERS HAS EXISTED SINCE AUGUST 2019, YET I DIDN'T CREATE IT AND ONLY JUST NOW FOUND OUT ABOUT IT. If that's not a sign that I need to remake PrtSc Land, start posting backwards lyrics again, and/or finish Moya's Space Log, Mario's Loxian Odyssey, and F.L.U.D.D. Mk. II Shows the Hidden Heart, I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS.

March 2023

THERE'S FINALLY A 208TH STRONG BAD E-MAIL!!!

(Wait. That was nearly a year ago, and I still haven't made that Humidibot Jr. userpic?)

April 2023

Hello. We are Matt's amiibo collection. We have become self-aware, and we decided that this is our journal from now on.

May 2023

(no posts this month)

June 2023

(no posts this month)

July 2023

(no posts this month)

August 2023

(no posts this month)

September 2023

(no posts this month)

October 2023

No, my amiibo collection didn't really become self-aware and take over my journal. That was an April Fools prank, even though I was too depressed about LJ drama to feel like saying so for six months. Who would've guessed that marioenyacrsvrs, of all communities, would be even worse than asperger was back in the 2010s?! :(

(Great. I have to link to the three most drama-filled entries I've ever seen AGAIN?!)

November 2023

I hate to get political, but... if MatPat gets elected, I'm definitely leaving Mars and moving to the Moon. O_O

December 2023

Will people PLEASE quit blaming the year 2023 for the bad things that happened in it?! So far, THREE people have overreacted when I told them my wife and I got married on October 19. I never thought I'd say this, but can't they go back to complaining about 2016?!

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The Martian new year is coming up soon, too, so stay tuned for the Martian Calendar Year in Review!

Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2016. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".

← 2015 2017 →

January 2016

https://ghostsingles.com/

February 2016

You'd think that given how easy it probably is to misunderstand my previous entry, I would've posted again as soon as I thought of something else to post about. But nope, somehow I let an easily-misunderstood entry be the newest one for a month minus a few hours.

[Great. I have to link to an easily-misunderstood entry AGAIN - and one that's now even MORE easily-misunderstood since some of you aren't familiar with the sort of stuff I worried about almost constantly from November 2011 to November 2015 {and to a lesser extent, after that}.]

March 2016

Lately I've just had SO MUCH to do that not only do I not get much time to relax, but whenever I do get to take a break, it's usually not actually that relaxing because I still end up thinking about the stuff that has to get done soon.

April 2016

I just looked at the interests in my profile for the first time in a while and...

WHOA. It's WAY outdated.

May 2016

http://www.ew.com/article/2016/05/…

June 2016

Poll ♯2047590 Name the first 10 famous people you can think of whose first name is Matt or Matthew. (If you can't think of ten, that's okay - I doubt it would be easy to think of that many. Just list as many as you can.)

July 2016

Happy Fourth of July!! :-)

August 2016

So about a week and a half ago, I was so stressed out, I was stressed in!... or something.

September 2016

My birthdate appears at the 65,167th digit of pi! Where is yours?

October 2016

[the entry begins with a video called "Super Mario Kart with 101 players!", then the next line is...]

I'm trying not to overuse this phrase too much nowadays, but HOLY WHOLE HAND DEALER.

November 2016

Explanation to those who are new here: I decided a couple of years ago that I'd start revisiting every quiz/survey I've posted on LJ five years later to see how things have changed. But then I procrastinated so long that I'm having to do some of them seven years later instead.

December 2016

[the entry begins with a video called "SNES Code Injection - Flappy Bird in SMW", then the next line is...]

I don't think that's what they mean by shell sort. ;)

No, that subject line wasn't me having road rage. I was just describing what the quiz results I'm posting today are about. :)

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Between my waiting over a year to contact Google about why Ours Will You 1-Up was taken down only to find out that it was too late to do so, and a new Enya CD coming out before I finished redesigning OWY1U, writing any more of Moya's Space Log, OR updating my profile, interests, or glossary, it's really starting to sink in that I've procrastinated SOOO many things on LiveJournal.

I figure the best way to feel better about it is to suddenly finish several updates I've been wanting to make all at once, so that's what I'm doing right now!

I started by... Remember when I was so depressed about the Forbidden Comment Threads that I decided to add "Dark Matt1993" LJ Trading and Tarot cards under the regular Matt1993 cards I already had on my profile (also seen here, but slightly more outdated)? I've been wanting to remove those from my profile (just the Dark Matt1993 ones, I mean) for a while now that I worry less often - and hence, they're more outdated than the cards for regular me despite the latter being made earlier. So I finally got rid of them.

But since there will probably come a time when I want to remember exactly what the Dark Matt cards said, I actually just moved them here along with the paragraph that was above them. (This also ended up finally making the text on the cards as legible as I wanted it - even though I included HTML tags for white text, the text was still black while these were on my profile.)



Considering what I feel like now, both of those are very outdated. I decided that a neat thing to do for an update would be not to replace them, but to make separate trading & tarot cards for Dark Matt1993.

Unfortunately, the site where I made the Matt1993 cards seems to be down right now, so I had to copy and edit the HTML from those cards. But nonetheless, here they are:

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(And yes, I just used "Dark Sky Island" as a unit of time equivalent to about seven years - the time between the releases of And Winter Came and Dark Sky Island. :) )

(EDIT: I just realized the the above paragraph only makes sense if you saw the LJ-cuts that these cards are under.)

(I hope I don't end up overusing this and my previous entry's style of subject line as much as I overused "When the End Times come, we will all <verb> the <Noun Phrase> of the Apocalypse" back in the day...)


One (I hope) last entry before I actually go through with changing my journal style, because I really don't want this to be the first thing I post about after I change it:


So, a couple of days ago, I Googled "overcoming stress" and found some of these articles, which led me to the rest even though they're not all necessarily about stress:

http://lifehacker.com/5976310/nine…
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/…
http://lifehacker.com/5945018/to-s…
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/…
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archi…
https://www.psychologytoday.com/bl…
https://www.psychologytoday.com/bl…
https://www.psychologytoday.com/bl…
https://www.psychologytoday.com/bl…
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archi…
http://blogs.psychcentral.com/nlp/…

These helped me feel a LOT better!... at first.

Then I got to these:

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archi…
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archi…

When I read these, they resonated REALLY well with how I felt about the Forbidden Comment Threads! I thought my depression would be over for good!

...at first.

But then I read the comments on the last two articles. Now, despite having at one point almost completely gotten over my worry about suddenly being hated by everyone, even you guys, if I don't word something very well or it gets misread, I'm now back where I started. Because the comments on those articles suggest - no, prove - that I am a horrible, pathetic excuse for a human being just for feeling the way I feel about the Forbidden Comment Threads. And that I can never be forgiven for ANYTHING. :(

Earlier today, I had what is probably the best idea I've ever had since... something that was a very good idea.

I've had this same journal style ("Pale Yellows" recolored to have a black background with the colors that the letters and digits in "matt1993" have in my synesthesia) since before the Forbidden Comment Threads - about 0;139 BFCTE, to be precise - long after I eventually discovered that seeing red and green text on a black background all the time started to hurt my eyes after a while. Before that, beginning at some point in 2009, it was "Pale Yellows" recolored with tetradic colors, which made it yellow, purple, blue, and bluish-green, if I remember correctly - and the entries had black text on a white background. And even further back, it was "Pale Yellows" with no changes to the colors. I know I changed the font at some point but I don't exactly remember when.

Anyway, even though I knew that the synesthesia version (at least the way I'd implemented it) started to hurt my eyes after a while and has probably been hurting your eyes for even longer than that (unless you're relatively new here), I put off changing it again for a REALLY long time. I don't really remember why.

Well, now I have a second reason to change it: I'm considering changing it back to the unmodified (palette-wise) version of Pale Yellows! It would hopefully feel like a new beginning or a return to the good old days in 2009 when my journal was actually interesting and not just a whole bunch of "It's been 3½ years and what happened in asperger still makes me feel like every word I say will be seen as racist, sexist, and homophobic..." entries! (speaking of, I feel that it's important to show you guys the newest reason I have for feeling that way... [EDIT IN 2019: Well, apparently the video is no longer there (probably for good reason), and the closest thing I could find to an archive of it is this (and I'd completely even forgotten what video I was talking about until I saw the title and was like "oh yeah, that thing"), so I guess I'll reluctantly have to describe it: ( Collapse )]) And I never did finish updating all of the images that are broken now that Ours Will You 1-Up is nope more - maybe seeing my old journal style will help motivate me to work on it!

I haven't changed it yet, though. I just feel the need to give you guys some sort of heads up that my journal might suddenly have a "new" style. :)

EDIT: Forgot to mention (in case anyone is like "Aw, but I liked how you worked your synesthesia into your journal style!"): It's possible that later on, I will find some other way to work my synesthesia's colors for "matt1993" into my journal style, but I will still take care to avoid having light text on dark backgrounds. My CS professors have made it all too clear to me that it's hard to read. :)


In other news, despite getting Tomodachi Life for my birthday last year, it wasn't until this month that I started getting really addicted to it. I'm saying this because the first step to finding a solution is admitting that I have a problem, so I will: My problem is that Enya probably still has feelings for Mario even though he's with Peach, and Zelda probably still has feelings for Strong Sad even though he's with Dido. LOL

Just now, I decided to at least glance at my friends page for the first time in eight months or so, JUST so that if I still didn't feel comfortable reading it and ended up putting it off for (say) another eight months, it would feel like two 8-month hiatuses instead of one 16-month hiatus, which would hopefully help me feel slightly less like I never get anything done.

So far, how I feel about it is even better than that! WAY better!

When did my friends page suddenly become enjoyable to read again and not almost completely full of drama?! Filtering out certain tags and asperger entries used to not completely help, so how is it helping now?!

I'm definitely not complaining! Maybe now I can actually go back to checking it regularly for good!

Still feels like I won't be able to completely catch up with all of my friends, though...


There were other things I wanted to mention - many REALLY good, many REALLY bad - but it's already 2:18 AM so I really should go to bed. I just wanted to post now about this momentous occasion!