Resisting Everything but Temptation

Wow. Well... I adored 3x08. The tension between Cooper and Sherman has been physically paining me this season, and to see Ben put his anger and hurt and concern aside and put his faith in John and the importance of finding those kids -- it kind of broke me a lot. Those last scenes of them canvassing together, and Ben refusing to go home, pretty much made my week. ETA: I forgot to say, I loved this especially in light of the "He's not my partner" line toward the beginning of the episode. Oh, how I adored the way he delivered that line! So much subtext! ♥

Also, I'm sorry, but I still love Sammy and he kind of breaks my heart, too. I loved him accepting that Mariella needed to get away from the house (and from him) even though it hurt. And though I wish Tammy would DIAF, I loved seeing him swallow down his frustration and do his best with the paint, and the swingset. I wish I had faith that she's ever going to leave him alone, but I don't. Still, it was good to see him doing his job again. UGH. Die, Tammy, die. But after you have the baby, please, and then maybe Sammy can grow up and be an awesome dad.

Then 3x09-- LYDIA OMG. And Josie! I wanted to cry for her poor face. And the two of them as partners, kicking ass and having each other's backs and doing the right thing-- man. I'm close to being fairly OTP about them, too, except that I actually don't want them to fuck it up with sex. One True Partnership ftw. God, that shootout scene was so hard to watch. Kudos to this show for making violence feel horrible and real, when I think TV so often makes it feel like nothing. That's not even counting the secondary story with the kids and their fucked-up dad. SO MUCH LYDIA AWESOMENESS. I approve. And yes, she and Josie Jr. are pretty adorable, but IDK, I didn't see that much chemistry there. A fling, maybe. I kind of want somebody older for her. But in the meantime, she totally needs to have a sexy boytoy to play with, and her expression when she realized he was Josie's son? Priceless.

Finally, Ben and John in 3x09-- ouch. Talk about hard to watch. The whole chronic severe pain/painkiller addiction thing hits really close to home for me, and I knew when John flushed those pills that it wasn't going to last. I don't know where they're going with this. He can't just go into rehab -- that kind of pain means something's BADLY WRONG and it's going to take surgery to correct. I kind of hope that he does actually get taken off the street but finds some other way to be awesome and necessary. And oh, poor Ben, but I loved seeing him all tough love and knowing his job and hurt-betrayed-still-hero-worshipping-Cooper for all he's worth. They better fix this, though. Leaving your partner exposed and without backup? NOT ON, JOHN. This is my displeased face.

Only one more episode? Meep. *bites nails*

There's been a lot of awesome fanservice on my TV this week. Hawaii 5-0, White Collar, Justified (though I haven't seen last night's yet), Supernatural -- all are still making me really happy. Is there something in the water?

Been working on my spn_j2_bigbang. Up to 12k words... likely to be at least 30k before done. I'm getting to that point where I really wish I had a beta/cheerleader who shares my current mindset about the show and also doesn't hate the storyline of this thing so I could have someone to talk to about it. In the absence of that, I went and read comments on the first story for encouragement -- and realized that there are a bunch of comments there I never answered. WTHell? Okay, I did move cross-country then, but still. Made of fail. You should have seen my face.

An aside: If you are as hard on yourself as I am about writing, and I know many of you are, you should make a habit of going back to read old feedback and comments. I never think to do that, and I embarrassed the hell out of myself, but it sure was motivational.