one- Disney world was AMAZING. I need to write about a million posts about that (but heaven knows I won't end up doing that!). I met Tiana and Naveen, Cinderella, Aurora, Snow White, Belle, and Mickey Mouse. We rode a lot of rides....and stayed in the Animal Kingdom Lodge. I'm going to have to make a post with pictures (one should be managable) because it was ~ridiculously awesome~.
Also, I bought a nala plushie (I previously had none!) and an AMAZING button with Scar's face on it in a holograph (not a holograph...the thing where it changes pictures based on the angle? That!) that you press and he says "I'm surrounded by Idiots". They also sold an ugly Timon/Pumbaa plushie, a young simba plushie, and a baby simba plushie.
While on the topic of TLK Merch, I went to the mall with a friend to drop off her job applications today and went to Disney Store. They had ALL THESE NEW PLUSHIES THAT I LOVE including a ZAZU and they're 2 for $25 (they're BIG BOYS!! Zazu's practically life-size!!!) so I'm going to buy Zazu and probally Pumbaa, because Nala and Timon were ugly.
two- School's over!! I'm soooooo happy and feeling the ~slightest~ bit of boredom. Today I watched a lot of TV and played Sims before I went to the mall. It's so WEIRD to have no responsibilities. Well...no PRESSING responsibilities. However, I love that feeling. No summer homework!! <3
three- I now have what I consider to be a near-perfect first kiss story. :D <3 <3 it was yesterday, fyi I was dropping Josh off at his apartment, and it was sprinkling rain. You guys, my life dream has pretty much been to get my first kiss in the rain, and since it's been two and a half months we were both more than ready and I knew it was gonna happen that day. So we walked over to his door, but I heard his mom playing piano in the front room, and I didn't want her to open the door on us. So I upfront told him (probably going to regret that later in life, but whatevs) that "I want my first kiss to be in the rain, but I don't want your mom opening the door". He answered by asking me if I minded running for a little bit, and took off past his door and through the complex.
It felt very movie like, chasing a boy through the rain, shouting "where are we going?!" and it got even better, because he stopped in this little glen place that I had no idea even existed there. It was beautiful. :) Also, slightly awkward because of what I'd said, hahaha. But we did kiss. It was more of a collision than a kiss, mostly because he's about a foot taller than me, but I refused to try again because I didn't want to end up making out, which is exactly what happened to my friend Tiffanie and her boyfriend on their first kiss retry. But it was obvious he wanted me to stay there and kiss again cause of the way he was holding me. But too bad for him. He'll have to try again later. XD
On my way home I couldn't find my stomach and my hands were shaking. :)
Today was the first day of new semester! Woooo it was so much fun! It felt like the first day of school...I only had two classes that stayed the same period with the same people.
Now I have Painting II, sans my good friends but apparently the 8 of us in Painting II (we're in a room full of Painting I kids) have decided to be BFFS. That's totally okay with me. :D I also have Drawing II, which is absolutely thrilling. Even though I sit by annoying people.
Also have lunch with Hilary and Josh, which is a pair I would never pick to have lunch by, but oh my heavens it was so much fun today! And the forecast looks to only get better. C: And gym with my insane friend Christine, who is THE person I'd pick to share gym with. Gaah so happy.
The best part is that I'm going to have "early dismissal" to work on art projects. There's something absolutely amazing about being at school when you don't have to be, doing something you love, when 90% of the rest of the school DOES have to be there. I'm sure I'll occasionally use early dismissal to leave, too. :P
Today I had a field trip to Michigan State Maximum Security Penitentiary...and it was awesome. It was probably the most fascinating field trip I've ever gone on. We got to see cell block I, the "honor cells" as they called them; double cells for the older men who the officers knew wouldn't try to get at us. They're on lock-down right now because Monday an officer was stabbed in the head by four inmates, so we didn't get to go into the "scarier" cells. The officer we spoke to said they've been really rowdy all summer ever since the breakout in May (two guys escaped and got to about Indianapolis before they were caught; obviously, the jail was put on lockdown for aWHILE) But it was still fantastic. We also got to talk to an inmate about his experiances and opinions...it was very chilling and moving. As well as fascinating, of course.
Also, I'm excited because tomorrow I'm going to a Bulls game. :D This dude at my church works for the Chicago Bulls, so he is able to get free tickets to preseason games a lot. In years past, he's gotten enough so the young men could go as an activity. Last year, the young women were invited, too, and it was awesome beyond awesome.
I'm NOT a sportsy person and I really get bored watching sports on TV (and pretty much hate playing them, except soccer defense or fencing or just fun games with my friends). But seeing them in person is SO MUCH BETTER. Like football games at school! I LOVE them! And at the bulls game last year, I'd randomly get really into it and other times not care at all. My friends found that amusing, but really the game was just so fun. I think sports gets our primal nature, and watching them (even with crappy nose-bleed seats) makes me feel a little into the action.
This year, the guy in charge got enough somehow that other wards can come. So that means my friends from the other ward (including Josh) are going to go! I'm determined to sit next to Josh. Because things have been going...um...well? I feel like he doesn't care at all about me when I talk to him through texting or facebook, but I think that's because he doesn't like texting and he never goes on facebook. Because at the haunted corn maze we were at with our friends last week he kept bringing up the same conversation over and over again. AND when I was complaining about my coldstone coupon expiring and me not being able to get free ice cream, he said he'd take me out to get some once he gets his paycheck. And if I explained the whole story (it's a little long) it'd sound even more like he asked me out on a date. So that's good.
But it's still scary.
Hahahah, the bulls game is a little like the prison trip I went on! I'm excited out of my mind, but at the same time, it's a really scary thing. Hopefully, like the prison trip, nothing bad will come out of it. Only good things. :D
my brother and his wife are in town, and they're playing Super Paper Mario. SUPER PAPER MARIO!
And what am I doing? Sitting in here, doing consumer ec and government. Not even anything FUN. In fact, this is my first break in a long time because it made me so jealous I had to come here and complain.
I'm missing all the comedy and characters. :C At least Peach and Bowser don't show up again for a few chapters....I didn't know they were playing, so I completely missed the wedding scene.
Today started of quite well. Really, it did...my piece in Drawing is coming along better than expected, I really like reading 1984, my genetics final was easy as heck...not too bad.
But today at lunch we were discussing the current bit of ~drama~ which was all we talked about on the bus, too, and I kept remembering Josh's face in math (he's the one with the ~drama~ this time) and how emo he was, so I got home kind of glummish. Then I was like "hur I'll be proactive and do college research" but my parents wanted to see my math test grade.
I thought I did okay. I really, honestly did. There was one section I totally just guessed on because I didn't learn it (expanding binomials...I know how to do it with two variables perfectly, but the test had three...whaaaat I had NO CLUE that was even POSSIBLE), but the rest wasn't that bad.
But NO. I got a D-. Probably the lowest D- I could get without actually failing...and I really, really needed to do very well on this test to help make up for the crap I've been doing in math lately. I HATE math.
So that put my mood just so sour I can't even describe it. But I figured I'd do my college stuff, and even though I guess it was fairly productive (I discovered none of my colleges require the SAT, emailed most of them about institute programs, and even cut out two!) that always puts me in a bad mood. It's not that I don't want to go to college...it's just that choosing one is so hard. And as I keep reading admission pages, I keep feeling like I'm not good enough for any of them. Even though I know I am. I feel like once I finally get over this stress and actually apply, the ones I apply for will all laugh at me and send me on my way.
Getting a 32 on the ACT looks really nice when I compare with one half of my friends...the ones scraping to get 28s, pleased with a 25, and otherwise keeping silent about their 19s or whatever they got. But then I look at the other half of my friends, getting 34s and 33s and being mad about it. AND 12s on their essay.
That's actually what pisses me off the most. I got a 9 on my first try, and it made me really mad. I'm supposed to be GOOD at essays. I ALWAYS have been good at essays, since the first essay I ever wrote. So I paid extra attention in all the classes and the books and everything to prepare for my second ACT. Got a 9. Again. And I realllllly don't want to take it again...but if I did, it would just be because I think a 9 is HORRIBLE. for me.
And my mom was so aghast at my math grade (we all were) that she gave me this whole "grr grr study for finals or I'll ground you" lecture that I know I deserve, but it's just so frustrating. I DID study. I stayed up late to study! I memorize formulas! I asked my friends for help! In fact, this unit, some people asked me for help!! I do my homework every night, and I do it correctly! And then there are kids that do none of the above. Ever. And they're the ones who pull out the A's on tests, and whine about how they missed a few points and how it's such a bad thing to get a B.
I intend on studying for finals until my fingers go raw. Our teacher gives us a list of problems and usually says "do these problems 3 times and I promise you'll get an A at least" and I intend on doing them at least five times. But y'know what? I'll probably FAIL the final. Since it seems the MORE I try in this stupid class, the WORSE I do.
And then, I'll turn in my college applications with my brilliant math grade and they'll just laugh even more.
so yeah. pissy mood. Not even these cookies are helping. >:[
also I stabbed myself in the gum/lip/area with my toothbrush yesterday. And it reaaally hurts. Why do I inflict pain in the stupidest ways?
so today (pretty much RIGHT NOW) is Fine Arts Festival, where allllll the schools in my school district get together and wallpaper the walls with art from the kiddies and there's music groups preforming all over the place all the time. I've got some pieces in, which is always exciting, and I'm singing in one choir, which will be fine.
BUT OMG.
For the past few years, the Computer Graphics teachers have a kid on the wacom in the gym, drawing with their work projected on a screen because graphic art is ~so cool~. I don't have Computer Graphics this semester because I only ever do it first semester, but YESTERDAY my teacher was like "hay you wanna do that? Any time, just come by, I'll set you up!"
Which is AWESOME but holy crap! I don't know what to do!!! I would assume he wants me to do something similar to what he's seen in class, but Ican't think up one of those off the top of my head!
Last year the chick just drew some anime stuff and colored it and all. But the only thing I can do off the top of my head is cartoons and unrealistic people! I don't want to do that!!
ARRRRRGH
and the worst thing is, you guys are the ones who would have ~The Best Ideas~ to solve this. But I have to leave in like two seconds so I probably won't read them. Maybe I'll snag someone's iPhone and see if I stay as crazy as I am because I CANT FIGURE IT OUT.
also my shoe (which I got to replace my boot) is hideous and I'm ridiculously embarrased to wear the ugliest shoe I've ever seen with a heel, but it's kinda my only choice.
edit: never mind. :) My teacher saw me when we went to look at art (I was gonna do this between looking at the art and preforming) and he had the animations from other students set up on the big screen. He said that since I was preforming I didn't have to do it, and that it was okay. So even thought I probably ~should have~, I don't think I will. Unless I get sudden inspiration up on the choir stands and want to rush over and get started RIGHT AWAY
My math quiz seemed so easy when I was taking it. And it turns out I got a C+. I don't know how that happened, but I am NOT PLEASED because I NEEDED an A. Now I'm basically stuck with my grade and it's not a good grade. ughhhh.
Then today I took my APs! English was...not as bad as I expected! The multiple choice especially seemed easy, and the essays were...well, I never know what to think about my essays. They didn't feel horrible or anything, but not exactly my best work.
But UGH! ART HISTORY!!! I've done super super well in that class all year. I studied hard core last night. And that test was ridiculous! I hardly reembered a thing. I betchu I got a 2. I will be pleasantly surprised if I get a 3. SO NOT COOOOL.
at least I'm done with all that junk. :) Now I guess I just have to focus extra hard on math so I can see if it's at all possible to raise my grade a bit.
also today I watched "My Girl". Was not as good as I remembered! But it still made me cry. Though I think part of the me-crying was that I kept remembering how much I apparently loved it as a littler girl. Which is funny because I laughed at a lot of jokes this time around that I definately wouldn't have understood when I was 7 or however old I was. "Go away and don't come back for 5-7 days!" hahahahha speaking of which. She is one immature messed-up little 11 1/2 year old. Remind me to never raise my kid in a funeral home.
I'm basically stuck to studying this weekend...Monday I have a HUGE French test over "Le Petite Prince" which, while it is ~amazing~ and I highly suggest people read it, is going to be very hard. And then tuesday I have a math quiz that I have to study like heck for because I SUCK at math this year and HATE IT. And the wednesday I have my huge AP tests in English and Art History...the tests that if I do well on, I get college credit, and if I do poorly on, I waste $80 a piece. This is not fun.
But!
Once all that crap is over, school is so close to over. And I already know I won't care much about my finals... English is JUST going to be on 1984, so I really just have to pay attention in class for that one. Art is not a final. Genetics final is actually a group project and an article reading, which again means nothing to study for. Art History final is going to be a presentation of a project we've already turned in, which is also amazing. Math will suck, but I really don't care anymore, so although I WILL be studying for that one, I honestly just want to make sure my C doesn't slip to a D. A B would be nice, though. And French I'll have to study for, too.
So my two hardest/realest finals are Math and French, on the first day of Finals. Which means that studying this time around is going to be very relaxing.
Basically, I cannot WAIT for thursday...because all this crap will be over and I can smooth-sail through the rest of the semester. And then the next day I get to take my boot off and start wearing proper shoes again.
I just have to get through the next four days alive.
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