airinshaw, posts by tag: heart-eyes - LiveJournal

You guuuyyyyys. I need to talk about this game I'm playing at the moment because OMFG it's making me SO HAPPY. You can tell how much happy by ALL THE CAPS EVER.

And why? Because it's isn't all FAILY. Man, I love me some TV and films and books and the like, but it's tiring having to constantly try and enjoy some things IN SPITE. You know what I mean?

- I love this show! In spite of the fact that there aren't any well-written women

- I love the film! Except how there's yet AGAIN the token muscular character of colour who dies in act two so that the white protagonist has angst

- I love this book! But it's the future and everyone is straight. WTF?

- I love this thing, but hi - it's bisexuality invisibility day. AGAIN

And just, I've been playing this game and getting MORE and MORE excited by it. And it's kind of sad that every time it doesn't fail, I get more excited. (Hi, bar set too low :P)

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In conclusion: Fable II wins at my life.

So NK and I are spending Christmas apart. This isn't a terrible big thing - we're both going to our respective parents' houses and that's fine. But as we're both very closely tied into paganism, we conceived the idea of celebrating the solstice together.

Various aspects of this came in the guise of NK making a sun to sit atop our tree, rather than a star or a fairy (ignoring the fact that the sun IS a star). And plans to make a Yule Log together. Which we did. Yesterday.

So tonight we ate our Solstice meal - a whiskey and marmalade glazed gammon (my boy is an AMAZING cook) - and it was so, so tasty. While I was at work NK prepared it all and made wassail, ready to warm me up as I came in tonight out of the snow from work.

Anyway, we ate the meal and then, before yule log dessert, we exchanged our main presents. Now, keep in mind that for the last couple of months NK has been TAUNTING me with my gift. He would leave it in places where I would find it, but not be able to open it. Even before he wrapped it, I KNEW where it was, but I'm not the kind of person who could look, you know? So I had to WAIT and WAIT.

Anyway - I opened the wrapping and there was this beautiful, hand-made wooden box with a golden pentagram on the top. I opened it and inside was a gorgeous silver locket. Celtic-y design, oval, yet very 3-D and almost round-spherical. Simply stunning.

But then I opened the locket and inside there was a small rock. At first I thought it might be quartz, but NK put me right - it's a piece of meteorite.

No, seriously.

I own a PIECE OF METEORITE. That I am currently wearing around my neck in a stunning, silver locket.

There could almost not be a gift more PERFECT for me. A piece of meteorite! For an astrophysicist! For a nerd, like me. A piece of metal/rock that has been in space! That travelled through space from the Oort cloud. That crashed into Earth 30,000 years ago! That was bought for me from the UK GEOLOGICAL INSTITUTE! (I don't know what that last bit makes me as happy as it does, BUT IT DOES! *Is a nerd*)

My gifts definitely paled in comparison. I'm so utterly thrilled with my gift.

Happy Solstice, everyone. Here's to the return of the sun. ♥

NK and I kicked off our Advent tonight by watching "It's a Wonderful Life."

Now, I hadn't seen the film before. I know! I'm clearly wrong in the head (he definitely thought so) and NK was determined that it would be the first one we watched on the run up to Yule.

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I've decided that we have to kick off our advent every year with this film. I may be late to the party, but dude? I'm going to have a kick-ass time now that I'm here.

Where's the dance floor.

\o/

I know I've been sort of AWOL when it comes to posting lately. I've been reading and commenting as much as possible, but I've been really busy (e.g. seeing Star Trek twice \o/\o/\o/) and such. And I'll fill in some of the stuff I've been up to. But this post is not about that. This post is about me and Cat being all a-flail on my sofa because I've introduced her to The Dog Whisperer.

Ok, so one of the things that has kept me from posting is how much of The Dog Whisperer (and "Lie to Me") I've been watching. Because GUH. Cesar Milan. GUH. He's hot anyway? But mainly, competence is hot.

So anyway - Cat's down visiting me this weekend and I thought, well, really I should show her this thing. And I knew she'd get it, but I didn't realise that she'd love it JUST AS MUCH AS I DO. We are, literally, rolling over and loving everything that man does. Every time he sorts out a dog? Every time he is calm and assertive? NNRRRGHHHHH. He can be calm and assertive with me. :P

Oh who am I kidding - he can do whatever he WANTS with me.

Why do I love this show so much?!?! Stupid reality TV. Also it makes me want a pack of dogs all of my own. And Cat has decided to use some of the techniques on her new cat. See? Cesar helps internationally!

(She also wants to write a Tim/Tony NCIS fic where Cesar comes in to help with "their" dog, Jethro. I approve of this!)

And yes, ok, so I appreciate that you all must be going "Really? REALLY? You're breaking your posting drought with a post about THE DOG WHISPERER?" but WHATEVS. Love me, love my random obsessions.

(Cesar \o/)

Craig Dean. I love Craig Dean. Why? Because he is just that amazing. He's complex. Yes, he's an ass a lot of the time. But that's kind of why I love him. I love getting into the heads of complicated characters

And I've spent a LOT of time over the last couple of weeks thinking about why I love him and spending far too much time thinking about him/his motives. And talking about it a lot too. So I decided to post about why, because I REALLY needed to get this out of my head and onto "paper."

Here is my massssssssive entry about Craig and what I think is going on in his brain.

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My favourite fics are first time. I can get behind some established relationship? Or even gen? But dude - I'm in it for the hows/why/wherefores of how these two people sort their shit out and finally get there. Some dealing with their own homophobia is also interesting to me. How do two people deal with that if they're publicly seen as straight? Or haven't dealt with their own feelings before?

And if there's a lot of UST on the way there? Bonus. Extra-special, final round, lottery-winning bonus.

One thing I have noticed though, is that this love of first time also translates into another type of story. That being one where the two are maybe sleeping together from near the beginning, but take a while to actually "get together", if you know what I mean. Like one of them thinks that the other only wants sex or some such. (disarm_d does it really well, that I can think of off the top of my head.) And the arc instead is that realisation that yes, omg, they love me too. Also A+ in my field. It's still waiting for that emotional fulfillment of then sorting their shit out. And how they get there.

So - if you were following - things that usually make up my favourite stories are:

* UST
* First time
* Delayed realisation of how one/they both feel
* Dealing With Their Shit (including their own homophobia)
* Delayed emotional fulfillment

And so some of you might be realising where I'm sort of going with this. Yep - I'm describing the John Paul and Craig story arc. So why in god's name was I so shocked that it sucked me in and made me WAYYYY too emotionally involved? It literally is a canon, media-format of my favourite fics.

UST? Check. Two lads who are best friends and one is gay? Looks exchanged and tension drawn out until you're literally WILLING them to HURRY UP OMG? UST to DIE for.

First time? Check. Mmmmm...first time. :P

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Delayed emotional fulfillment? Check. The amount of times I clutched at my chest and WILLED it to all turn out right. It makes EVERY moment that they touch or look at each other. Or kiss or TALK into just the most AMAZING thing.

All in all? It's like they went and made my favourite fic-types into a list and then made a story for me. And I can't get over how AMAZING a story it is. If you had told me that a soap (Which I HATEHATEHATE because ( Collapse )) included this story, I would have laughed.

But it's not even just bad-good. It's ACTUALLY good! (Mainly because you don't have to watch any of the other soap-story crap :P) And also includes another of my favourite things: complex characters. John Paul is a lot more straightforward (not entirely, but more so than Craig), but Craig is a DREAM for me. Me who loves almost nothing in the world more than psychobabbling about complex, fictional characters.

So anyway - that's me right now. I'm still reading in Bandom, but not over-fannish about it like I was. I'm still loving Merlin a STUPID amount, reading fic and a tonne of meta. And I'm completely in love with the made-for-me story of two boys who make me happy (in my pants).

(Also loving Cat who makes drunk posts with .gifs of boy-love in)

ETA: Also see the comments for Cat providing even MORE gifs. <3<3

I am CRAZY and Cat is totally to blame.

You see, over the last week or so she has been flailing about John Paul and Craig.

(For those who don't know (I didn't) they were two characters in Hollyoaks. Hollyoaks? Is a shitty soap that I DO NOT watch. But their epic-gay-love storyline? Oh my GOD. SO GOOD).

So as I had a few hours spare this afternoon, I started watching. SEVEN HOURS LATER I am INSANE and far too emotionally invested in their OMG EPIC LOVE.

*Flails ridiculously*

The "romance" section of the story starts after the two have been friends for a good long while. But although Craig is seeing Sarah and John Paul is seeing Hannah, John Paul is secretly in love with Craig. WHo is STRAIGHTOMG. :P

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It's seriously amazing. As Cat posted about earlier last week, slash is AWESOME. I love playing with the subtext and if the PTBs did go for the pairing off? It might ruin that. But there's something about having this kind of long, epic, COMPELLING story where the gay is CANON. There is PAYOFF. And MAN is there payoff. Over and over again.

It's like - my favourite fics are first time. I love seeing how people deal with getting together and with their issues. Especially the added OMG-GAY thing. And this KEEPS you interested! Because Craig is STRAIGHTOMG. And in a relationship. And terrified of ANYONE thinking he might be gay (even though, after a little spat initially, he's fine with John Paul being openly gay).

People? You NEED to watch this. It is FABULOUS. Here is the link to all the parts - starting with John Paul confessing to Craig that he's in love with him (It may seem like that's pretty far into it already - but trust me. That's only the BEGINNING).

Watch this. Seriously. And then email/IM/comment to flail back at me.

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entropical87: i feel like i should send cookies to the person who uploaded all of this.
entropical87: maybe a pony.
airinshaw: Or a spaceship!
entropical87: made of solid gold.
airinshaw: And puppies!
entropical87: which i will lovingly load into the golden spaceship.

In conclusion:

I love catwalksalone for making me watch this. While at the same time HATING her for getting me so emotionally invested in this. It's so GOOOOD.

(Mostly love, though)

(Why are you still here reading this? Shoo! The link is up there! Go watch it!)

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