scars remind us the past was real

i saw xdiexxromanticx's promo [it's an aiden song, right?] for her community on the depression page and it said that ppl could find it on her profile, so i checked it out and, based on her profile, it sounded like we have a lot in common, so i joined.

i'm emma. i am 14, but i'll be 15 this month. it's about time. i feel waaayyy too old to only get credit for 15 years. 
apparently i give off "don't fuck w/ me" vibes. i never realized it. but it's worked so far. i have 2 best friends and everybody else fucks off. which works for me. 
i don't know if i believe in god. i'm scrictly agnostic. i am open-mined, almost to a fault, so i'll accept any and all religious beliefs [from atheism to islam], but i don't have any for myself. religion just isn't a part of my life. 
i hate many many things. i am a cynic [which, by my definition, is a pessimist with a sense of humor; so i'm bitter and i laugh...kind of like a crazy person]. 
i swear A LOT, and i apologize if this offends anybody. 
i am obsessed with rock music. it is my life, and that's no exaggeration. 
i have mild ocd, anxiety, and depression. the depression's probably the biggest problem. it's gotten, um...pretty serious, at times. i had my first breakdown in 6th grade. since then, my life has been riddled with anxiety attacks and spells of depression. this stuff is all self-diagnosed, by the way. it's all i can do to hide my problems from my family, because all they'd do is send me to a shrink. and if talking to my friends can't solve my problems [it helps, but it doesn't fix anything], what the fuck is talking to a SHRINK supposed to do?
i don't fall for guys often. barely ever. 'cause i play for keeps. i'm not flighty and i don't waste my time on ppl who aren't significant to me, nor i to them. so for me to even admit to myself that i like a guy means that i REALLY like him. this is a huge part of the problem i've been going through for the past 6 months.
i get called emo for the way i dress, for my introversion, and for some of the bands i love. i don't really care. 'cause i don't really give 2 shits what ppl think.
i'm here for anybody who needs me. my account on buzznet, ipodxisxgod42, has more info about me. [btw, i know my buzznet says i'm 17. shhhh.] if anybody else has a buzznet, feel free to friend me. or friend me on lj.

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