i'm starting running today.. i want to fit into a prom dress really nicely! i think i'm going to start out with a mile and a half maybe two. .. and thenn tomorrow i'm definitely doing three. should i eat first then go or go then just not eat? i'm not sure but i think i'll eat first.
and i think i'm getting sick.. i have the sniffles.. an awful headache and i'm coming down with a sore throat.. it suckss really badlyy!! but awhhh well it happens to everyone..
my friend got dumped today by his girlfriend.. well actually it was yesterday and it was soo sad because he is one of the livliest people i know!! ooo well he was all good today. well actually when i talked to him last night he said he was okay and that he was definitely over it.. which i am very glad about because he deserves a lot better than that heartless HOE!!
i'm doing cheer next year, again... i hope i get strong bases this time!! that will be fun! i love being a flyer.. being in the air is soo much fun!! but cheer camp is 300 dollars!! thats crazzilyyy insane.. to learn how to do shit i already know how to doo!!! stupidd huh?!?!!
and then prom.. i need to find a dress!! lol its not until may 2nd but i'm looking for dresses!! woot woot well they got a party bus.. which is really fuckin gay the driver said if anybody gets caught with alcohol.. then everybody gets kicked off the bus.. everybody!! how effin dumbb!!! hahahahahah well i'm getting a garter so that i can put a flask in it.. lol and then when we stop so i can pee haha hence i live 2 hours from out destination spot!! i will definitely downn that shizzz but if that doesn't happen thenn the after party will be wayy funn!!!
man i'm really really boredd!! i don't know what to do.. i think i'm going to eat soo that i can run all this fatness off lol im like 52 and 117 pounds...
today had its ups and downs.. i suppose i worked a lot on geometry make-up work.. because i need to pass first semester and thenn thats basically it. i didn't get tormented like the usual days! and it was pretty kickback i have a vet science test tomorrow. maybe i'll go study.. thats a first. well the ex boyfriend and i talked.. of course. and i talked to my best friend trevorrr. which was cool umm i don't know what else to say im just glad this day wasn't full of drama. and stupid hatredness! i.am.loving.life =)
today was boringg.. i went to school i wore a dress to school. quite amazing huh!? it wasn't too cold or windy so i was good! and thenn... after school i hung around the house. got a call from some friends, went to hangout. than took a friend home.. and here i am now nothing amazing. nothing exciting. no drama in this amaiznggggg dayy just a plain n simple nice kick back day. lol could i describe it any better?!?!?
its time to let go of it all... all of the bullshit the lies the tears that once fell from these cheeks no they wont be falling anymore i wont hear that nonsense not again today is the day to say goodbye, to let go of this unnessecary baggage you were once the boy i dreamed of everynight wishing you'd hold me tight i don't know where that boy went i wanna know what you've done with him i'm not saying your a bad person, because your not a bad person at all i love you with all of me, but it's time to let go.. time to say goodbye i never thought i'd fall in love with you and i never thought i'd have the guts to say goodbye but i'm cutting the string and praying to god i don't start to cry
--all by me =) this is my theory of venting.. sometimes!
i got to sleep in which was definitely satisfying because i convinced my mom to let me stay home which actually worked out well in the long run we got shopping done and i baby sat and than drove home for her when she got tired however the ex dropped by to drop my little brother off from school, because i wasn't there to take him home which was very nice of him.. but we kissed! and i still love him with all of me but i'm not letting it happen all over again.. i'm going to be venting about this probably pretty soon however i was supposed to hangout with my friends but my mom was lame and said no you stayed home you can't go out, even though i went out with her!! well back to my ex.. were going to prom together and i don't wanna make this night hell because with me and him just about everything we do turns into shit.. don't ask why, i'm not quite sure lol ! i got some stuff to snazzy up my room though!! but i'll post again!
sitting here with nothing to do.. i'm currently hating my life my ex boyfriend drew me back into his life and he just crumpled me and threw me back on the floor and steppedd alll over me like a piece of paper i thought i meant something to him again but i was wrong of course i was wrong he hates me and every little thing i do is wrong, he is such a hypocrite and he never wants to hangout or go do things he just comes over in the night and we have sex.. thats it he doesn't love me this is a load of LUST and IM DONE
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PISSED OFF