Suzy

I had such a good week last week - I felt so confident and competent and was able to handle just about everything that came my way without anxiety or doubt. It was fantastic and relaxing and I loved feeling so normal. So clearly I had to crash at some point and crash I did, all day yesterday. It was hellish and it's just so damn frustrating. Why can't I feel okay without repercussion? Part of it was probably the end of grad school and my usual difficulty with transitions, part of it was also my birthday tomorrow. Oh, my crazy crazy mind, you are not always my friend.

I did upload my last assignment yesterday, though. I'm glad to be done, but part of me is like, "That's it?" Maybe I should have planned to go to graduation after all? The idea of parading across a stage with complete strangers is still not up my alley, but some kind of end marker would be nice.

So my mom started doing Zumba classes at her gym, and flat out loves it. Those who know her shouldn't be surprised; she's so outgoing and loves music and dancing. A new class started Thursday mornings, when I don't work, so she wanted me to come with her. Those of you who know me shouldn't be surprised that it didn't go so well. *g* I didn't flail or anything - I'm not coordinated enough to flail. That'd imply my arms and legs can move independently. I did manage to trip over my own feet, run into the wall several times and knock over my mom's water bottle of passion fruit tea, though. It was pretty awful - and hysterical. My poor mother. LOL They may say that the dance moves are easy to follow, but I really and truly dispute that. Apparently it's supposed to work your core, but I had no idea and my core certainly was not worked. My legs were, which is awesome, but I'm not so sure that I'll be rejoining her this week. *g*

As per my RAP goals, I have been keeping up with match.com. At my highest, I think I was e-mailing seven guys; it's now down to four. I think. I did accept the guy who asked me out, but I haven't heard back (fair enough; there was a long gap between him asking and my reply and I really wasn't keen on him anyway), and no one else has asked, but I'm thinking one or two might. We'll see. One is a total geek, and while I don't find him the least bit attractive, at least we speak the same language!

Today I've managed to read and entire book and swatch several different knitting projects, plus taking care of Cal and doing stuff for Mom. It's kind of nice to have free time again!