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OKAY so sorairo_laina yelled at me for never updating my LJ aaaaaaaand I hate my summer class that I am in right now so here I am.

Uh. I realize it's been ages since I last updated aaaaand there's been all kinds of stuff going on in my life since the last time I made an ACTUAL update, so I'm not going to try to catch you up on it because that would be a very long and very boring entry. So instead I'm just going to hit the major points 8D

• Saturday was my last day in the costume shop with Shakespeare Dallas... we had loadout and now we are done ): It was exhausting, but I loved it, and I feel like I really learned a lot while working there.
Said last day was followed by the Comedy opening... and then the cast party... and I didn't get home until 4:30 am on Sunday. Woo!
• I am spending most of my summer taking ASL for my foreign language credit. UNT requires us to have four semesters of language for core credit, how retarded is that? Anyway, I thought this would be a really awesome class and lots of fun to learn, but in reality the teacher is terrible and it's killing my GPA o9
• Repo rehearsals & shows continue apace. We just had our "freakshow" theme show Friday night, which means our next one's about a month from now. It's a video game theme show, and hoozilla talked me into being Samus for it because she is a tard. Which is totally what I'm going to do, because I have no other ideas except for using my Demyx which is DEFINITELY not going to be finished by then. (Although one of the other girls on cast is doing Halloweentown Sora!)
• Boys are dumb. And that is all I have to say about that.
(Corollary: a group of my friends - male and female both - decided that girls are insane and boys are stupid, so yes that is a perfectly fair statement because I have no trouble accepting that girls are insane.)
• AVATAR OPENS IN A COUPLE OF DAYS HOLY SHIT. I'm going to the midnight premiere in costume with a bunch of my friends... provided that we can find one in the area. This is startlingly difficult, for some reason.
• August is going to be a good month: I move into my apartment (and out of my parents' house! Wooooo!) and sorairo_laina is coming to visit!!

... Okay, I think that's all the major points.

That's... about it, really.

...So I might have... found myself a copy of Star Trek last night.

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jsyk math is crazy boring.

...actually my LIFE is crazy boring, I have NOTHING interesting to update about.

Okay, no, two things, actually:

1. I talked to my mom and she's going to call my sister's therapist and see about getting me an appointment. So that's good.

2. I made a new fandom friend yay! :D

Oh, my god, you guys. My weekend.

So Friday night was Katie's bachelor party. I picked up Rachelle, Emily and Kristin at the DART station at like 4:00, and then we went back to my house and got fabulous. We actually ended up being the first ones to the restaurant at 6, and gloriously, happy hour went until 7. Blue margaritas for $3.50~~ It was awesome. I had two and also some enchiladas. We met up with Katie, her maid of honor Charisse, and several of her other friends - Shauna, JIll, Sara, and Rachel, I think that was everyone there. We were at the restaurant for several hours and basically we were excessively rowdy and ridiculous. Katie had on a little miniature cowboy hat with feathery stuff and a veil on it and also a sash that said BRIDE TO BE. She had a boa, too, but she couldn't eat with that on. XD

After dinner we went to the bowling alley down the street from the restaurant and there was bowling and more beer and general silliness. We kept getting up and dancing around and generally being absurd... Rachelle got up and danced on the little table where the scorecard was, and some lady who worked there came over and told us that "The guys over there want to pay you to keep dancing... but I'm going to have to ask you to get down." It was hysterical. The same guys also bought Katie a drink. XD It was a good night. We finally headed out from the bowling alley around 11, at which point Rachelle and Emily and I decided we were going to stop and buy some beer on the way back to my house, where we changed into our pjs and then drove out to Katie's apartment. It was just the four of us plus her friend Shauna, who is awesome, and we sat up until 4:30 in the morning talking and giggling and generally being girly and silly. Then we got up at like 8:30 the next morning and went swimming XDD Katie had a hair appointment at 11, so Rachelle and Emily and I went back to my house and got back in the pool here until they had to leave at like three.

Best thing that could have happened. I needed that break so badly. I got to see a bunch of my friends I haven't seen in ages, and I was finally able to decompress so that I can get back to being semi-functional and -motivated. I got some math homework finished earlier, and once I get done writing this I'm going to get some studying done for my history test tomorrow. I actually feel pretty good about it, for once; we had a review thing in class on Friday and my group did really well on it and I actually feel like I can get a good grade on this thing! This is new for me.

This morning I went to Macaroni Grill with my parents for lunch ♥ it was delicious. I feel like I'm finally getting to a place where my parents can interact with me like I'm an adult. I think part of it is my sister's crazy - they're finally seeing how much of a contrast there is between us. The other part of it is that I've also been working on behaving like an adult around them. There are still moments when I want to absolutely strangle my mother - like, for example, when she gave me a speech last night about how horrible conventions are for my concentration and my health and so I should never go to any of them for more than a couple of hours because they just destroy my life blah blah blah god I wanted to kill her - but mostly, it's better.

The thing that's keeping me down in all this is that I still can't find any motivation to RP. Like, I've been going in and looking at Terra's and Carmela's buddy lists, and I'm just... not interested. It makes me really sad, because I'm losing my interactions with all of those muns and some of them are really amazing, wonderful people. RP's been my outlet for almost three years now, and I don't know what I can substitute for it. Everyone needs an outlet of some kind, I know that much. Right now, I don't have anything. I think it's part of what's tearing me down. On the other hand, I know I needed the break from RPing, because I was really having to force myself to do it, and that's when characterization starts sucking. I'm way too paranoid now to just tough it out and work through it without hiding in a corner. A year ago, I probably wouldn't have been, but... that's life, I guess. God, I feel like I have so many Issues all knotted up in this that I don't even know how to separate them from each other. And I don't have anyone who can help me with it either. Oh, sure, there're a couple of people who know the whole story, and who offer me a sympathetic ear when I need one, but... I need someone to help me, you know? I need someone to help me work through it and figure out the whys and wherefores and find a solution. Because six months and change later, I still haven't found one on my own.

(Actually, Katie's friend Shauna? She's studying to be a social worker and she says it sounds like I have clinical depression. ahahahahaha oh yay. I so need that.)

Okay, done with my tl;dr now.

Before I go to bed, first I am to post.

1. This is fucking hysterical.




2. I am a goddamned idiot. Instead of buying the next Dresden Files book at B&N yesterday, I bought the last one I read. *smacks self*

3. Rayman: Raving Rabbids is fucking awesome.

4. Still haven't found a replacement for the wig I wanted for Squalo, but the site I knew where to get it from didn't have. (Wow, that was a shitty sentence.) I posted to the Cosplay.com forums in hopes of someone there having an idea for me. I am being crazy nitpicky over this cosplay, but I figure I am allowed to.

5. The Day of Silence was going PERFECTLY until I had to babysit my senile grandmother while my parents moved her shit into her new nursing home or whatever the PC term is these days. I had to keep telling her No, grandma, the bathroom is on the other side of the house. Grandma, your hearing aid isn't supposed to be squealing like that, let me fix it for you. *headdesks*
Anyway, other than that it was AWESOME and I'm glad I did it.

Okay, that's it. NIGHT GUYS, YOU'RE ALL SUPERSTARS ♥

Ganked from tehlils. I think I shall use my Reno icon because she also used a Reno icon.

logic: *flies out the window*


Animated Movies Meme

X what you saw
O what you haven't finished/saw sizable portions
Bold what you loved
Strike for what you disliked/hated
Leave unchanged if neutral X seems neutral because it just means you saw it, nothing else. This makes no sense to me, so I didn't do it.
Leave unchanged if you never saw it at all

Classic Disney
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[x] 101 Dalmatians (1961)
[x] Alice in Wonderland (1951)
[x] Bambi (1942)
[x] Cinderella (1950)
[x] Dumbo (1941)
[x] Fantasia (1940)
[x] Lady and the Tramp (1955)
[x] Mary Poppins (1964)
[x] Peter Pan (1953)
[x] Pinocchio (1940)
[x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
[ ] Song of the South (1946)

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In short: I see way too many animated movies and I almost invariably love them. At least, I don't hate them. Also, if it was made by Don Bluth, chances are I will adore it.

re: that bullshit Amazon pulled, I have so much incoherent rage that I don't even know how to properly express it. I signed the protest, of course.

Also, I looked for my cultural studies textbook - yes, that's that GLBT studies class I'm taking. And check it out: They actually removed "Queer" from my search terms. I only found the book at all by going to another of the author's books and then clicking on her name.

RAGE RAGE RAGE IDEK

Weekend with my family was predictably boring, by the way. Read a book. Listened to some music. Ate too much food. Oh, well. At least I got some rest. XD

edit: OH YEAH THAT ICON MEME

erethesunrises gave me more icons to babble about :D

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick six of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

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Why am I arguing with people on fandomsecrets about the Avatar movie? I KNOW I'm never going to get anywhere with these people who are all "RAEG IT'S GOING TO BE TERRIBLE BECAUSE IT'S M NIGHT SHAMAMAYAMAN AND IT'S SOOO RACIST TOO!!"

I really need to learn to keep my mouth shut.

Also, I am in love with this man's voice.

WOW THIS IS A LONG ENTRY


edit2: hee hee look what I did

Okay, guys. I'm off to the middle of Buttfuck Nowhere (otherwise known as Columbus, Texas) to spend the weekend in the company of my glorious wonderful family

OH GOD SHOOT ME NOW

so because my grandparents are technologically illiterate and don't even have a computer, much less an internet connection, I'll be largely out of contact until sometime late Sunday. I'm going to turn on Twitter on my phone, but it's been acting up lately, so who knows how well that'll actually work.

See you all later~

Well, this morning has been particularly adventurous so far.

I have to leave at 9:00 on Tuesdays and Thursdays in order to get to class on time. This morning, I woke up at 8:48, got dressed as fast as I possibly could, and ran downstairs to get my stuff together.

And discovered that my wallet was unzipped in my purse. This was weird, because I never leave my wallet unzipped. Knowing that my sister has a habit of going through my mother's and my purses for money, I checked first to make sure my cash was still there. It was. ...And then I remembered that last night, she was asking me about my ID. She wanted to know if I still had my "old" ID from when I turned 21. I told her yeah, it was the same one I have now, I never bothered to go get a new one - it doesn't expire until 2010 and the law doesn't technically require me to get it replaced after my 21st birthday.

She pouted a bit and then changed the subject, but I remembered that conversation and thought Oh, shit.

Lo and behold, my ID is gone. Yes, that's right, my sister stole my driver's license.

At least, I assume she did. I can't imagine where else it would be; the last time I took it out of my wallet was at Staples on Tuesday afternoon, and I put it right back in my wallet after the cashier looked at it. I never take it out unless I need to use it.

THEN. THEN. Oh it just gets better. I finally leave for school at 9:06, haul butt enough that I make it here by 9:20, and decide to shortcut across the lawn outside the building my first class is in.

This was a bad decision. See, it's been pouring rain for the last two days. I didn't think it could possibly be as ridiculously muddy as it turned out to be... but it was! So then my boots were covered in mud and I had to go to the bathroom and try to clean it all off.

Goooooooooood shit. I don't even know. I could do with a little less excitement right now, thanks all the same, life. x___x


edit: Okay. This is fucking hysterical. Cracked on 'Twilight'

So in the ongoing saga of life in my house, my sister has officially totally lost her mind. She got into a screaming fight with my mother over the fact that she lied about going to a school baseball game, and so my parents decided to take her car away - perfectly logical punishment when she's screaming and trying to hit my mother. So they went to move her car up next to the house where they could park my mom's car behind it and keep her from leaving, and she sat in the driveway (it's raining, btw!) right in front of the moving car so they couldn't.

Then she came around to the front of the house and punched out one of the panes of glass in the door so she could unlock it and let herself in. And then there was more screaming and violence. It's just. Insane. And she can't see why we're not "treating her like an adult" after she does this kind of shit.

The super-fun part? She turned 18 in January, so short of somehow getting her declared legally insane and locking her in a psychiatric ward somewhere, there's... not really a lot we can do about it.

Also, she's saying she refuses to go to Florida with us. If she won't go, we can't make her, and since my dad will be in Korea... My mom can't leave her here alone the way she's acting now.

If we don't get to go to Disneyworld because my sister is a lunatic... ...I don't even know what I'm going to do.

Turns out my dad's case settled out of court, so he actually won't be in Korea next week. My mom just told me that if Kimmie wants to stay home, fine, that's her decision, she and I will still go.

WHEW.

Why is not okay for me to ever disagree with them?! Why is my mother such a FUCKING HYPOCRITE that ANYTHING she does is automatically okay, and I can NEVER BE RIGHT? Stop turning yourself into the fucking victim! You're FIFTY-EIGHT YEARS OLD! That is WAY too old to be screaming at ME about how I'M not behaving like an adult! WHAT THE FUCK IS THE MATTER WITH YOU?! I spent ALL FUCKING DAY sitting around the house because YOU asked me to so the dogs wouldn't have to sit in their cage while you were at Trenton. I fed them, too. I also took my crazy grandmother her medication because YOU don't like having to deal with it. And you can't even fucking tell me when THE TIMER ON THE OVEN GOES OFF?! ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!



edit: On a totally unrelated note, it still hurts every single time I see her name, but I can't talk about that either, because it's not Getting Over It Already and Moving On. I'm not allowed to feel betrayed, you see. Or for it to hurt for a long time. No, I'm meant to get over that in a few days and then be FINE WITH IT. Doesn't help either that nobody gives a shit.

Today is my little sister's seventeenth birthday! Happy birthday Kimmie!

Also, since I'm bored and I'm now updating for the fourth time in twenty-four hours.

I'm going to do that picture meme that's going around -- request a picture of something! Anything EXCEPT PORN, MARIAH, NO I WILL NOT TAKE PICTURES OF MY BOOBIES and I'll post 'em next time! Or tomorrow night or whenever-the-fuck I find the cable to connect my camera to the computer. Before the end of the week lol.

I uploaded new icons again! Only four this time.

I realised earlier I never posted any of the ficbits I have up at vodkasprite on my ffn account, so I did that earlier. Here it is! Yay me! REVIEW ME GODDAMMIT I'M AN ACTOR I NEED REGULAR EGO BOOSTS TO SURVIVE.



eta: Because I am a dumbass, and just now figured this out:

THE USERNAME MEME