Happy Hour
Okay, probably this is true wherever there are Long John Silvers fish places, but there is a "happy hour" from 2-5 in the afternoons. You can get one of their "ice flows", a frozen lemonade or cherry drink for .75¢ in the afternoons. Since it's close to my B-Day, cheap and and close by, I think I'll go get one on the way to the library with the better computers. Not working that would usually be a no-no.
But I've discovered that if I do not have treats once in a while, I will go nuts and eat a pound of cookies if I don't.
Also, under the heading of happy hour, I had a bit of alcohol on Sunday, not realizing I was going to be drinking some white wine with fruit juice. I haven't drunk any alcohol since about July of 2005, same brother's house. Then I had a Mike's Hard Lemonade, or green apple drink. But I felt just odd after drinking it. This was not because of the quality of the drink, just whatever personality was drinking it was having an odd reaction. Not that happy feeling.
I had heard several of the long-timers (gals with alcoholic husbands) at Al-Anon say they don't drink any more (most said it at one meeting I go to) because they believed they would become alcoholics if they did. They had all had their share of drinking, even though to them it did not lead to the extremes that is led to with the "real alcoholic", the person who really can't stick to a couple drinks when they need to, the ones who don't just drink after getting home from work every day, but the person who can't get going in the morning without a drink.
I hope I'm not picking on anyone, but with some people the drink consumes them, they don't just go overboard once in a while, they build up to various incidents again and again, etc.
Well, if it can happen to you by just drinking too much, I don't want to drink. If I can't afford it, I don't want to hang around other people just to get a drink.
But the weird thing is, at least one of the insiders is alcy, and there is apparently, or has been, a "lake of beer" in there. I was shown the amber bubbly shores of it.
I have felt the "high", the dizziness, but as far as I am concerned I thought it was just my blood sugar or lack of it all worked up. Now I wonder.
On Sunday before going to the family gathering, I was physically, in the body, smoking invisible cigarettes. Not kidding. I have done that a couple times in years past, rather satisfying, but I didn't relate it to Multiple behavior, just thought some how I had a craving for cigarettes based on all the second hand smoke I've inhaled from the smokers in the family. Or based on the few cigarettes I've smoked without actually inhaling much during one year in the 1980s.
Really weird, not actual cigarettes, no actual smoke, no ashtray, no matches, no cig lighter just--smoking behavior.
Someone says Mike. Okay, I don't feel like I know Mike so well yet, but Mike is a teen and came about in the 1990s when I do remember that behavior for the first time. Lol, hi Mike.
Sid (Sidda) is usually the drinker.
Patty, my "real life" friend, is cutting out flour and sugar from her diet. I don't know if I could contemplate that. For one thing my budget has been rather sucky, so satisfying blood sugar and hunger cravings with fruit and soup, lean meast, etc. is not necessarily too realistic. It seems like it's always been that way.
Poverty tended to loom large always. When you are not allowed to deal with your mental health issues realistically, things are really warped. Hopefully as I get older and my mother dies off, things will change somewhat.
But I've discovered that if I do not have treats once in a while, I will go nuts and eat a pound of cookies if I don't.
Also, under the heading of happy hour, I had a bit of alcohol on Sunday, not realizing I was going to be drinking some white wine with fruit juice. I haven't drunk any alcohol since about July of 2005, same brother's house. Then I had a Mike's Hard Lemonade, or green apple drink. But I felt just odd after drinking it. This was not because of the quality of the drink, just whatever personality was drinking it was having an odd reaction. Not that happy feeling.
I had heard several of the long-timers (gals with alcoholic husbands) at Al-Anon say they don't drink any more (most said it at one meeting I go to) because they believed they would become alcoholics if they did. They had all had their share of drinking, even though to them it did not lead to the extremes that is led to with the "real alcoholic", the person who really can't stick to a couple drinks when they need to, the ones who don't just drink after getting home from work every day, but the person who can't get going in the morning without a drink.
I hope I'm not picking on anyone, but with some people the drink consumes them, they don't just go overboard once in a while, they build up to various incidents again and again, etc.
Well, if it can happen to you by just drinking too much, I don't want to drink. If I can't afford it, I don't want to hang around other people just to get a drink.
But the weird thing is, at least one of the insiders is alcy, and there is apparently, or has been, a "lake of beer" in there. I was shown the amber bubbly shores of it.
I have felt the "high", the dizziness, but as far as I am concerned I thought it was just my blood sugar or lack of it all worked up. Now I wonder.
On Sunday before going to the family gathering, I was physically, in the body, smoking invisible cigarettes. Not kidding. I have done that a couple times in years past, rather satisfying, but I didn't relate it to Multiple behavior, just thought some how I had a craving for cigarettes based on all the second hand smoke I've inhaled from the smokers in the family. Or based on the few cigarettes I've smoked without actually inhaling much during one year in the 1980s.
Really weird, not actual cigarettes, no actual smoke, no ashtray, no matches, no cig lighter just--smoking behavior.
Someone says Mike. Okay, I don't feel like I know Mike so well yet, but Mike is a teen and came about in the 1990s when I do remember that behavior for the first time. Lol, hi Mike.
Sid (Sidda) is usually the drinker.
Patty, my "real life" friend, is cutting out flour and sugar from her diet. I don't know if I could contemplate that. For one thing my budget has been rather sucky, so satisfying blood sugar and hunger cravings with fruit and soup, lean meast, etc. is not necessarily too realistic. It seems like it's always been that way.
Poverty tended to loom large always. When you are not allowed to deal with your mental health issues realistically, things are really warped. Hopefully as I get older and my mother dies off, things will change somewhat.