BEN, musings
We have been lying on the floor listening to music, and it feels like it's changing us. I don't know who's doing everything, we feel like a system within a system within a system.
This is Ben. There is someone new at the front last few months, apparently, Ella. This is because the core is supposedly not the core anymore, but I doubt this. We just have weird ...the system is so odd. So full of so many of us.
We watched The Hobbit, An Unexpected Journey. Made us want to look up forums for it, which there must have been plenty of while it was being filmed, so why didn't we look this up before? We liked the one vBulletin forum we joined, but it felt like a once in a lifetime thing, kind of like everything new we try.
You only pass this way but once in life.
We are re-reading My Descent Into Death, by Howard Storm. I like it a lot, it's very helpful. The primary and scary thing is that if you use the name of Jesus to achieve your own goals, you will regret it, because it's the ultimate sin, to use the name of Jesus this way.
~Ben
I remember asking my brother this when I was a kid, and
3-20-14:
She asked what a mortal sin was, had heard about mortal and venial sin. He shrugged and said, "I don't know"--like he was mystified too.
/I guess this is Ben, or his type of post. There was a trial in the last day, maybe last 2 weeks. Freedom kept saying "DEFEATED" we kept hearing the word over the weeks. On the last Food Pantry day there had been that emergency and then in the 2 days following, 2 more EMTand or Firetruck showups, on on Carmel, the other on Cheviot Ave.
We prayed for them and for a guy asking for money yesterday--maybe he was a fake. We were eating ramen noodles at the time, had spent part of our last dollar, literally. Too funny. Last dollar that we know of.
So, still doing good deeds to the best of our ability. BEN
Anyway, that Food Pantry day, first Wed. in March, we heard "voir dire" on the way home, as though there were a jury being selected for a trial. First anyone at the front had heard of it. FIDEL.
Then yesterday we heard Defeat, Defeated. Over and over and we had heard it before in the days before and also the week or two before. IT's kind of jarring to hear that that way. But I have been reading that it is that way at the front, that memory is weak of what goes on in the head space, and vice versa. BARRY