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transfem-juice 2!!!!!

@robotgirlphimosis

she / it • mid 20s • minors do not interact please • tma • disappears randomly for a few days because I have a shitty social battery, sorry • mix of instant reblogs and queue • inconsistent tagging because I'm lazy and still trying to figure out the best system to use for searchability • I have pretty shitty memory so please let me know if we were mutuals before, and on the other side of things if you want to remove me as a follower please keep me blocked instead of blocking and unblocking me because I'll probably just forget and follow you again otherwise

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TLDR: New pinned post to say that I'm moving to @robotgirlphimosis , follow me there (and if I forget that we're mutuals here please don't be afraid to remind me)

Alright making a new pinned post to say that I'm moving over to @robotgirlphimosis because for the past little while I've been blocked from messages (I can't send any and the message tab is literally removed from the mobile app and is completely blank on the webpage), as well as being blocked from replies (even on my own posts), and having my reblogs (both tag only reblogs and reblogs where I add text) hidden from the notes of posts as well as hidden from notifications (including mutuals). My theory is that this may be because I was sending nsfw posts as messages to a second account when I didn't want to reblog them on main (in part due to tumblr's treatment of trans women and transfems as sexual content to be hidden or deleted, and partly because not everything I'm horny for is the kind of thing I want reblogged on main) but I guess tumblr saw that as me spamming messages or something (imo it wasn't that much that often but I don't know what the exact criteria is)

I guess I could make my pinned here this for awhile, so if anyone comes here to see why a brand new account followed them without interacting with them in any way (yet) I'm just refollowing people (but hopefully not too many too soon so I can dodge the algorithm)

Just had one of the most pleasant dreams in a long time holy shit

  • I'm at my old highschool in line to one of the classrooms for what seemed to be a midnight release of a new game (this was mid day for some reason)
  • Like most of my dreams it gets distracted and once I'm in the classroom the dream completely forgets about it
  • Leave the classroom and go down to the cafeteria where half of the vending machines are being repaired or are vending weird plastic pokemon gatcha crap I can't get a good look at
  • Go down a dark hallway to look for more vending machines because I'm hungry and lunch will end any minute now
  • Hear ada rook performing a song in the cafeteria and go back to see
  • I have no clue if the song she was doing was even a real song by her but I remember clearly thinking it wasn't my favourite but still really great and I really hope she'd do vanish/doom (my favourite)
  • Start recording her performance on my phone which I thought looked surprisingly good despite my poor angle
  • Performance ends and I realize it's halloween and there's going to be a large group photo outside
  • The only costumes I notice are supergirl (possibly millie alcock herself, I didn't get a good look but my reaction seemed to indicate it) maybe like 5 people in gir hoodies which I interpreted as a clear ada rook reference, and like 2-3 people wearing ugly death no redemption angel curse I love you hoodies or shirts (which I'm now looking up and don't seem to exist? It was just the album art on the front and I think the "loudness waveform graphics" on the sleeves)
  • Anyways I go outside and hope to talk to someone with the ada rook "costumes" and/or meet her but I can't find anyone in the group having their photo taken and it just looks like a generic blob of people in everyday clothes (although fairly dark shades of grey for some reason? Idk if that's important but basically my brain didn't "render" a bunch of costumes lol)
  • Somehow I sit beside 2 beautiful fat women my age who are talking about the album hoodie that seemingly doesn't exist irl and when there's a break in the conversation I get the guts to say that the next time there's a restock I'm absolutely going to get the sticker because as much as I want the shirt or hoodie I can't justify 55 or 65 bucks on them but can get the sticker for 10 (it's actually 5 cad lol) and the one closest to me leans her head on my shoulder and I lean my head on her head and I close my eyes in peaceful bliss from the physical contact

It's been so long since mitch mcconnell died that the excitement died as well, which is ironic cause he's still not "officially" dead yet

my social security disability is suspended because they haven't updated my address in years despite my efforts. any help you might be able to give, will be better than the $0 I'm getting this month and for the foreseeable

hi everyone, it's been a few months and donations have completely dried up, so it's about time I make a new post for my kofi

my name is Katelyn, I'm a young disabled trans woman stuck in an abusive household with no source of income, the only way I get money is through generous donations

I need this money for food, to help out with bills, and other amenities like hygiene products or seasonal needs like a fan to help withstand the crushing heat

please donate, I'm running down to my last few dollars and with how hot it's been recently I can't deal with it much longer without a fan to help.

I'm really really desperate

the thing about trans women is that anyone who isn't one can, at any moment, ideologically dump trans women and jump on the genocide bandwagon. they will, generally, face no social or material repercussions for doing so. the "genocide bandwagon" i mentioned earlier? that's 80%+ of the population who, consciously or otherwise, do not consider trans women to be people.

trans women can't do anything about this. if they try to argue back, they're framed as AMAB freaks wielding their male privilege by the people who are attacking them. it's an unwinnable situation because trans women, as a class, are not capable of oppressing the people who are ideologically dumping them. it's happening in droves in "AFAB queer spaces" by covert TERFs who are literally recruiting them. it's low key incredibly terrifying to see.

there was a recent ruling (6 days ago as of my posting this) that states can exclude TRANS WOMEN AND GIRLS SPECIFICALLY from sports teams. this gives LEGAL PRECEDENCE for states to, specifically, discriminate against trans females (in this sense, meaning transsexual women and girls).

i can't write in third person about this anymore because this is terrifying.

we're being sent to men's prisons. those prairieland protestors, including two trans women, got sentenced to 556 total years in prison, essentially life sentences, for "left wing terrorism." in mens prisons we are systematically raped and murdered, including, often times, by the guards.

this shit with the TME qweerz is actively dangerous because its peeling off part of the overall trans community to be used to isolate us. it is an obvious ploy by TERFs to remove the few people who have generally been our allies so that we are more vulnerable. do you think these people don't have think tanks funding these things? they are trying to eliminate trans women from society. the president of the united states has explicitly said such.

if you haven't, read this wikipedia article. there is a concerted effort to funnel all of us into mens prisons where we will be tortured beyond civilian comprehension. please help us.

trans woman fiction author: the government mech that fingers you

trans man fiction author: the cowboys who cried and fingered each other

nonbinary fiction author: fingered by the crow gods

really wish there was a Shinigami eyes for racism. ohhhh how i would get use out of it. preferably, it would be able to run simultaneously with Shinigami eyes, so it would have to do something different than color coding usernames.

prev is definitely right, though in a sense that is also the program working as intended and identifying bigots

Really want some sort of magic button that just makes you cum instantly so I can just keep pressing it over and over until I'm done

Someone pressing it for you, either knowingly as part of sex or with 0 knowledge of what it does but they just stumbled upon a random button not connected to anything and really like the feel of this completely random button you have hidden away for seemingly no reason over and over again

idk man sometimes i like it when video game writers are allowed to plan a series of events that happen in a specific order and affect each other in turn to become an overarching narrative, and i don’t mind trusting those writers to take me through those events in the order that is emotionally effective. i don’t really care if a game forces me to go through the forest area first before i can attempt the icy area because maybe there’s things that happen in the forest area that inform later scenes in the icy area. maybe we don't need more superficial player choice open world concepts if it comes at the cost of the ability to write a story with actual significant plot events and character development in each section

Men making it about themselves again

Not even *just* making it about themselves, they’re vilifying trans women on a post about how we’re vilified bsffrrn

Ah I see we’re doing “trans women are lucky they’re so visible to the panopticon” again

Worst part is the reblogs and comments reacting to this with "Ugh there they both go infighting again, why can't they get along?" I'm sorry but if we keep getting villified and treated like shit are we supposed to just take it so we don't "start infighting again"???? what the fuck are we supposed to do if we keep getting treated like this

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just figured id put this here in response to tall the whiny tmras no you dont actually get treated as bad as us!

Today I went to Trans Pride in London. I wanted to go with just one or two friends because I'm really burnt out from organising atm. But I knew several trans people who wanted to go but had no one to go with, so I ended up organising a (mainly transmasc) group anyway because no one else was going to do it and I didn't want them to miss out. I had an OK time, but 90% of my energy was spent on making sure everyone else was having a good time, which is exactly what I'm burnt out from, so that was frustrating.

On the way there, one of my transmasc friends asked if I was coming climbing tomorrow. I didn't know what they were talking about, so I asked and it turned out that another transmasc mutual friend had organised a climbing session for a small group of us who used to climb together last year. Except they hadn't bothered messaging me about it because apparently they thought I would find out through other people so there was no need to contact me directly. They even explicitly mentioned that I might be coming to others, they just never told me.

This mutual friend is someone who I went really out of my way last year to incorporate into our pre-existing small climbing group. I knew that they were new in town, unemployed and lonely so I made a point of deliberately inviting them to join us and even rearranged the times of our regular climbing sessions to suit them better. They moved away a few months ago, but they've come back for a week and organised this meetup, only without messaging me.

The clincher is that everyone in the small climbing group apart from me is a cis woman or transmasc. This is a group I went out of my way to create to help specific people feel included. And the twist is how easily it lapses into an effectively AFAB-only climbing group just through these little accidents and oversights that I would never dream of doing in reverse. And that me trying to explaining how the fact that it is coincidentally the one transfem who is mysteriously "unintentionally" sidelined, is so easily brushed off by others as an overreaction by me to an accidental oversight.

I am so so tired of being the one person who goes out of my way to give a damn, to care about others' wellbeing, only to never get any of that in return because I am mentally categorised by others as something less than a full person. It is always weird to be in a group of people who, deep down, almost certainly believe that they have a more innate connection to womanhood and misogyny than me, while I'm the one actually doing the feminised labour of caring for them. And that I, like the trope of the overworked mother who is "accidentally" left out of a family activity that her husband and kids are off enjoying, can't complain about it without seeming like a petty harridan.

It is! Taking the labor and value you created and turning around and capitalizing off of it while excluding you even "accidentally" is exploitative transmisogyny.