Suzy

I had such an amazing visit with my Lady K! We took relaxation and self-care to new levels--over her three day (and a few hours) visit, we did face masks, an incredible spa visit, and did under eye masks. And also got hooked on Riverdale, had some wonderful conversations, did some reading, watched other fun fandom shows and saw Wonder Woman. Oh, and had amazing meals out! It was all just so completely delightful.

But the spa, you guys. The spa. It's the one I went to for my birthday, and we both did massages, thanks to my mother. We had such a good time in the circle of tranquility--the steam room was delightful as always, and we figured out that it's scented with Blue Eucalyptus, so I bought that essential oil. The sauna was almost much nicer this time--not as hot, I guess? But the cedar wood scent was beautifully welcoming, and we lounged and sweated and it was lovely. Then the waterfalls and waters----bliss. The pounding water felt so good on my head and shoulders! The whole place just smells so wonderfully relaxing, and we really enjoyed nibbles and flavored water and tea.

I swear, the massage was the best I've had, right up there with the Lush Beatles massage. It was pine and eucalyptus scented, and was all deep compression and yoga stretches. Not a thai massage (so, yeah, some of those stretches while unclothed made me a little nervous, ha), but something made for active muscles. But it exactly met all of my sensory needs and I felt so good. The deep compression was exactly what I've been craving for months, and I loved the stretches and the rocking. She did this great one on my hand especially. But she spent a lot of time on my hips and lower back, which I loved, and it was bookended with scalp massages. She piled 5 or 6 hot towels on my back to start with, which felt amazing, and did the same on my feet after finishing with them. I am honestly still feeling nice and loose, between that and the time in the steam room. (Sweated so much it was glittery, ha.) If I could only ever have just one massage ever again, it'd be that one. The compressions were just so excellent and so exactly what I need to relax, far more than strokes.

So my date from last week has been texting me a lot this week, too. I am somewhat text averse, at least as a main communication technique, so this is hard to get used to. I do it with my friends, but it's harder with new people. But she is trying very hard, and so I am putting in effort, too. Okay, yes, I took a day to respond to her asking if I was around this weekend, but I was doing better before that. And I did respond this morning, admitted that I was worn out after my friend's visit and late nights (and the whole month of socializing, though I didn't mention that), and asked her to come here for a movie on Saturday afternoon. Which she is okay with, though she needs late Saturday afternoon/evening because she is working this weekend. That's fine, I think, movie and maybe frozen yogurt, and home while it's still daylight. Hopefully. Fingers crossed.

I really am tired and worn out, and I really had hoped to spend my two days off and then Tuesday plowing through my stack of library books and not seeing anyone, ha. But the weekend after that, I have an afternoon wedding and then I work the next day, and I can't put this off for two weeks. I figure, it's worth one more date to see if she seems more comfortable and if I am more interested, and then I can decide what to do. And walking in my town to meet her is pretty low stress for me, so I appreciate her coming this way. And I will still have most of Saturday and all of Sunday and Tuesday to hibernate with books, Riverdale and other DVDs I have checked out. So it should be okay.

So far, the only flash of panic I had was when she did a friend request on Facebook. I did not accept it (or decline it, for that matter). She only got my last name by overhearing it at the tea store when I gave my account info, and that's a boundary I am just not into. I am not thrilled with the texting, but can understand that that's mostly on me and my privacy preferences. But there's no need to enmesh social media with someone I may only see one more time, dude. I still have some anxiety about her knowing my full name and place of work, because of the aforeseaid privacy preferences, but I can remind myself she is probably not a serial killer, and it's much less than it was with any guy I went out with. It's harder to brush off as irrational, like I've been able to do with other anxieties this month on the new meds dose, but neither is it entirely controlling things. So that's something.

Let's see, other news. I've been reading the Ghostbusters 101 comic run and enjoying it--the universes of the 80s and 2016 are colliding, and it's fun. The second issue had a retailer special edition with Kate McKinnon Holtz on the cover, and I special ordered it on my birthday. Alas, they accidentally ordered the subscribers cover, which was illustrated and focused mostly on the guys. I was sad, and posted on twitter, and the artist reached out to me to say he had a copy of the Holtz cover and he'd be happy to send it as a thanks for my support. And he did, and I got it today and I am SO HAPPY! It's so awesome, right? HOLTZ!

I ended up not signing up for Fic Corner or RarePairs, since I was uninspired by prompts, and pinned my hopes on FemslashEx. Which needs a new mod, so fingers crossed that it happens! I want Diana/Etta, and Genevieve from Parasol Protectorate! And, of course, Ghostbusters. Heart eyes.

Oh, MAN, she just sent me a video of her performing with her musical theater class and it is hilarious and awful and amazing. I wish I could take a musical theater class, ha. And she can get here in time to do a matinee priced movie, so, that works great for me.

Okay. It is so oddly quiet here without Krissy, sigh. I miss my friend. I think it is time for bed. Rest will help!