stop fucking with me, please.
Nov. 1st, 2010 10:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
suzy_queueToday was a day of ups and downs. Actually, most every day the last week has been up and down. I think maybe it's sleep - lately when I don't sleep as well, I hit this pit of despair around 4pm and want to cry for the next several hours. But this list is today specific:
1. I had the day off!
1b. I was so wound up from yesterday's crappy day that I did nothing last night and was behind from the start.
Net result: Eh, it was a day off. Win.
2. I went to turn on last week's Sherlock and TiVo told me that I was going to run out of programs on 11/7 even though it said it was connecting fine.
2b. After hours of research and troubleshooting and trying horribly annoying things, I figured out a work around and have programs through 11/14 now. ::crosses fingers:: I also burned the most special saved programs to DVD: Mom and Cal on Fox News, Cal's Jungle Book production, Mom on Oprah.
Net result: Utter crap. Stress I didn't need. I'm still twitchy. I hate when my technology fails me.
3. I worked out (did cheer routines) for 20 minutes and then weighed myself. For the first time ever, wii fit cheered me: I lost 5 pounds, am no longer overweight and hit my goal early. I honestly didn't even know what it was telling me at first. I was paying attention to the .54 of the BMI, which had increased from .34, was depressed to gain and failed to note that the number in front of the . had dropped. It was an unexpected joy. (Although given that I'd already noted this week that my jeans were bigger and my measurements had gone down, it shouldn't have been a surprise. My brain isn't logical.)
3b. My immediate response was "This is awesome! I need to keep it up! I'm not going to eat breakfast!" No, idiot, that's the wrong response and will not lead to continued weight loss. I eventually ate oatmeal.
Net result: Totally awesome.
4. I finished my first sewing project! It's a modified Ohio Star Christmas pillow and was really far beyond my skills. But I persevered, worked hard, pushed through my perfectionist tendencies and finished it.
4b. It really, really looks like a first project. I'd fallen in love with the fabric and the pattern and I wanted it to be beautiful. It mostly just looks like a first project. I had to resew a lot of seams at the end and I can only hope it stays together.
Net result: Eh. I finished it and I'm mostly proud. Next time I'll pay better attention to seam allowances and practice using the rotary cutter without cutting myself. I wish there had been fewer errors, though.
5. Tomorrow is election day and I'm so worried. I do not want the governor re-elected because he wants to screw my family. But I can't in good conscience vote for the Republican candidate who has worked with my mother and accepted her position paper on special needs and will repeal the order that hangs over our head.
5b. I investigated all of the candidates and ended up choosing the Green party candidate.
Net result: Really crappy. Oh please God, don't let the gov win by one vote. But the other guy!!! AUGH! I hate that I, a staunch Democrat, have never voted for a Dem gov and will tomorrow cast votes for Republicans and Green Partiers. YOU SUCK, ILLINOIS POLITICS.
6. I went to buy a Christmas tree and realized that the measurements don't work as well as I thought. Then I found another tree that was almost as good and realized that the measurements were likely lying to me. Unless the tree really is 40dx15wx40h, which, probably not.
6b. I can't find a tree to fit! I don't just want my tiny American Girl tree, I want a tree that I can put my Disney and Anne ornaments on. And colored lights.
Net result: I'm really bummed. Maybe I'll try Target this weekend. :(
7. I challenged myself by agreeing to write a story that is perhaps too much of a challenge, but a lot of people are counting on it being finished.
7b. I finished a scene today that should help it find its direction. And a story I wrote this summer with a similar theme hit 1000 hits today. I remember when I was thrilled to see 300, and then 500 hits. 1000 is crazy.
Net result: Gah, stress. This is one of those times I am happier having written, than writing. I hope people like it like they liked the first one.
8. The local news is teasing the weather report with dropping temperatures and a little snow.
8b. SNOW. SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW.
Net result: Dude, it's snow. Total win. I better go to sleep now before something negative counterbalances this.
1. I had the day off!
1b. I was so wound up from yesterday's crappy day that I did nothing last night and was behind from the start.
Net result: Eh, it was a day off. Win.
2. I went to turn on last week's Sherlock and TiVo told me that I was going to run out of programs on 11/7 even though it said it was connecting fine.
2b. After hours of research and troubleshooting and trying horribly annoying things, I figured out a work around and have programs through 11/14 now. ::crosses fingers:: I also burned the most special saved programs to DVD: Mom and Cal on Fox News, Cal's Jungle Book production, Mom on Oprah.
Net result: Utter crap. Stress I didn't need. I'm still twitchy. I hate when my technology fails me.
3. I worked out (did cheer routines) for 20 minutes and then weighed myself. For the first time ever, wii fit cheered me: I lost 5 pounds, am no longer overweight and hit my goal early. I honestly didn't even know what it was telling me at first. I was paying attention to the .54 of the BMI, which had increased from .34, was depressed to gain and failed to note that the number in front of the . had dropped. It was an unexpected joy. (Although given that I'd already noted this week that my jeans were bigger and my measurements had gone down, it shouldn't have been a surprise. My brain isn't logical.)
3b. My immediate response was "This is awesome! I need to keep it up! I'm not going to eat breakfast!" No, idiot, that's the wrong response and will not lead to continued weight loss. I eventually ate oatmeal.
Net result: Totally awesome.
4. I finished my first sewing project! It's a modified Ohio Star Christmas pillow and was really far beyond my skills. But I persevered, worked hard, pushed through my perfectionist tendencies and finished it.
4b. It really, really looks like a first project. I'd fallen in love with the fabric and the pattern and I wanted it to be beautiful. It mostly just looks like a first project. I had to resew a lot of seams at the end and I can only hope it stays together.
Net result: Eh. I finished it and I'm mostly proud. Next time I'll pay better attention to seam allowances and practice using the rotary cutter without cutting myself. I wish there had been fewer errors, though.
5. Tomorrow is election day and I'm so worried. I do not want the governor re-elected because he wants to screw my family. But I can't in good conscience vote for the Republican candidate who has worked with my mother and accepted her position paper on special needs and will repeal the order that hangs over our head.
5b. I investigated all of the candidates and ended up choosing the Green party candidate.
Net result: Really crappy. Oh please God, don't let the gov win by one vote. But the other guy!!! AUGH! I hate that I, a staunch Democrat, have never voted for a Dem gov and will tomorrow cast votes for Republicans and Green Partiers. YOU SUCK, ILLINOIS POLITICS.
6. I went to buy a Christmas tree and realized that the measurements don't work as well as I thought. Then I found another tree that was almost as good and realized that the measurements were likely lying to me. Unless the tree really is 40dx15wx40h, which, probably not.
6b. I can't find a tree to fit! I don't just want my tiny American Girl tree, I want a tree that I can put my Disney and Anne ornaments on. And colored lights.
Net result: I'm really bummed. Maybe I'll try Target this weekend. :(
7. I challenged myself by agreeing to write a story that is perhaps too much of a challenge, but a lot of people are counting on it being finished.
7b. I finished a scene today that should help it find its direction. And a story I wrote this summer with a similar theme hit 1000 hits today. I remember when I was thrilled to see 300, and then 500 hits. 1000 is crazy.
Net result: Gah, stress. This is one of those times I am happier having written, than writing. I hope people like it like they liked the first one.
8. The local news is teasing the weather report with dropping temperatures and a little snow.
8b. SNOW. SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW.
Net result: Dude, it's snow. Total win. I better go to sleep now before something negative counterbalances this.
