Hey Ima no happy chappy .. I have had my xcar smashed up 2wice in 1 week .. One fiday the front quyarter panel .. GOodbye stereo system .. Pissing 1grand down the drain ...
Second time rear window .. few scratches here there and everywere .. front wing mirrors ..
Cooking oil all ove the seats ... gah ..
Moved back toi the rents now .. Got it all good and easy wehey !
Dont have any freedom though .. but oh well .. just means i cant be going out on weeknights having work .. ya know what i mean .. probabbly a good thing though ..
Deff gonna carry on with the training reseim tho ... need to get that gud old 6pack and titts .. lmao ..
My arms aint gonna go hench but they can head towards that way with alot fo hard work .. Ima too skinny ..
I have put on about erm .. 1/4 stone in weight in just under a month of working out ... Purely chest and stomach .. lil bit of arms ..
I rekon in say 2months time ul be able to see the pack thru the t-shirt .. Thats the plan anyway .. iff i suceed il be happy ... summit to work towards hey ! lol .
I have stripped all of my car out and got a tracing steeering wheel and modified my engine ... My car goes like a rocket ... ROund corners and in a straight line ! Its loads of fun ...
Will have to get back to cruising now ima back in sinfin .. although it blaitently smells of cooking oil ! Ugh hey .. stripped it all out cleaned it still diddnt work .. gonna have to get some degreasing agent and window cleaning stuff for it too ..
GOt a few panels to put back on the inside ...
My boot is black too .. ha ha looks wrong .. oh well at least i can drive it !
Ima quite happy at the min tho .. Even with all this bad luck i manage to lookon the positive side of things ...
Heya Its well random living on my loansome .. i get bored at times but oh well i cant exactly do anything to stop that . I have cheered up a lil now .. I do spend alot fo my time sleeping however .. lol .. Oh well .. keeps me busy .. if you want to call it that ..
So i have been in my new pad for around 2-3 weeks i cant remeber .. Time is so slow. Its so weird living on your own . I feel so weird not having a girlie around too .. Im used to having someone to chill wid and cuddle some1 to shout at me and keep me in place .. Im missinf so much from living with my X . im missing my parents house too ,, Grrr . Oh well at least i have my complete freedom now .. sounds fun hey ... Pffttt .. Its so darm boring though .. Nobody seam s to make a effort to see me ... Unless they want something of course .. I remeber the days when i diddnt used to have a worry in the world .. Gah .. Nowadays i could sit for hours and real off a list of problems ... I dont relly have anyone to talk to though .. Everyone or almost everyone i know just wants to get wreked .. thats all they think we have in common . Not me anymore .. I just want to do summit .. i dunno what that is though ... Grrr ... i hope i find some new friends to chill with me .. to not look down on my little crappy room .. My mates think its all cool but know i have had better so it makes me feel upset . I dont sleep too good now you see .. partially cos of the noisy traffic outside my house and partially cos of my stupid head. I best stop blabbering on anyway as im sure iff you have got this far in this post you will be well and truly bored ...
Oh well ..
Meh .. Life is difficult and upsetting at the min ..
Wish i had a bottemless wallet of cash and most of all someone to hugg to sleep ..
Will update soon .. hopefully will be feeling a little bit better ..
3 weeks into the "Batchalor Pad " Pfft .. whatever u wanna call it .. silly mates .. they dnt live there .
So Things diddnt work out with Laura ... Its awsome that were still friends though cos she such a special girlie .. I have moved into a shared house .. The people there are pretty cool but they all seem to keep themselves to themselves .. I tend to ust chill in my room and mong really .. need to get hold of some entertainment Me thinks ima going to get a guitar ... Need a big TV forst though . Its weird living on your own ... Its alright i supose . Im not the type to like being alone though whih makes it a lil crappy, Blaitently the guitar and maybee some weights will cure my bordem a lil . Need lotsa people to ring me ... Lotsa cool ppl .. Your all welcome round.. Nada too much to do i dunno DVD get blazed whatever rerally Would like the company though . Gah i cant wait till payday ... Could do with paying loadsa ppl back the dolla i ow them and also buying a big tv The little TV is crappy lol ... Wouldnt mind a surround sound system too that would be ace! Anyways .. WOuldnt want to bore you with this random crap ..
So Me and Laura have split up .... Im always the bad guy im always the one that does things wrong .. I need to change myself .. I hope my parents will have me back .. I want my old life back I want to be happy i want my friends to be happy with me . I dont want to hurt and upset people cos thats all i seem to do . Stacey wants me out the house aparently i make a bad atmosphere ... I dont know . Probabbly is me that has messed everything up made laura upset . If i keep myself to myself and chill away for a beast things might blow over People might forgive and forget .. I might get my friends and family back .. Why was i such a fool a fuck up ... ive lost everything .. I have me and my car and thats all i have left ... Looks like i casn begin again . this time there will be change Things can change and they will Im sorry everyone ... im sorry ... Going to my mums tonight i went there last night too ... I can wash my car and then go on the net ... Think ima gonna try and get a steering wheel from bill
Nope looks like i aint gonna be getting the steering wheel after all i got caught speeding on the way back to work ..
There goes my licence ... Its awfull i have nutting left now .. whats the point hey ..
My life sucks i have had the worst week in my life ..
ALl that needs to happen now is the job to go ..
I hope the meeting on tuesday goes well .. Why diddnt i pass my uni course ! Why !
All i want to do is make her happy . I dont even mean to piss her off it just happens . I think i am being nice but im being a cock . I cant do fuck all right . I want to see her happy and smiley I have done for the past few days How can we get as vexed at this ! Unrelated piss takes set it all off. Today is gonna be shit .. Anticipation for tommorow I feel guilty .. I should ... I hope she is happy and smiles at me .. Forgets about that stupid shit . Im sorry for being Vain I just like to look and feel good about myself Im para about my looks .. Blah ,,, I am narrow minded ... In the sence of looking and judging.. Makes , Labels , baggy skinny .. WHo gives a fuck ... Its not about that anymore is it its gone even furthar .. Stupid me taking the piss.. Out of what i used to be ., When i changed i became happy i thaught it would work for you .. Obviouslty not its not that simple Im sorry for being a cock.
So i am had a random evening to say the least ... I mean i didnt do much but i found summit out that made me think .. I do still like laura as i have done since we split up . Its those times when i see her all smiley and happy and looking all purdyfull that make me all .. Waaaa inside .. I wish she was like that all the time .. I would so so so jump on her ! hee hee .. I thinks we are seeing less of each other to see how it goes to see if we forget or if we want to remind ourselves of before.. There are going to be a few weeks of waiting hoping and chilling to see what happens .. You never know in a few weeks there could be a happy smiley fun loving Laura and Stevie .... I mean i havnt found or seen anyone that can make me feel the way she does ..when we were going out i diddnt realise how close we really are . Hmmm Hopefully this weekend should be fun 4 days Yippie !
Hmm so its my first post in ages and ages ... Life is weird at the minuite .. Very weird .. I have a pretty laddy hitting on me but i dont know what to do .. I dont want a relationship as i have just come outa one ... I dont wanna cross that line into the relationship zone .. Its hard when she is throwing herself at me .. I cant complain tho ! I dont know what to do .. I have mixed feelings... I have a X gf who @ times i love I have 2 weeks off college in which i will work everyday I have £2 in my bank to last me 2 weeks . I have a phat new car well my old 1 done up .. I have no pennys left so that really sucks.
Stuck at work with nothing to do .. Nobody in but me ... People keep ringing and asking me shizzle.. I havnt got a clue im a apprentice ! what the bizzle! Lammascotte this and hathersage that ,, please help this has blown up .. "Ahhhhhh"
Who wants too come ?? Big huge imense house that is so big you can run around in .. Not much stuff cos ppls are just in process of moving in so can go skits! yay ... Who wants too come and have a mad time ???
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