Breaking The Habit

NAME: Jess
AGE: 18
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: Australia

WEAPON OF CHOICE?: razors, stanley knifes, cigarette lighters
AREA OF CHOICE?: top of stomach, wrists, forearms, top of thighs, inner ankle
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES?: lines. crosses. my dead best friends tag. my other friends initials. sometimes words.
HAVE RITUALS?: For every month my besties been gone, I do another tag. a cross for every year of my other friend.
ASHAMED?: yes
LENGTH OF SELF HARM?: 2 years straight about 5 years ago...then every now and then for a few years....have been doing it regularly again since last July
WHO KNOWS?: no one. a fair few people know I used to. but they don't know i do now
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT?: most people if I get any say
DIAGNOSED?: no
GONE TO THE HOSPITAL?: yes, but it was more for an OD....they just treated a few cuts while I was there...that's when I stopped the first time
MEDICATION?: no
PSYCHOLOGIST?: no...i hate counsellors
PSYCHIATRIST?: no
PSYCHE WARD?: no

WANT TO STOP?: not really. sometimes I do.
IF SO, WHY?: I hate the scars and don't want to explain them to my future husband and kids. I know it really upsets my family and friends.

NAME: Kate
AGE: 18 almost 19
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: NJ

WEAPON OF CHOICE?: sharp scissors, knives, razors, pins
AREA OF CHOICE?: thigh, upper arm, inner arm, knees
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES?: lines. sometimes words
HAVE RITUALS?: Not really.
ASHAMED?: kinda
LENGTH OF SELF HARM?: on and off for 4 or 5 years
WHO KNOWS?: my mom, girlfriend
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT?: quite a few people.
DIAGNOSED?: yeah.
GONE TO THE HOSPITAL?: yes, but for no point. They never do anything but keep you there and ask you questions while you have a needle in your arm.
MEDICATION?: bunch
PSYCHOLOGIST?: gave up on her
PSYCHIATRIST?: yeah
PSYCHE WARD?: twice

WANT TO STOP?: sometimes.
IF SO, WHY?: it scares me and upsets ppl
 

NAME: Tia
AGE: 22
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: NorCal

WEAPON OF CHOICE: Razor blade
AREA OF CHOICE: Arms
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES: Lines
HAVE RITUALS: Being alone...
ASHAMED: Yes
LENGTH OF SELF-HARM: About 10 years
WHO KNOWS: Just about everyone who knows me
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT: people who don't want to know
DIAGNOSED: yes
GONE TO THE HOSPITAL: plenty of times
MEDICATION: Seroquel, Wellbutrin, Naltrexone, and Propranolol
PSYCHOLOGIST: Yes
PSYCHIATRIST: Yes
PSYCHE WARD: Yes
WANT TO STOP: Sometimes...
IF SO, WHY: Cause it makes me feel like a freak

PICTURE OF YOURSELF:

NAME: Kelly-Rae. Kelly for short
AGE: 16, soon to be 17.
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: New York

WEAPON OF CHOICE?: sharp scissors, knives, pills.
AREA OF CHOICE?: thigh, upper arm
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES?: lines.
HAVE RITUALS?: Not really. Just listening to loud music, I guess.
ASHAMED?: yes.
LENGTH OF SELF HARM?: for about four years now, it's gotten pretty bad, but not all the time.
WHO KNOWS?: my mom, and anybody who ever cared to notice.
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT?: quite a few people.
DIAGNOSED?: yeah.
GONE TO THE HOSPITAL?: yes, but for no point. They never do anything but keep you there and ask you questions while you have a needle in your arm.
MEDICATION?: lexapro
PSYCHOLOGIST?: mmhmm.
PSYCHIATRIST?: yeah
PSYCHE WARD?: no, but i've wondered.

WANT TO STOP?: sometimes.
IF SO, WHY?: it scares me, but it also makes me feel so much better.

PICTURE OF YOURSELF:
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NAME: Cameron
AGE: 25
GENDER: Male
LOCATION: Cambridgeshire UK

WEAPON OF CHOICE?: small blade
AREA OF CHOICE?: inner arms
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES?: lines
HAVE RITUALS?: not that I am aware of
ASHAMED?: no way
LENGTH OF SELF HARM?: 4 years off and on
WHO KNOWS?: My parents do now
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT?: dunno
DIAGNOSED?: yep

GONE TO THE HOSPITAL?: yep, been dragged kicking and screaming twice
MEDICATION?: was on before, may need to consider going on again
PSYCHOLOGIST?: yep
PSYCHIATRIST?: yep
PSYCHE WARD?: no, been threatened with it thou

WANT TO STOP?: not right now
IF SO, WHY?:

Old member coming back again, Hope everyone's been well.

NAME: "Dom"
AGE: 24
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: New Hampshire

WEAPON OF CHOICE?: in order of preference- box cutter, push pin, sharpened nail file, scissors
AREA OF CHOICE?: left forearm, left upper arm, thighs, legs, shoulders, lips
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES?: Lines
HAVE RITUALS?: sharpening first, then making lines next to each other
ASHAMED?: ashamed, no.
LENGTH OF SELF HARM?: shallow cuts mostly, except for when the scissors get used
WHO KNOWS?: anyone who cared to look, probably
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT?: People who term themselves "helpers", with intentions to interfere with my free will to make decisions and choices for myself, hopefully.
DIAGNOSED?: nah
GONE TO THE HOSPITAL?: not for si, hate hospitals.
MEDICATION?: no
PSYCHOLOGIST?: no
PSYCHIATRIST?: no
PSYCHE WARD?: no, but I've always wondered if there'd be good friends to find there.

WANT TO STOP?: no
IF SO, WHY?: I like it.

PICTURE OF YOURSELF: Photographs steal your soul. Have one of Sephiroth instead :)

Under the link is a survey I have made about SI in order for research purposes. Moderators, if this is unallowed, please feel free to delete this post. Surveyors, some topics in the survey may be triggering and uncomfortable, please read the disclaimer before you continue. Thank you for your time.

Please email all completed surveys to dancinginthedarkness@hotmail.com
Feel free to email questions, comments and complaints

Alllllright folks. So I really want to get this self injury documentary under way, but if any of you want to see this done, i need your help. Again, thank you to all the people who have send in their stories and pictures so far, but i need more to try and get this done. I am asking that anyone interesting in telling their story to me and for the purposes of this film to please contact me, the purpose of this short documentary is not to focus on the act of cutting, but the people behind it and their stories. Right now I am desperate for a few males to participate, I do not want your side unrepresented. I also really need people willing to do a little blurb on webcam or using a microphone for me. In addition to thoes, I am looking for 3 pictures to accompany each biography, one from early childhood, one from when you started cutting and your most recent picture. I greatly appreciate all your help, and i hope i wont dissapoint! Please send all information, questions and inquires to the adress below. Thank you

dancinginthedarkness@hotmail.com

Hello, I am working on a still video about people who self injure, but i need more people to volunteer their stories. I want people to see what self injury really looks like, the people behind the cuts. Right now I am looking for the following things

"My name is ______ and I am ___ years old. I started self injuring when I was __ because ______. I still self injure because ______ (or) I stopped self injurying when i was __ because _______. Then just say a little about who you are."

Along with information along thoes sorts, i would like at least two photographs of yourself, preferably one as a child (or around the age you started to SI) and a recent one. And if any of you are willing to either do a filmed or audio interview (via webcam, mic, ect) please email that to me as well, it would be greatly appreciated!!!


btw, my email adress is dancinginthedarkness@hotmail.com

NAME: Liz
AGE: 17
GENDER: female
LOCATION: Chicago

WEAPON OF CHOICE?: Razor blades
AREA OF CHOICE?: forearms and legs
LINES, WORDS, or SHAPES?: mostly lines and sometimes words
HAVE RITUALS?: I usually cut while sitting at my computer desk when no one is home or in the bathroom if my dad is home. I am usually listening to music when I SI...unless I am in the bathroom.
ASHAMED?: sometimes
LENGTH OF SELF HARM?: 9 years
WHO KNOWS?: Most of my family, a lot of my friends, and a few teachers.
WHO WILL NEVER FIND OUT?: people who don't meet me...it's pretty obvious that I do it.
DIAGNOSED?: I've been diagnosed as bipolar & clinically depressed. I've self diagnosed myself with anxiety disorder, paranoia, ADD, and borerline personality disorder.

GONE TO THE HOSPITAL?: yes
MEDICATION?: Prozac and Welbutrin
PSYCHOLOGIST?: none
PSYCHIATRIST?: I see her every six weeks and a therapist every other week
PSYCHE WARD?: I've was in the psych ward ward for the better part of my freshman year of high school

WANT TO STOP?: yes
IF SO, WHY?: I am sick of hurting the people I love

PICTURE OF YOURSELF: ( my ugly faceCollapse )