leave.

I know I wasn't going to post anymore but....


I think someone wants me to commit suicide.
BECAUSE LIFE FUCKING SUCKS.

First- I want to start off with, I hate fake people.
MY LORD, VOMIT. If I vomited anymore I swear too Idk what will happen, maybe I will be bulemic or something.

Second- School-My teacher's are out to get me I know it.

Oh and I don't like people who pity me, so don't.
My mom had a cyst on her head , the doctors just figured this one out. Goes to show you
how much CRAP lives in the U.S.FUCKING A. . So she was operated. I didn't know this until I
got home. Let's just say if my anything happens to my mom ...I will probably drive a car (with myself in it) into a canal. Yeah, because I fucking love her.

So yeah.

I'm just hoping some people will get off my imaginary dick now. Don't pity me though. Or I will beat you.

Fuck you.

( I can see the pain in your eyes....It says: Everybody's changing and I don't know why.Collapse )

Saturday was so much fun.

All I have to say is, when people give me dirty looks....I get dirtier.ha.

Hmmm, just because I was dancing with girls...doesn't make me non-straight, Because I am straight. I just like to dance with my close friends...turns some guys on.ha. So Fio tell your aunt to stick something up her ass.





You guys rock my socks.

Wellll LETS START WITH FRIDAY....UM...HOW ABOUT

in my next post? I LOOOOOVE EVERYONE....especially JAVI!!! You rock, whore =D


GABBY IT WAS FUN , grinding on you and Isa ;D HAHAHAHAHAAHA
Paolo , thank you I apreciate how I felt cared about tonight.


Oh......phew. Liberation? Anyone?

DuDEEEE I've been so emo lately.


It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to wake up. So I'll admit, I don't know what it is Paolo has...like some magical power or something. But this wanksta made me feel better. About myself even!
Which is weird because no one can do that, not even my crush! So thanks Paolo for being a friend to me today, I sorta needed one, like real bad. Your on my "almost friend" list. ha. When you give me the comedy cds you promised you would give me ,you'll be on my "OMGSH SO CLOSE TO BEING MY FRIEND" list. ;D

Jacky makes me happy.Andrew makes me laugh.

Gabby and Isa are cool. Glad I got closer to these chicks this year.

Javi and esther are hating on me....so I don't know if I love them as much as I did a week ago.

The rest don't really matter because your totally not on my post today.
Maybe you'll matter tommorow.

OH OH OH OH OH OH and um Paolo is cool. =O

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There were times when I would cry myself to sleep....The Song BEcause of you just reminded me of all the freaking pain I've gone through. Not just with guys but with people in general. I mean you have to listen to this song, It totally represents me. How I feel. How I've changed through the years. I think I've grown better as a person but there are also a lot of negative things I have acquired from all of my experiences. Sometimes I wish I could control things. The truth is we never have control of our lives. There is always something that needs to go wrong.


There is always something that you wish you didn't feel towards someone else because it will cause chaos.
There is always something that you want to say but you can't.
Something you mutter under your breath everytime you see that person.
Something that is unexplainable.
Sometimes I wish I could control who I liked.
But I can't.
I hate having to feel this pain inside, that makes me tear up when I'm alone.
And because of the past I can't open up to that certain guy I want.
Not only because of the past but because he is controlled by someone else.
Not even just that, but because he isn't interested in me.

People tell me I'm beautiful.
But how can I ever feel beautiful if I can't get the one I want.

All these guys I get are worthless. All these guys I talk to are worth nothing to me.
They don't like me for me,they want something I will not give up.
There is one guy I want but I can never achieve because I just can't.
He doesn't want me.
It pains me to realize this.

Then they say "How do you know he doesn't like you?"




Because he will never take me seriously.

So um....YEAH...wow since June I haven't updated. HOW SAD. Don't cry yourself to sleep now , people. Ha. So yeah. Hmmm a lot has been going on in my life. Somethings good , other things bad. Mostly Negative things -but that is only because I focus on negativity. That is just the way my mind works. Well I hope my friends are happy that I posted emo crap. I lost most of my lj friends....wooo I need to make more. Um my community went to hell because I wasn't active and I ran out of cheese. Oh and I'm fat.Oh and my face sucks. Oh and I hate gangsters that call me a slut because of my earings (wooo. Ha. most of you know.) So um I might post more emoness tommorow?


LIKE MY LJ LAYOUT?!?! It's FEATURING ME!!! WOOO.lol
LIKE MY ICON?!?! I MADE IT MYSELF. I felt lusty today.

Dale.Don.Dale.




OH and on the brighter side, look at this handsome young man, that has me going crazy:

Why you should be careful when you wear skirts ladies....and sometimes men too O.o :

TO BAD it freaking rained aLLLLLLL the damn day, I had to go take pictures. SENIOR PICTURES.Mind you my hair looked dead and so did I. Fuck I hate how they came out. I look so fat. But then again what should I expect I am fat. I hate pictures and I hate me. I wish I could just grab a knife an cut off all my fat right now. THIS IS HOW IM GOING TO LOOK IN MY SENIOR PICTURES.UGLY AS FREAK. yay life.