Now, to get to the good stuff.

Wow. Today was a much deserved day for me.
It started out crappy because of a couple of reasons, but damn.
I thank, freaking THANK God for Jacky. I can truely say I'd be lost without her.

She is my best friend and she is so honest with me -it's amazing. My God. It's nice to be
around someone who isn't fake for once.
I didn't know how much I missed her till today. She really helped me forget about
all of my crap and drama and shit that has been going on.

I met some more of her friends.

They are so fucking different.Awsome. Not fake. Not pretending to be your friend.
It felt great.

I'm glad I finally had the chance to be myself- all out, I could relax around these people.
I needed that. I was so tense, so depressed.

I wish I could hang with them more.
I hate sunset. I wouldn't mind leaving sunset for braddock at this point.

My year started out great, then it all went to hell.Yay!
I seriously hate school I don't want to go. Not even for my friends anymore...

...Wait people that I think are my friends. They might be talking shit.
I wouldn't know I mean they talk shit about their close friends, which makes me wonder.
I mean why wouldn't they talk shit?
Everyone does.
But atleast some of us tell it to your face.
Hypocrites. Fuck ,we are ALL hypocrites.

Another thing, if you want to know something dealing with me, ask me. If I don't want to tell you
don't ask around what is it I don't want to tell you. There is a reason why I don't want to tell you.

There are so many things I want to type on here, so many secrets I want everyone to know.
But they are kept secrets for reasons.

I just feel so thoughtful, it's great that I went with them to the beach.
It was a change of atmosphere and there was more of a positive vibe.
Not a negative one. Like I always feel, mainly around some (most) of my friends.
Which makes me sad.

So many things were discovered,said,and done this weekend.

I don't think I'll ever be the same.