5 months have showed more joy then any of the months in the past couple years.
the unexpected drama and losing friends happened again,but its alright cause i truely didnt care to be around those people anymore.
except for one that i have been friends with since 8th grade. but if he thinks its better then its alright. i know hes dealing with alot and i helped as much as i could but i couldnt help anymore.
college isnt everything i wanted it to be but thats alright to.
In May me and the boy are moving to Ohio.im happy.scared.excited.worried.
Ive been so sensitive lately. i dont know where it comes from either.
It makes me be mean to him and i always feel bad the next day.
but he stays around and sticks through it.so that makes me happy.
This house is boring without him while hes at work.
coffee,cigarettes,music and myspace are the only things that keep me preoccupied when hes at work.
I want a kitten.
a small one.
he wants to get a black one and name it darkie,but i dont know about that.lol
hopefully it wont be another 5 months til i write in here.
if it is i guess the people that are still my friends get to here about ohio.
Im starting to really regret not starting school this semester.
I miss boys. Fun boys. Who will get drunk with me and sit there and laugh with me. I just made it sound like i was in a all girls school or something. haha.
When i moved her i made alot of friends fast but then i got sucked into everyones drama over here and now it seems like i hang out with all girls haha
break ups,friendships crushed,horrible guys, having kids,its just all so crazy but sometimes i think if my life wasnt always so surrounded with drama id be one bored person. and im always just sitting there listening to it i hardly ever put my 2cents into it so i dunno why everyone tells me about it cause i dont think i seem like much help but if it helps them then its alright with me cause at least im gettin all the gossip first instead of being one of the last people to hear about it. i dont really know if thats a bad thing or not i mean i sit there and think about my life having no drama at all and then i think that,that takes away about 90% of all conversations that are thrown my way and i think that it would probably be really boring and it also means i would have to start talkin more,which all in all i wouldnt be to happy about that haha.
but yes i need old friends and new friends to all get drunk with me hahaha i miss those days. i think i must be craving alcohol right now cause im talkin about it alot hahaha.
but anyways im at a red cross shelter and im susposed to be entering data into there computer systems for my comm. service but im being lame and got online for a lil bit. so i gotta go.
oh p.s. i still have yet to get internet hooked up at my house yet it sucks its been so long... but ive kinda learned to live without it haha
I hate the kids here. There stupid,ugly,gross,and really fucking immature. And whats up with them all like hating women? Ok just cause u got fucked over doesnt mean u have to be rude to all women. AND I DONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND PROBLEMS OR HOW DEPRESSED SHE MAKES YOU!!! GET OVER IT YOU FUCKING PANSY'S and im sorry that i dont look like your sleasy,slutty ex girlfriend. And that i have tattoos and a piercing though the middle of my nose. FUCK U KIDS IM NOT SORRY THAT I LOOK DIFFERENT. YOU CAN ACCEPT OR REJECT IT.IT DOESNT MATTER TO ME!!!!!! I hate moving. I miss the kids in katy. god i love those kids. those kids meant everything to me. and these kids mean nothing to me.
yeah the pictures are pretty shitty cause i didnt have my digital camera with me but a girl left her camera on stage so i ended up just takin it and takin alot more pics on it and for some reason the pics look 10times better printed then on the disk,walgreens makes the pics look soooo shitty screw them... lol
my backs fucked up once again..... i go in for x-rays at 5 today... LAME
anyways The blood brothers last wednesday were amazing i found some girls camera so i took it and just started takin so many pics anyways i'll have them put on cd and put them on here...
i think i might continue to write in here again.. i dunno
god i've liked the blood brothers since like 2000 but lately i've really gotten into them so much more. i saw them live a couple of months ago and thought they were amazing but still i was just like BLEH but i've been listenin to there newest cd crimes and its slower then the rest of the cds but i still really like it.
and thank god i dont have a fever anymore,i had a fever for like 2 days but it went away last night...
Tonight me and Andrea are going to see Letterkills,shes so cool shes paying for my ticket cause im broke at the moment : ( friday though i will have money and i will definally buy her something.
i had to take out my hair extensions,i had some type of reaction to them and it made my scalp all red and itchy... it fucking sucks but i guess im just gonna grow my hair out. it grows fast anyways,i just wish it wasnt so damn short.
sick
cold
annoyed
sleepy