Depressed beyond belief...

At 7pm, I get to decorate the house a little...I don't wanna...T_T  I don't know why I don't wanna...Then I get to wrap gifts, which I suck at, so I use a whole bunch of tape.  XD

And something really weird is going on with my LJ.  >.<  It just added two extra spaces at the top of this post and I can't get it to go away.  >.<

To top things off, I really really really miss Kai.  T_T

And I'm getting really really disheartened in my Japanese.  T_T  Again.  T_T  

I go to Japan in 7 months and I've been practicing and stuff for 3 almost 4 years now and I don't remember a single fucking thing.  T_T

I don't like getting so frustrated that I end up crying.  T_T  There's things that I KNOW that I should know in Japanese, but I can't get it.

FUCK YOU, AMEBA!!!  FUCK YOU!!!  T________T