♥.la bela

you know what...

i'm going to do GREAT things with my life.

not quite sure how to feel. is this what i wanted?

ya know...i really wanna start living life according to my own terms. college is supposed to be one of the greatest experiences of your life, and right now i'm a yes/no for that. i'm sick of missing out on friendships that are harmless, meeting people is 90% of the experience here, and i don't want to feel like i'm wrong or hurtful for indulging in that anymore. i've sacrificed enough, cut off too many ties already, and there's just no need for it. and no, i'm not obsessed with guys or love the attention or whatever, but i do like to have fun and not worry if a conversation with someone is going to get me into trouble. why does it matter so much? having friends is a healthy thing, why make it so dramatic and make me feel the need to push people away? i'm done lying to my roommates that i have stuff to do on the weekends, i'm gonna start hanging out with them more, regardless of where we go. and if anyone has a problem with it, i'm sorry. but friend relationships are just as important, and people need to be understanding of that. i've possibly got more than four years left here....after that, when i'm working, why would i wanna look back and think, "wow, i really didn't meet too many people in all that time there". what kind of college experience is that?? there are a few people back home i know i'll always be friends with...but besides them, living here has shown me an entire different world than st clair shores. it was so incredibly refreshing and exciting first coming here. nobody knew me nor cared about my past. i have yet to meet someone who's not all about havin fun. high school was supposed to be the best too, i definitely had a blast but here there's so much more potential. and i decided i'm going to take the oppurtunities and walk away from MSU with the greatest memories of my life.

i'm officially POOR.

so kimmy and kevin FINALLY had their baby. Kaylie Michele McMurray!! i'm so happy for them, i can't wait to see them all!

so i've come to find out bryce is a hard core michigan fan. ugh. so in the midst of our argument i pulled out the number one reason state is way cooler than u of m: (this is a fact too i promise)

michigan doesn't even have a taco bell, ours DELIVERS.

so take that bryce. he admitted defeat of course.

this has been one of the best weekends i've had in so long. i wish it could go on just a little longer.

joey and i have been having so much fun together. this weekend we just had a blast goofing around. he's honestly my best friend, he was making me laugh so much, i loved it. it's such a good feeling to know you can just chill together like that, it was just what i needed after that stressful week. oh and to top it off, we are officially thee most kick-ass beer pong partners alive. we took down the champ ryan forth himself. HA.

now i only have one more week to get through and i get to go home early for thanksgiving. i'm so excited to see my family. it's been nice to be away from the shores for three straight weeks, but i miss some people so much.

i want to try out for cheerleading in the spring so bad. i'm worried about the committment though. i absolutely must have a job, and between working, practice, and classes, i'd probably be a mess. who knows though.

oh and my mom realized today i get 30,000 miles on my truck, not 23. so this whole time we thought i was over. haha, oh well. that means that after break i can drive it up to school and have a car here until february! i think she knew that all along...

alright well i'm off to bed. i want to sleep until next monday so that i can wake up and just go home!

joey just ran into Dick DeVos at the bowling alley.

i personally don't like the guy

BUT

he gave joe a free T-shirt!

another fabulous weekend.

michigan state was the best idea i've had in awhile

i'm running in the detroit free press/flagstar marathon next year!

26 miles. yikes.

buuuut i have all summer to get in shape for it. it sounds sweet, you start at comerica, run through canada and back, and end at the 50 yard line in ford field. you have to be able to complete it in 6 and a half hours. but that actually sounds like a lot of time, so i think i'll be good.

aaanyway.

saturday is going to be way fun. i just hope it doesn't snow during the game.

ummm, mariucci at state? hmmm...