silent vows

you don't know how hard life is without you in it. it's been heavy, and getting through each day has been a struggle. believe me, your heart hasn't suffered nearly as much as mine.

i repeat: just because it's gone doesn't mean it was never mine. it was just not mine to keep.

no, you don't have to give it back.

i did it out of love.

“what's so good about her?”

“she's kind.”

i want to write a poem, i write your name.

i still come back home with things to tell you.

“how do you know it's love?”

“it makes you a child again.”

i will never be ashamed of being someone who loved a little more.

i don't regret the love i gave. i know you needed it. i hope you're doing better now.

i wouldn't have made it if i didn't have you holding my hand

i need you to know i would never be this strong without you

you've seen how i have grown, you took all my doubts, 'cause you were home.

don't know if you get it 'cause i can't express how thankful i am that you were always with me when it hurts, i know that you'd understand.

your love i'm lost in, and i'm tired of being so exhausted. even though i'm nothing to you now.

i have been holding on to hope that you'll come back when you can find some peace.

i have been told to get you off my mind

but i hope i never lose the bruises that you left behind.