silent vows

you don't know how hard life is without you in it. it's been heavy, and getting through each day has been a struggle. believe me, your heart hasn't suffered nearly as much as mine.

i repeat: just because it's gone doesn't mean it was never mine. it was just not mine to keep.

no, you don't have to give it back.

i did it out of love.

“what's so good about her?”

“she's kind.”

“do you have any kinks?”

“yes, seeing you in everything i love.”

i want to write a poem, i write your name.

i still come back home with things to tell you.

“how do you know it's love?”

“it makes you a child again.”

i will never be ashamed of being someone who loved a little more.

i don't regret the love i gave. i know you needed it. i hope you're doing better now.

i wouldn't have made it if i didn't have you holding my hand

i need you to know i would never be this strong without you

you've seen how i have grown, you took all my doubts, 'cause you were home.

don't know if you get it 'cause i can't express how thankful i am that you were always with me when it hurts, i know that you'd understand.

your love i'm lost in, and i'm tired of being so exhausted. even though i'm nothing to you now.

you're out of touch

i'm out of time

but i'm out of my head when you're not around.