You want to know what?
Actually it's not fair.
I should have gotten to take my time
And get to know you slowly
I should have been able to take you out
On a real date and pay for everything
I should have gotten to have you over for dinner
And slow dance in the kitchen
Wake up with you in my arms
Make you pancakes for breakfast
I should have gone kicking and screaming
As you broke down my defenses
Because I am not hard to get
And I am easy to love
In spite of everything that has happened
We should have both tried to run as fast as we could
But ended up folding neatly
Like clean linens
Pressing at each other with firm hands
Until you showed up at my door
And said we'll make it work
Instead the universe is torturing me
To have such a connection
To see so clearly what the next 10 years
Of my life could be
But tell me it won't happen
Not with this person
I'm going to cry in the car on the way
Back from the airport
I already know it will take everything in me
To collect myself
And shut out the could have been day dreams
To push forward
There's nothing I can do
And it's just not fair.
