You Know What’s F**king Frustrating?!

It’s fucking frustrating when you’re one of those people who care about other people’s well-being over your own. When the people you care about are hurting themselves (dating people that treat them badly, having friends that are cruel to them, emotionally putting themselves through hell, etc.) and they don’t even realize it. And when you give them advice they get all defensive and angry that you’re telling them that what they’re doing is hurting them. Or they give the whole ‘I’m fine’ because they literally don’t have any idea that they’re not. But they’ve let some words slide. Certain things they’ve said clue you in that they’re not really okay. But the more you try to help the angrier they get or the more distant they get. Sometimes they’ll come at you saying there’s no way you could understand what they’re going through and that you don’t know how it feels. And the fucking worst part? One day a total stranger is going to tell them the same thing you’ve been telling them forever and they’re going to cling to every word of a stranger. They’ll get their act together and finally see what’s wrong and you’re left picking up the pieces. You’re left watching them walk away all fixed and healed and you’ll finally feel part of that ache go away. The pain that came with watching them suffer. But the pain of their rejection will always be with you. You’ll always wonder if maybe you didn’t love them enough or maybe they never loved you to see the truth. But while they someday flourish and grow you’ll wilt and gray under the pressure of holding them up for so long. And you’ll still love them like you always did. And you’ll still be there if they need you. Waiting for them to realize how much you loved them. Waiting forever just to be acknowledged. Because they don’t know that they mean the world to you.