dead bodies everywhere

things aren't very good right now.

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FUCK THIS SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

soooo things are slowly starting to get back to normal, i'm coming back to school second semester so that should be interesting, it's gonna be tough to get back used to having to do homework and what not. Buuuut over all i'd say things are going pretty well, definetly a hell of a lot better then they have been.

I guess everyones doing they're little " 06 update" thing and i would have to say 06 was preeeetty much the worst year of my life. Grandma died. My atv accident. and a lot of other stuff, i guess through this whole thing iv'e kind of realized who's there for me and who isn't. I dunno, i guess getting messed up like this kinda shows you who you're true friends are, and i have some amazing ones. Not saying that anyone isn't a good friend but its just pretty obvious to tell how much people care and how much others don't as much. I guess complaining about everything won't solve anything so i guess i just have to hope that '07 is a hell of a lot better then '06. It sucks just for the fact that i'm 16 years old and the year started off great and then allll because i decided to just ride an atv for like an hour my whole year got fucked. It's just amazing to me how much little things like that can change your life. I noticed today that i'm super like...tense..when i'm driving with other people, just because if i got i almost died from riding an ATV while my life was in my own hands, how do i know something won't happen when it's in someone elses? I dunno if i learned one thing from this it would probably just be not to take things for granted, because one liiiittle thing that seems so insignificant can totally change your life. On a good note theres this girl named amanda and i like her a lot and i hope that our relationship can withstand the fact that i'm messed up right now, gotta give her props for wanting to go out with someone who has this much shit going on right now though, anyway we're hanging out tommorow and i'm excited. that's it.


Matt.

Today is the one year aniversary of the death of my grandma Bernadette Klitzka. She was amazing and had maaany years ahead of her. She was an amazing grandmother and would have given me anything in the world so i guess i'm trying to use this little bulletin as a way of spreading the word of a wonderful woman that changed who i am.

Thank's for reading this and helping me keep what little we can of Bernie Klitzka alive.

been out of the hospital for three weeks, surgerys every monday wednesday friday. Things are going...ok. don't feel like typing, bye.

Yeah so, im back in the hospital, have been for two weeks, for the past week i've been having surgerys every day, literally. that continues till the end of this week. So i've been pretty depressed lately because of all the shit thats going on, plus it's almost the one year mark for when my grandma died and i'd really like to be with my grandpa when that day comes, and i don't think i will be able to. I also won't be able to start school for another couple weeks to a month. Basically i have two Three inch wholes on the side of me with a tunnel underneath of my skin connecting them because it's all dead tissue, so the

I Died....

I'M OUT OF THE HOSPITAL NOW

So was released on monday to go home but i wouldnt be able to take the whole ride so we stopped at my grandpas and slept there, then we went home the next day, which includes me laying in the back on a mattress for after having surgery on my ass and stomach, not comfortable. So we get home, i sit down for a bit and jake and jordy show up, so we talk and stuff for like an hour, then my moms like " oh you have to go to the doctor" so i was pissed since i've been at a hospital for  8 days already, so i was pissed, we get to the hospital and the doctor tells me i have to go to childrens hospital to get " checked out" so we do. To make a long story short the doctor said i would be here "through the weekend" on tuesday. So i'm pretty much fucking pissed. Then he tells me i need to have surgery again. More fucking pissed. So wednesday i had surgery, sucked but whatever. So right then i'm thinking " alright, i'm done now, no more surgerys, no more bull shit, just chill in the hospital and get better and go home" then they tell me i have to have surgery again today, so i did at like 10:30 which sucked. THEN they tell me that i have to stay another week, ANOTHER FUCKING WEEK. To top it all off i need to have surgery YET AGAIN on monday. Like seriously, am i the only one that thinks that when someone says you'll be staying " through the weekend" that means you go home after t-he fucking weekend? So basically everything sucks right now, call me an emo bitch if you may but my life basically sucks about now. I just want to be able to be at my own house laying in my own bed watching tv or something, i mean fuck anything but here, and now i have another fucking week.


Yeah well, i'm at Children's Hospital and mostly bored out of my fucking mind, so if you're bored come up here and we can hang, cus' i'm not like sitting in bed dying or anything, i just have to sit here, so yeah come up and see me and that'd be cool, come anytime cus' i'm definetly not going anywhere haha. So yeah, Children's Hospital,  Room 577


VISIT ME PLEASE?

Yeahhh. so right now i'm in the hospital and have been since sunday. I was at jakes grandmas and grandpas cottage for a cople days and we went ATVing annnd i was going like 45 MPH and flew off pf the ATV and hit a tree in mid-air with my left side, and just layed there until jake drove up, my hip was immedieately swellon so i thought it was broken, i also couldn't feel my hip so the thought of paralysis was definetly on my mind. Jake drove up and was kinda freaking out, and then he went and got help, the whole time i was just thinking " fuck i think i'm paralyzed" finally the ambulance came and then i had to enjoy the 45 minute bumpy ride to the hospital, where i had to take like an hour of X-rays and then go into surgery, still being completely clueless as to whether or not i'm paralyzed, What the surgery is doing,Is my life in danger etc. and the whole time my family was 5 hours away so i had no one there when i woke up, i guess what it came down to is i got pretty messed up on the inside (internal bleeding,damage to intestines and other stuff) and as far as my hip goes, apparently nothing is broken although i still can hardly feel it. I find it pretty amazing that i didn't break a single bone when i flew at a tree at 45 miles per hour hitting only my left side. I really didn't realize how big of a deal it was until the doctor told me i could of died if jake hadn't gotten help as quick as he did, two hours without blood and i would have died. So i basically had 45 minutes to spare before i would have ran out of blood. now i'm here laying in my hospital bed, two days until i can come home waiting for my " hero " as all the nurses like to call him to bring me something to eat. So i basically went from having pneumonia for the first half of summer, to fucking myself up amazingly the second half.

I'd like to be all cliche and say " Well i'm glad i'm alive" or " It could have been a lot worse", but i'm not gonna lie....this fucking sucks.


Overall Summer Rating: Shitty As Hell