i am absolutely dying here. i cant stand to be away from jamie for another minute, yet i have 18 more days to wait. the worst thing is i cant call her when i need to and when i do its always to short and not satisfying. she doesnt even realize the pain im going through. i can do almost nothing to keep busy. anything i start to do gets old within about 5 minutes. if i could put myself into a coma for the next 18 days i would, but the thing is i cant. its 18 measly days, and its been like 26 since ive seen her, and 44 since shes been gone. i just dont know what to do.
havent updated in a long ass time. its summer. jamies gone. i miss her like crazy, but im just kinda chillin at home. Hanging out with casey and friends alot. Working on building a weed-wacker powered bicycle. Jamie comes home in like a month, im so exicted that its not even funny. I have my senior picture on friday, kinda nervous about that one because i cant smile good in pictures. I think that it will turn out pretty good tho. I sent Jamie her harry potter movie, along with a bunch of corney cheesey love letters and such, but i think she will like them. I just ordered a centrifugal clutch online for the bike. I spent last night looking at old lj posts from the early days of me and jamie. It was fun, i endeed up smiling alot. I sure do love her alot.
havent updated in forever. way to lazy. anyway. christmas was good this year. got some new golf clubs, some movies, a cd and some other random shit. and MY HAT. Jamie found me one that looked similar. and i also got another one from my mom, and i will wear them intermittantly. yea. off the topic of christmas, on a rather depressing note, basically everybody i know is having or has had sex. And thats really making me feel wierd like me and jamie are the only ones that see the point in waiting. i dont relaly like the fact that everybodys doing it, and instead of making me wnat to have sex, its making me want to wait more. This sounds pretty queer from a guys standpoint i know, but really theres a couple reasons that stand out. one, is the fact that in high school, you probably arnt gonna marry the person you are dating now, the statistics are slated against you. So if you do have sex with your high school boyfriend/girlfriend and then you break up, guess what, youve lost something you can never get back. And its almost worse if you do grow up to marry that person. Because its like after you get married, you can look forward to having kids. Thats really the only thing you havent done. Even onyour wedding night if you have sex, its like, "oh weve done this before, what significance does it have?". So really, with more and more people i know having sex, i think i should probably try to not untill i get married. Cuz then i can be like, here (jamie hopefully) you can do something with me that ive never done with anybody else, and have never done with you. therefore it stays special.
aight. im done with my queer rant. anyway, merry christmass to all. i got a new camera and took pics in chicago. but i dont feel like posting them
yea so had my birthday. havent updated in a while. i got a psp with all the money i had, and i got wireless headphones, and burton capstraps. im also getting a digital camera from my aunt. all in all, a pretty good birthday. and i still love jamie. which reminds me, i got an awesome cheesy card from her, and a book about how to build stuff like a potato cannon and shit. its tight
yea havent updated in forever. Schools gettting hard, cuz of all the shit im in. Football team aint doin good. Marqueer week this week. we better win. shoulder jumped in its socket, and it hurt like a bitch. i finally got my new shoes. i love jamie. im random as hell.
so yea school is ok. my favorite teachers so far are siebert and hobs and mohsen. i have jamie in that class so its tight. yea. footballs goin ok. i feel bad for matt. i hope he gets better. i got new computer at my moms house and i feel bad for jason flowers. he broke his leg. and it looked like it hurt soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad.
short update. yea got a flat tire, but it was fixed for free. probly will get to work in dairy now instead of cleaning shit/being the bitch. football is goin ok. i love jamie. i like to sit back and think about how much she is cooler then anyone else.
hung out with brian and dan wick today. skated alot and it was fun. and we went to the mall. yea ive got a headache and dont feel like explaining shit. im going bed.
got ut 2004. installing it now, and it seems to be workin. wich is grand. i also helped invent a word. a substitute word actaully. it is üt and ütan, which is substituted for fuck and fuckin.
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