theladyfeylene, posts by tag: silent hill - LiveJournal

Wow, I got next to no sleep last night.

Pills are still working! As long as I drag myself out of bed and take one.

I have so much crap to review. Three books and two video games. Though I'm not quite done with SH: Homecoming yet. It can't be too long, though. I'm heading to the prison now. My god, this is an incredible game. This is the way I like my horror. Subtle, creeping, and atmospheric. Atmosphere has always been a huge draw for me, in terms of the Silent Hill series, but Homecoming goes above and beyond. From the textures and shading to the background sound, everything blends perfectly to give this very eerie feel.

I do have some complaints about the weapons, but I almost always have complaints regarding weapons in the Silent Hill series. Right now, for melee weapons, I stick with the crowbar - yay long reach! - and the dagger. The shotgun is my friend, but damn there's not much ammo.

Love the characters, as always. There's a reason that 2 and 4 are my favorites of the series - they're extremely character focused. Homecoming seems pretty well split between delicious King-esque plot and characters. Which is a balance I have to say I quite enjoy. Alex is made of awesome and win. The side characters are fascinating and diverse. And oh-so-symbolic.

Plus? The street names in Shepherd's Glen fill me with fangirlish glee and giddiness.

I would, however, just once, like to have a Silent Hill that does not victimize the female characters. I know, I know, I'm asking too much. The Room tried, but they ended up with a no-win situation. Either Eileen is regulated to the damsel in distress role, or she actually does pick up a weapon and kick the shit out of monsters along side Henry...only to be further victimized due to those actions. It drives me insane.

I suppose I should just be happy there's finally a POC, and take that as a win.

We watched the fifth Harry Potter movie last night, and once more I was filled to the brim with nostalgia and longing. It's calling me back. I should just stop fighting and let it happen, really.

It's just nice to be taking interest in things and finding enjoyment in things again. That was missing for a good bit. Going out to see if I can finish getting things ready for con today!

Why does this always happen? I have deadlines for original work, and when the plot ideas and story snatches come, it's for fan fiction. I'm positively buzzing with ideas this morning.

I watched Prisoner of Azkaban again last night, because it was on. nijawial was home this time, and watched it with me, and we had hilarious running commentary. And then, when we broke out the wine coolers, I dug out my Sirius Black poster and he's now looking over the living room from the prime spot above the couch. (Though once we find something else to go there, he's going to move to next to the front door, to be on a darker surface as Nija suggested.)

I have this bunny for a Silent Hill fic. It's just one that's going to take some thinking and tweaking to work, since it relies heavily on Henry getting stoned, and my general consensus for Henry re: drugs is: tried it a little in college, never really got into it, doesn't bother with it anymore.

But I was reading about people sharing their experiences with THC induced hallucinations, and got to thinking how that could really be something interesting to work with. Especially in a Silent Hill context. Which means it doesn't have to be Henry, he's just sort of my default when it comes to Silent Hill. ;) But I've never written Heather, and James is more of a booze hound than anything else.... (And I'll spare you my listing of every major SH character and my thoughts on them and drugs.)

On the other hand, I do have an idea for something I need to get submitted in April. Which means this is going to be another rush, but this will need rush editing. So I've got to bust my little butt on it. It only needs to be about 5,000 words, though.

Yay Monday.

I'm not doing Advent Fics, but I'm going to try and post a drabble every day. Here's Dec 1, 2 and 3 to get us on track! :D All holiday themed or winter themed in some way!

Title: Something's Missing
Fandom: Venture Bros
Spoilers: Season 3
Rating: PG
Warnings: N/A
Wordcount: 100

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Title: Christmas Shopping
Fandom: Silent Hill 4
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: N/A
Pairing: Henry/Eileen
Author's Note: Totally inspired by Henry and Eileen over at CU. :D
Wordcount: 100

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Title: Keeping Warm
Fandom: HBC
Pairing: Valyn/Shadow
Rating: PG
Spoilers: N/A
Warnings: N/A
Wordcount: 100

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It's freezing cold and cloudy/rainy out. I think I'm going to stay in bed and write and RP all day.

I woke up this morning thinking about fandoms. Specifically, that meme that did 'your fandoms as lovers/exes'. I couldn't remember what the different lists were, but I sort of did it myself. Now that I'm pretty settled as far as fandoms go, anyway. Because it's just so true! And it's nearing the end of the year, so it's about time for a review of this sort.

Obviously, at the moment, my Main Squeeze is Venture Bros. I'm wrapped in a steamy, torrid affair that doesn't seem likely to end anytime soon. We're in it for a while, me and the Ventures. ;) It wasn't exactly love at first sight - I was intrigued, but needed to be won over. We flirted for a season, a season and a half. And then, somewhere in the middle of season two, we just clicked. Maybe it was the strung out, drug addicted middle aged Johnny Quest. Maybe it was re-casting the Scooby Doo gang as a group of sociopathic wandering serial killers. Maybe it was Dr. Girlfriend flawlessly recreating some of Aeon Flux's most famous moves, I don't know. But it was Love.

Of course, I am still carrying on an affair with Silent Hill. Silent Hill is kind of like that SO you're hesitant to show off to new friends or family, because it can be a little weird and scary. A little dangerous, pushes your limits a little, but underneath it's a lot of fun and love and laughs. Maybe you seem like a weird couple to outsiders, but those on the In understand completely. It's not all tentacle rape porn and guro! Really!

HBC is, and forever will be, my steady mistress in Europe. ;) We've gone the distance and proved it's For Real. But such a tiny and often mocked fandom? It remains only in my LJ. There's no where I could take it in public!

Death Note was a flash in the pan romance that I should have realized was bad for me right from the start. It was painful and full of fights and for all that there were one or two things that I did really love, overall, there just wasn't anything there for me. We still keep in casual contact, and every now and then I'll muster up some effort to keep the connection alive, but it soured early and it soured badly. I just hung around because everyone was so used to us together.

Ouran was the popular guy that I went on a few dates with, had a couple of drunken one night stands with, and then parted with on friendly terms. There is little interest to revisit, but I've got nothing but fond memories.

FMA. Oh, FMA. No matter where I roam, no matter what shiny new fandom I woo and court, it will always be you I come home to in the end. It's always you I think of when caught letting my mind wander. It's always you, will always be you. Everything about you makes me tremble and shiver. You're beautiful, you're intelligent, you're complex, you make me laugh and cry and keep me on the edge of my seat...even when I know your story already, it doesn't matter. I can watch again and again and again.

Just you wait, baby. I'll be back again. I always am. ;)

Title: It Was A Mortal's Passion
Fandom: Silent Hill 4
Pairing: Cynthia/Henry
Rating: R/NC-17
Word Count: 1,000
Warnings: N/A
Spoilers: For the first world
Author's Notes: Slightly AU, in which Cynthia is able to give Henry the 'special favor' she promises.
Summary: It wasn't the sort of thing Henry normally did. But here and now, Cynthia's body pressed against him, he just wanted to feel something normal.

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Whoot! Got errands done today!

I also picked up Season 2 of Venture Bros on DVD. Gah, the inside panel art makes me melt. And reaffirms my epic, epic desire for cover art of my NaNo project. I can see so clearly how I want it, too. Maybe I should pester Nija about teaching me to draw. ;)

I also grabbed a couple more bits of decoration for the shed. A Led Zeppelin window sticker and a Pink Floyd one. And I've decided I'm going to get black light Icarus to hang in there one way or another! The Batcave/Fallout Shelter/Whatever will be complete!

Still need a new little DVD rack.

I actually have a lot of stuff to do today, I realized, and nearly all of it is on the computer. Speaking of things on the computer...

ranchangrnl, were we ready for RW!Shadow and Myre's late night tryst?

Also, why the hell is my brain telling me to write some kinky Henry/Cynthia PWP fic instead of working on NaNo? What the hell, brain! We just figured out how to get Dean's pants off, come on, roll with this....

Bah, my stomach trouble seems to be back. It's been pretty good for the last month or so - a few upsets after dinner, but nothing monumental. But this morning I woke up feeling nauseas and spent a good ten minutes dry heaving. It passed, like it always does, but it's a pain in the ass.

And my legs are still being utter bastards. I indulged in fantasies of amputating them at the knee last night.

Anyway, enough about my crappy health!

I beat 0rigins yesterday! I honestly didn't think I was going to do it - not with half life, hardly any ammo and only one healing item. But somehow, Travis pulled through, as he always had before! I think there's something a little bit wrong when the boss battles are easier than the normal monsters running around on the street. The boss battles in 0rigins, while interesting (especially the Sanitarium boss and the Motel boss) weren't exactly...difficult or frightening. I didn't have any moments of 'ohshitohshit' or anything like that. In fact, the first motel battle ended up being a little bit laughable, as apparently someone doesn't know how to go around corners and spent most of the battle attempting to walk through a table.

But in all honesty, that is my single complaint about the game.

I don't understand the hate-on I've seen for 0rigins. I really don't. The design was beautiful, we had some neat new monsters, the plot was solid (if a little predictable for a SH game) the characters were good, the puzzles were good, the atmosphere was beautifully Silent Hill, and I know I'm not an expert when it comes to that particular storyline, but it didn't look like canon was buggered at all by the game. And I liked Travis. I still maintain he's the world's most backwards smoker - generally, smokers smoke when upset, stressed, angry or unhappy - but it was amusing nonetheless. I'm tempted to try some fic for it, but I have no idea what.

ChaCha is going well! I've got around 70$, which to me is a hell of a lot of money. And I'm terribly tempted to ChaCha my ass off until I can afford an Xbox.

In an effort to not feel like a total slug, I did myself up in Aristocrat today. I was going to do Lolita, but it's a tad cold for a knee skirt, even with socks. So I'm swathed comfortably in my long black ruffled skirt. I think I'll do some more decorating today.

Oh! summoneddestiny! Did you say you have a fax machine? I need to fax in my ID for my bank stuff.

I think I'll start my Oktoberfest fic today....

The high for today is only 65 degrees. This may not seem too terribly cold, but add in potential 37 MPH wind and rain, and it's pure misery. I think at this point, I'm as recovered as I'm going to get. There's still very much an all over ache, and stabbing pain in my lower back and hips when I move certain ways, but I'm getting around without needing my cane and I'm sitting up alright.

Still having a hell of a time sleeping, but that's really nothing new.

I'm trying to get caught up on RP right now, and figure out what I need to do today. I want to make some more progress on my room.

Yesterday was spent playing SH:0. We finished the sanitarium and the theater - oh holy hell, why does a single hit from nearly any monster drop Travis' life by half? I love Travis. I don't want him to die. The theater section was extremely well done, though, and I really enjoyed the atmosphere and the clever puzzles. And the design of it was just very, very well done. The color scheme, the narrow hallways, the small details... plus, it was something new. The Sanitarium was pretty nicely designed, too, but there wasn't a sense of something new there. It was a mental hospital, with nothing terribly new. I did call the big reveal, though.

Homecoming has been released. And in honor of that, I've removed all the SH communities I belong to from my Flist, to avoid spoilers. I'm saving up for an Xbox 360, and Homecoming is going to be my first purchase. What vague things I've heard have sounded promising, and the music is beautiful. And I'm not going to make any assumptions or anything until I play it - I am one of those people who hails The Room as the best of the series, after all. ;)

I'm doing a ton of research on Etruscan mythology and death legends for my Oktoberfest fic. Here's hoping I can turn it into something workable.

I still need to get one of my library books back to the library, before I get assaulted with late fees. :/

I overslept this morning. I have to get dressed and toss together a bag, and then I'll be over my sister's for the weekend. Don't know if I'll be online or not. Had strange dreams, but barely remember them now. Have two more tubs, but they do no good at the moment.

My back is still sore and weird feeling, but my legs are no longer numb.

Venture Bros season finale tomorrow night. God, I can't wait. And speaking of theories....

I practiced running in 0rigins last night. I didn't advance the plot any, since I'll be starting over so nijawial can see everything from the beginning, and so we can save up healing items, but....

As I was popping back and forth between the mirror world and the 'normal' world in the basement - oh holy hell, I hate Carrions, I hate them, why can they see Travis when his flashlight is off??? - I had a Thought. I wish I had paid more attention to that audio overlay in the patient's possession room. Ah well, next run through! But I have a theory about what's going on, and what a couple of those little memos we found are alluding to. I'm very much curbing myself from going and looking things up to see if I'm on the right track. Same with Venture Bros - especially since it's apparently up online now.

I shall know if I'm correct in the promised times!

Alright, I really do need to get dressed.

So today I pretty much just decided to just write pr0n. It's one of those days, you know? Grabbed a bunch of centi_porn prompts and did a bunch of drabbles.

We've got a variety of fandoms, pairings and kinks. So...be warned!

Pretty much everything under the cut is NC-17 or R, except a couple of the Naomi/L ones because L + sex = Very Difficult to Manage.

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