teshara, posts by tag: real life - LiveJournal

ok, so I am in officially the worst mental state I've been in in years and omg the ideas for writing are flying.

To sum up:

bad root canal
3 days of violent puking
painkillers that didnt work
another tenant abandoned a cat (shes at our house and Toby is NOT pleased)
our house is a split election and it's getting muddy in here. I mean, I'm surprised its only happening in the last couple days, but still. Time out until the tooth is better. Jeez.
I found out my mom went into cardiac failure in August and no one told us because they thought we were on vacation and didnt want to worry us. She was there for a week. WE WERE HOME!!!
It's how Pat died. I'm a fucking mess I cussed a blue streak up and down at my mom.
I'd think I was going to hell if I didnt realize afterwards that I was channeling grandpa. woah. I didn't even know that was in there.
My bio mom went all softie last night and dumped everything I was thinking out of my head because she's good at that and I cried a lot. I was on skype for 4 hours wailing away about my tooth and mom.

So today I talk to dentist again and they send me to the ER, but we went to immediate care instead. I get drugs. I get an IV. I get a container of applesauce.

My blood pressure is through the roof.

I haven't written seriously in months.

And I get a vision that one of my sirens wasnt kissed by a siren, but a water wyvern and can harness the power of the Dragons Daughter complete with whipping tail, giant wings, claws, and teeth, and a golden crown of bone that sprouts from the crown of her head.

Apparently I suck at writing unless I'm a complete spaz.

Good to know.

I went to the mall and pretty much bought stuff for me. Total fail.

However, I do have super-cute sweater and new underwear to show for it. Also a bag from Sephora that I'm not talking about.

I did find the perfect presents for Mark and his brothers. I told Mark about it just so he can be prepared. He's already plotting. I'm already regretting it. It must be perfect.

I got them actual wood and rubber slingshots with a leather pocket for whatever.

I told him I'm taking them away if they break anything or upset their mother.

My boys are 49,46, and 43.

Pray for me.

Only I could go to the wrong house for the rental agency, stay for an hour and make a new fandom friend LOL!

We're like moths and we're all on fire. Muahahahaha!!!

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Chapter 50 of Marriage Law is done. Someone reminded me that I haven't had much smut lately, and I tried to write it, I really did, but it ended up being married sex. While that is usually better than smutty sex, it doesn't look like it on the page. hmmm...

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I edited Skulking for fanfiction.net. The original needs to go up on AO3. People are crying for it LOL! Those little foxes get everyone!

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The one-shot I wrote a couple days ago has been pecking at the back of my mind. It's practically original fiction. I started tinkering with it, then had a big glass of wine, ripped it to shreds, cussed it out, and put it back together. It has promise.

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I'm leaving for California on the 24th. I am already panicking. I talked to my shrink today.

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In the last 7 days I have lost 2 fandom people, one RL person, and an uncle. What the hell is going on?!

So, I have bits and bobs I make on Etsy and I sell a couple to Mark's brother and that's it.

Until yesterday.

Yesterday I was asked if I could make 200 of one design for a wedding.

That would mean a million billion dollars.

I'm feeling faint.

Oh, slutty kitchen table, you are getting closer to me!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

(If you don't know, Mark thinks I'm an awful organizer and hired one. She is awesomsauce. However I get to restyle the ENTIRE house. I have found a sexy kitchen table that is just asking to be put in my kitchen nook, but it is $800, which is obscene.)

http://www.amazon.com/Alienware-AM… (via shareaholic)

OK, it's been a really long time since I've bought a computer without help at hand.
I'd like a computer that can run games on the highest settings, for once.

Talk to me, people.

OK, so I know about the gay suicidal violinist, but I can't help but be horrified by what people are not talking about.

There were two boys in that video.
Think about that for a minute.

How would you feel if someone killed themselves because it was revealed they made out with you?
Now really think about that.

How would you feel if the entire school rallied around that person, saying they understood why he did it.
How the fuck would you feel?

I have no idea where this kid is emotionally now, but my guess is he's far worse off than the kid that jumped and no one seems to care because he's not dead yet.

It makes me sick.