syrainator

I've been having a shit loads of technical issues with livejournal lately (I can't seem to access charming_syrai at all anymore, long story and my own fault) and the other day when it told me that syrainator no longer existed, I got... scared and infurious, which is why I packed my bags and imported all the old entries of syrainator to dreamwidth.org (it was only today that I discovered that this journal could once again been seen), but that place just does. not. feel. like. home.

I think I've repeatedly told you now that I miss writing, you guys and just generall -- I miss updating *this* journal. There's so many little things I've forgotten simply because I didn't bother updating, thinking there's no one reading ('cept for you goblie, you're always around it seems *hugs*) - it never occured to me then I could one day be my own number 1 reader and now, having lost all this time and all these memories, I REALLY regret the decision of letting this journal die.

But then, I just can't bring myself back here, I need a fresh start. You know me.

So, if I feel like updating my livejournal to be able to remember things, I will do so at charmingsyrai. I hope to see you there but if I don't, thanks for the ride :D

After I changed my House Rules, I haven't really written any fandom-related topics to charming_syrai, which is sorta weird, because on many occasions, I've had a lot to say, but it's felt sort of alien to write there - there's also the fact I'm shallow and want both journals to look good, as in, to be paid...

I may have to accept the fact that that journal is a thing of a past, kinda like fan fic writing seems to be (of course, now that I said that out loud, tomorrow I'll feel this unbearable need to go write smut - which is why I said it, to begin with) and just go for it (and everything else, basically) right here.

On one hand, that sucks and then on the other, I really don't give a shit.

For one, I have a dog and a hedgie and a guy and work and this thing called life these days so I really don't have time for all these separate journals and secondly, why try and force it, when it's just not working? Secondly, I've grown out of the "I want lots of readers/friends!" phase - having people reading and commenting, yeah, that'd be awesome but it's not something I need anymore.

So, yeah, I think it's time to close charming_syrai for the time being - I shall let it be what it was, a fic-journal and that's that - and focus on the journal that feels like home. It's where my heart is, after all.