i decided to update while all you kiddies are enjoying your slow deaths in the hell hole we call school. it sucks because when i'm on here you're all at school so i have no one to talk to on here. oh well. today is my gf and i's three month anniversary. it's been an amazing three months. she is the most important thing in the world to me. well i just woke up and i think it's already time for some monster hunter.
holy shit i'm on lj. god i haven't been on here in god knows how long. i only know of one person on here still. but hey that one person just happens to be the love of my life so it all works out just fine now doesnt' it? well since i haven't updated this in a while i'm going to fill out random things that i haven't put on here but i have on my myspace. i'm getting a car. its a nissan 300ZX. it's really fast and amanda is scared for me because i'm getting a fast car. i'll be safe though. it's really hot in here. ugh. i hope i can get tomorrow off of work. i don't think i'll be able to on such short notice but that's why i'm going to talk to the person in charge of the schedule. i hope sandy will understand. i think she will. i did talk to her about this when i started there. i need to get home soon and finish my card for tomorrow. what is tomorrow you may ask? well it just so happens to be my gf and i's two month anniversary. and what a great two months it's been. well i think i've made this thing long enough for now. tata
i'm back on lj everyone. i am very sorry that i haven't updated for a while i know a few people still read this and i thank you all that do. prom was saturday. i had probably one of the best times of my life and my date looked gorgeous. i took emily vinson and my god did she ever look great. when we were there i danced pretty much the whole time even though i didn't even think i was going to dance that much at all. every slow song i danced with emily and durning the fast songs i danced with john pine. i swear that kid can make anything fun. the only bad part of that night was that it had to end. when i dropped emily off and was hugging her goodbye i didn't want to let go because i knew i wasn't going to see her again for a while. well i think this entry should suffice until the next time i can get on.
well hello again. i've finally decided to update this thing again. to those of you who enjoy reading this i apologize for never updating this. if you want me to update more just say so and i will. even if it is just one person i'll update it just for you. see i am a nice person. not that anyone ever said otherwise. well my spring break has sucked pretty bad. i haven't done a damn thing that is productive in any way. i was hoping that some time over break i would be able to get a gf but it doesn't look like that is going to happen seem as though i'm not going to be in contact with any girl(s) that i want to date. that or any girl that would consider dating me. this spring break has just been so uneventful. my band didn't even practice at all. well then again i could never get a hold of one of our guitarists. oh well. i don't really care. ugh college soon. i'm kind of looking forward to it and kind of not. i was really hoping to get a gf here but if i did i wouldn't want to leave her in the fall. and when i do go to college that means i have to meet new people. which means more people get to see what a loser i am and get to make fun of me. yay good times. oh and when i do go to college if i want to try to get a gf there that means i have to talk to girls which i am no good at what so ever. i am so shy around girls i don't know. now i know it may not seem like it but trust me i am. i doubt i could get a girl desperate enough there to date me anyway. well i think that's enough of me bitching. i doubt anyone is going to read this anyway. and if they do i doubt they'll comment. that's what people do. they read the entry and then don't comment. bastard.
wow i'm on lj again!!! so i guess i should be welcomed back by my many many adoring fans. ok so maybe i dont have a whole lot of adoring fans. ok ok so i don't have any fans but one day i shall have legions of fans. muhahahahaha! ok enough of that. do you know how much it sucks liking someone that you have no idea if they like you or not and they also have a bf? well i do because i'm in that predicament right now. it sucks i know and i never learn my lesson. i've liked a lot of girls and been in this situation so many times. and i don't get to talk to her that often but when i do our conversations are awesome. she is so great at keeping a conversation going. plus when we have a conversation it doesn't go into nothing. we actually talk about something. ok enough of me reminicing of depressing things. now onto prom. ok i lied more things that depress me. i'm going to go to prom this year but i doubt i'm going to have a date. i know i could probably get a date but i'm way to shy to ask someone. i mean i may not seem that way but trust me i am. ok well i think that's enough for a new update. that should be enough for all you children to wrap your little minds around.
am i the only one that truly hates the hallmark holiday valentine's day? i'm beginning to think that i am. oh well i guess i don't care to much. i've always hated this day and i probably always will. i am getting a growing resentment towards anyone in a relationship. i think it's mainly because i'm so lonely but then again no one really cares about my problems. i mean why should they when i don't even care about them. life is such a bitch sometimes. i was sick on valentine's day thank god. i couldn't have bared going to school and seeing all those happy son of a bitches. why do i hate happieness so much? i would really like to know that. oh wait i do. it's because any time i think i'm happy in a relationship god kicks me in the nuts and says "haha made you think you were happy just so i could do that." dumb fucker. i really shoudln't rant on and on about god. i remember what happened the last time i did. dear god that was a lot of comments. i am never doing that again. i hate replying that many times. well i think i'm done for now. like i said no one should care about my problems when i don't care about them.
i only decided to update so that anyone who does care to read this can read the song i wrote last night. i hope you enjoy it and i do want feedback on it positive or negative. and it currently has no title so if anyone thinks of one i am asking that you plase give one to me. well here it is i hope you guys like it.
Memories should last a lifetime So where did you decide To give yours up? I raised your spirits And now you forget What the fuck are you thinking To give away memories You forgot those who Used to mean so much to you Now all you do is leave A trail of forgotten memories In your wake Was happiness so hard to fake? Or was it just to much to bare? MEMORIES SHOULD NEVER DIE!!
hey i'm updating. i was like what the hell let's update for no reason. i don't have much to say so i guess i can just kind of babble on about nothing. i normally do. some girl called me yesterday from a cell phone and my brother didn't get her name. so i looked at the number and then went through the cell phone numbers i have and it turns out it isn't anyone i know. so if any of you were the ones that called me please let me know because it's been bothering me. i want to know dammit. well i'm going to make a bass in woods class. it's going to be super sweet. when i get it done i'm going to be so happy. i think i'll gloat about it all over the place. it's pretty much all going to be custom. i'm picking out the pick ups bridge everything. so it's going to sound like what i want it to. that makes me happy. it's going to be rather pricey but i don't care. it's so going to be worth it. i've decided that i'm probably going to stay away from relationships for a while. i think i'm just going to wait for some girl to come along. well that and i kind of have a thing for a girl but i seriously doubt she knows that i like her. i'm going to keep it that way for a little bit. well i think i'm going to go now. wow this entry was way longer than i thought it would be yay. oh yeah and here's kirby dancing:
i decided to update again. i really hate it when you break up with someone and you don't want to hurt them and then they blow it way out of proportion and then talk about you behind your back. my day has been well for lack of a better word weird. i'm no longer in pre-cal. it's such a relief not to be in there any more. i'm in woods now. yay. i'm going to make a bass in there. my mom said she would pay for the hardware for it. that's awesome because i'm going to get really good stuff for it so it sounds awesome. well i'm single now. if you couldn't tell from the first sentence. ok it's like the second sentence but oh well. well i kind of like this one girl but i dont' think i should release the information to the public. well not quite yet. and as far as i know she has a bf:(. oh well i'm patient. i can wait. this girl seems like she's worth the wait to me. sure i've only spoken to her a few times but those coversations were amazing. i still remember many of the things we discussed. and on top of that i don't think i've really ever seen a girl more beautiful. god look at me. i'm a yammering idiot. she may suspect i like her but if not then i'll tell her when i get the chance. well i think i'm off for now.
guess i'm going to update again though i view it as being pointless seem as though i highly doubt anyone reads this. if anyone does i am sorry but you should comment so i know you read. that's the only way i know that you do. well here's something i got from emily vinson:
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF: I committed suicide: I said I liked you: I kissed you: I liked someone you didnt: I started smoking: I stole something: I was hospitalized: I ran away from home:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality: Eyes: Face: Hair: Clothes:
ANSWER.
Who are you?: Are we friends?: When and how did we meet?: What do you think of me?: What's the fondest memory you have of me?: How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?: Do you love me?: Have I ever hurt you?:
Would you hug me? Are we close?: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?: Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.: How long have you known me?: Describe me in one word.: What was your first impression?: Do you still think that way about me now?: What do you think my weakness is?: Do you think I'll get married (if yes to who)?: What reminds you of me?: What's something you would change about me?: How well do you know me?: Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?: If so tell me now?: Do you think I would kill someone?: Are you going to put this on your Livejournal and see what I say about you?:
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