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New Path

I'm currently walking a Path with an elder. Someone more of the Fearie persuasion. There is a physical walking component but the lessons are more about Spirit. I've been writing then down as I go and integrating them into my everyday path as well. The coming year is a time for me to Step up. To won my path and walk it with purpose. Here are the lessons so far.

The first lesson is that things are not only as they appear at first glance. Take time to see things from all sides.

I walked out along the path through the woods looking all around me and thought i had a pretty good idea of what was there. On the return trip though everything looked a bit different and there was a deer standing where I thought there was only a bush before. And as I watched the deer, it vanished. I was just as sure the deer had been there as I was that it wasn't there the first time I looked.

The Second lesson is there is a point where everything is in balance. You just have to keep trying to find it.

I was guided to a nearly dry stream bed and asked to balance several random rocks on top of each other, one by one. I didn't go for a logical stack, big ones on the bottom. Instead I just stacked them and several times had to move the current stone slightly, taking my hands away just a little until that one was in balance with the ones underneath. Eventually I achieved a stack of about 12 rocks of different sizes about waist high.

Third lesson is twofold. Stop and see the big picture once in awhile and you never know who might be watching out for you.

I was in driving Tennessee and saw through the trees a bunch of mist. Thinking it was just some ground fog but it might make a good picture, i found a place to pull over. When i hiked down to a tall cliff, I discovered an entire valley filled with low-lying clouds. I took some photos and on my way back up to my car, i was met by a State Trooper who was coming to check on me. Seems that cliff is where several dozen people have committed suicide.

Peace,

StoneBear
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Dopplegangers

Two separate and unconnected people have reported seeing me in places I wasn't this week and one of me looking very gaunt and disheveled. For this reason as well as other signs over the past month, I'm taking time to put my spiritual house in order and I'm strongly considering soul retrieval for the first time in my life. I don't want parts of me out wandering around without a home. Now I just need to make a home for them to return to.

Peace,

StoneBear
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It's Fall

Happy Autumnal Equinox folks. I'll be celebrating tonight with a little sage offering and tomorrow night I'll be watching the Harvest Moon rise over the Woodhenge at my cousin's house before heading down to Kentucky to pick up my friend justkimu and head off to NC for the weekend.



Peace,

StoneBear.
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You can't go back where you never been

In February, I drove down to Muscatine, IA one Friday night with a sky threatening snow. I was going to see my friend Dean Wellman sing and play guitar at the Missippi Brew. Afterward we went over to the Elms Supper Club for a drink or two. It was 1 am when We decided to call it a night. I needed to give Dean a ride back to his car which was still in town. It was then we noticed it had started snowing. And Man was it coming down. In town it wasn't so bad but on the outskirts there was enough snow on the road, we couldn't see the road. I dropped Dean off and he was to head back North to Dubuque. I was going on down South to the farm.

I took the bridge across the Mississippi, going very slow in the snow. On the other side, the snow was even deeper and I didn't make it a mile before someone was saying over and over, "It's just not the right way to go. Go Back, Go Back." So I turned around an went back across the bridge, through Muscatine and down US 61, past the Elms...now dark and toward Burlington. I made it maybe 3 miles out of town before the snow started falling like harder and was soon like blankets covering the highway. The only way to tell I was on the road was when I dropped a wheel off the side. Kinda scary actually. I'd seen a diner a mile or so back so I found a place to turn around and went back. I pulled into an unused corner of the parking lot and dug into the trunk for a wool blanket and pillow. Put my driver seat back and fell off to sleep. When It got too cold, I'd turn the car on, run the heat. Turn it back off and go back to sleep.

Around 6 am, the cook for the diner came in, honked his horn at me and woke me up. The snow plow was just going past and the road was clear enough to drive on. So back on the road and heading South towards Burlington again. A mile or so down, the road ran through some swampy woods and I caught the movement of large brown wings out of the corner of my eye. I turned around and went back to find a huge barred owl sitting in a tree.



He sat there in his tree just looking at me and munching on the mouse he'd just captured. Then he spoke. "Honor the coming together."


"But be careful!"

Then he flew away. I hate when they tell you things you have no context for. I was puzzling over that as I drove on down the road. Got to Burlington and finally crossed the river. Went to Beardstown and got my hair cut. On the way back to the farm, I took the backroad to Ripley. Up in a tree by the road was a huge Bald Eagle.



I stopped for a chat. He was busy finding food because the fish in the river were no dying in the great numbers they usually do in the Winter. All the eagles had moved inland and were searching for rodents and small farm animals that could easily be carried off. But in between looking around for food, he said something about seeing the big picture and looking behind the masks at intentions, instead of on the surface. Always good advice but what the heck did it apply to? Eagle flew off without explaining.



I was to find out later that day. My cousin Blue Fox called to remind me there was a meeting we were supposed to go to in Quincy later that day. I had to go down to see a flintknapper i know in Hannibal, MO. He was making a couple flint knives for me. I got back to Quincy about 20 minutes after the meeting had started.

The history on this meeting is when Blue Fox and I held our All-Nations Gathering last Fall, the mother of one of the Drum members really loved the land and told a friend of hers named Cecil Redfeather. Redfeather is at least part Mandan and lives as a recluse with his white hippie wife in a cabin in the woods near Quincy. Redfeather leads rag tag bunch of militant Indians, hippies and spiritual wannabees. They have decided they want to perform a ritual/ceremony called the Okipa that has not been performed by the Mandan in it's entirety for at least 100 years. They have been looking for a piece of land for several years. When they heard about Brushy Creek Ranch, they really wanted to see it. Redfesther came out to look things over. When he met Blue Fox, he was wearing a coyote tooth necklace I'd given him. Instantly Redfeather told him he'd be the Coyote in the Okipa. So from this point on, Redfeather's group has determined they are going to do the Okipa in June of 2011 at Brushy Creek ranch. The Okipa is a 5 days long ceremony where once you are there, you can't leave. Near the end, a short distance away, a Pow Wow is supposed to start and when the people performing the ritual come back down the hill to the Pow Wow, there is supposed to be a big feast.

So anyway, the meeting was interesting. 30 or so people in big circle in this woman's living room. They went around the circle introducing themselves. I told them about my encounters with Owl and Eagle. I could tell some of the traditional Indians were skeptical but no one was going to call me out on it. I didn't say anything about the "Be Careful" part that Owl said. Or the seeing behind the masks Eagle talked about. Then the real fireworks started. One of the Indians took exception with Archeologists. Unfortunately, the white guy to my right was an archeologist for the State of Missouri. They got into back and forth and the talking feather was soon forgotten. The Indian was actually the one who started the ruckus with some mild name calling. But they were both passionate about arguing their sides. And on it went like that.

They all came out to Brushy Creek on the Equinox to check the place out and make plans. I wasn't there as I had to be at Spring Council in NC. Blue Fox stayed in IL and hosted the group. He spent the weekend pulling their cars out of the mud and rescuing them from the creek. Half the group recoiled when Red Feather started talking about camping out for five days. We are definitely not dealing with a bunch of reservation raised Indians here.

I've been thinking about the whole thing in light of what Owl and Eagle had to say. What I've concluded is there is probably a reason why the Mandan people have not performed the Okipa for so long. The Okipa was a variation of the Sun Dance and I think knowing what it actually entails would probably scare away the folks who were not already turned off by the thought of 5 days of isolationist camping. I've noticed the details about the actual ritual have been scant in all the discussions. Something about all this just doesn't feel right.

Blue Fox is concerned about liability and rightly so as some aspects of the Sun Dance might violate current laws on hazing. And there is a difference between a traditional tribal people performing renewal rituals that have been done for hundreds or thousands of years and a mixed bunch of Natives and Non-natives getting together on some private land to perform a ritual so secret the participants don't even know the details yet. Certain rituals had a time and a place and meant something in the context of that time and place that they may not mean now.

Lastly, I highly doubt that if the Mandan people had lacked enough participants for one of their traditional rituals, they would have invited whites and people from other Nations to be part of ceremony. But that's certainly what is happening here. I could see if this was something any of them had ever participated in growing up. But none of these people were yet alive the last time this was performed. You can't go back to a place or time you've never been.

I talked to Blue Fox last weekend and I think he's seeing behind the masks as well and really looking for a reason to tell Redfeather to find another place. He's no longer comfortable with the situation.

Besides, we have our own Nation to organize and a second Fall Gathering to plan for. We really have our hands full already. But telling them is a path Blue Fox needs to walk on his own. I'll just be there to back him up.

Peace,

StoneBear
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The Channel

I visited my friend Bonny today. Hard to know what to call her. Psychic, medium, channel, guide. They all fit but none of them get it completely right. Lots of things revealed today. I have a messenger/guide assigned to me for the next two years. Her name is Anita. I am to meet her in Tucumcari, NM in the Late Spring of 2010. Also in 2010 and 2011, my cousin and I are to form our own Shawnee Nation. A bunch of things have to fall into place for this to go right and so we are supposed to wait 6-9 months before putting it into play. I was told my cousin is uneasy around me because he thinks I'm more gifted than he is. I need to show him that he has gifts I don't and that we compliment each other.

And oh yeah, we joined forces today, Bonny and I, in the Otherworld to reunite my great, great, great grandfather with his dog. Now that was interesting to participate in.

It was revealed that certain people I have chosen to associate with this year are the exact right people I'm supposed to be associating with and that Dubuque is the right place and at the right time for me.

Interesting life it is.

Peace,

StoneBear
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Revealations

So I'm back from vacation for over a month now and have had time to process the whole trip. The cosmic tumblers clicked into place with all my plans and I found myself in the San Luis Valley of Colorado a day ahead of schedule. For the record, the logistics were looking pretty messy from my perspective when I was in Illinois but once I got out to New Mexico, everything seemed to go according to someone's plan if not my own.

My previous visions and dreams had led me to believe I needed to head out to the Great Sand Dunes National Monument first. I needed to go there anyway for some photos for work. So after crossing over La Veta Pass and coming down into the Valley, I headed up through Ft. Garland and out to the Sand Dunes.

A medium amount of tourists were there but not overwhelming. The air was hot and dry when I trekked across the dry riverbed of the intermittent stream known as Medano Creek. I could feel the power of the water flowing just inches below the sand though.



The Sand Dunes have always been a power place. Thousands of years of rocks ground down to fine grains and blown up against mountains that house several vortexes. I used to come there in college a lot to just sit and think. Last time I'd been there was to photograph a lovely nude lass back in 89. My ex father in law tells me that at night as the sands cool and shift they can sing sometimes and scream and shriek at others.

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Peace,

StoneBear
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Immortals

It is nearing the time I make my annual sojourn to the old Southwest. Something of metaphysical significance usually happens when I take this trip. Last year, I didn't see the significance of certain events until I saw everything it it's final context. Then I realized that dreams and certain visions I'd had for a couple weeks prior had been warnings of what was to come. My guides work in odd ways like this.

So this year I'm watching for signs. I have been dreaming and remembering the dreams each night which is unusual for me. I've been craving more sleep like I'm storing up for something. Usually I have so much going on I don't get to read much. 6 books a year is doing good for me. For the past month I've been driven to read to the point that I put off other things I like in order to finish a book. The books have all been about immortals of some kind. Mostly vampires but also zombies and right now one about angels, demons, Nephilim, Imps and succubi. I've read 6 books in the past month on this subject.

And for some unexplained reason, about 3 weeks ago, I started using a social networking site I'd been a member of for 5 years but hadn't even logged into since I created the account. Through that I met this girl that lives fairly near to me. Just so happens she's a paranormal investigator. Her particular talent is as a sensitive. Not quite what I'd call a psychic. More a mix of psychic and empath. Turns out her gifts had seemed stifled until she met me. Our first outing was exploring a cemetery. Were just friends. But since I met her my empathic sensitivity has gone into high gear as well. So why did I meet her now? Oh and apparently I journeyed to her house the other night in my dreaming and appeared as a presence in her room, laid down behind her and snuggled. Something the waking me knew was off limits as she has expressed that she only wants to be friends.

What this means I have no idea. But in thinking on my upcoming trip, I'm being drawn to some familiar areas. Notably, Crestone and Saguache and Creede, CO. It seems like something will happen in one of those places. Something to do with immortal beings.

For all intents and purposes I'm a skeptic. Almost cynical by nature. It's not been an all or nothing deal on my shamanic path. I believe in certain beings because I've experienced them. But sometimes I'm reluctant to readily accept the metaphysical experiences of others especially when they seem all too convenient. I've seen and talked to ghosts so I know they exist. My guides have come to me in the form of animals and people. They tell stories of long times past and some time in the future so I know immortals exist or at least beings that have far longer life spans than humans. I've even met some beings that in other times might have been called Higher Order demons or angels. I've seen physical human shapeshifting occur and I do a form of it when I journey. But I'm slow to accept the existence of things like vampires or werewolves.

And I'm not talking about the New Agey definition of Psychic Vampires. I've known enough of those. I used to live with a gifted person who could draw off the sickness and strife of others and it's not much farther of a leap to imagine them turning that gift to their own purposes and drawing off positive emotions and energy as well. I can channel energy, take it or give it as needed. I think most in this community can. So what if that gift were turned toward negative purposes?

But I wonder if immortals exist in the classic vampire or were wolf persona. Are there really immortal succubi, incubi imps and the rest running about our world? Seems I may find out soon. Thoughts anyone?

Peace,

StoneBear


*Edit - Oh and I think something/someone is following me. I keep seeing a whitish curve of light. Like flourescent light out of the corner of my right eye and standing on the train platform all alone Friday night, waiting for my ride, a soft feminine voice called to me, "Hello Mark Dierker". I turned around to find no one there. I asked who it was but got not response.
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Ghosts and Spirits

I was watching my Season 2 DVD of Northern Exposure over the weekend. It was the episode where Ed Chigliak, the aspiring Tlingit Shaman meets the spirit One Who Waits played brilliantly by the late Floyd Red Crow Westerman. One Who Waits tells Ed that he is a Spirit. Ed says, "a Spirit? You mean like a Ghost?" One Who Waits answers, "I prefer Spirit." Later, Ed remarks that none of the white people in town can see One Who Waits. He responds that white people often cannot see spirits because to them spirits are just dead.

It occurs to me that this is a difficulty for people who are called to this path after living in the world where they learn that ghosts are just the remains of dead people and are often to more feared than revered or learned from. I was raised Catholic and even though Christianity talks a lot about a Holy Ghost, there is little about the religion that allows you to experience communication with spirits. In fact, revealing that you have conversed with spirits will often have people thinking you are under the influence of evil.

I can see how living in the artificial and material world and thinking only material things are important, it would be hard to realize that spirit energy is a part of everything. Material things can seem so cold and lifeless.

I was already unwittingly on the Path when I first saw a Spirit and realized they were truly all around us all the time. I was parked in a car with a girl named Leigh in the Colorado mountains when she pointed out a Spirit walking through the woods. I was stunned and just sat there watching the spirit move through the trees and I mean through the trees and not just among the trees. Then Leigh turned and saw the surprise on my face and asked, "Didn't you realize they were all around us?" That was like throwing a light switch and from then on I couldn't help but see them and eventually have meaningful communication with them.

Even now I sometimes revert back to my previous views of fear and awe when in the presence of a Spirit especially when I can sense them before I can see them. But when I get to that place where we all just exist in the same space and can communicate freely, it just feels right and I can't imagine a time when I felt anything else.

So have you always known there were other beings all around us or was there a point when you realized this?

Peace,

StoneBear
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Healing Please

Hello everyone. I'm in San Francisco and feeling a bit poorly. Since Sunday I've had something like a fever that comes on goes. No other symptoms just an uncomfortable warmth. I talked to a psychic friend Tuesday night who didn't feel it was something physically wrong with me. Just something I was absorbing from around me. I smudged yesterday morning before I flew and felt much better all yesterday. But it's back today. I got a nap this afternoon and just took an Airborne tablet and 2 Tylenol just to be safe.

Anything that any of you would like to do would be fine. I don't seem to be able to shake it, whatever it is.

Thanks for any help!

StoneBear
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Prayers and Energy for Anna

My good friend Anna devilmiyu, a member here is in bad shape. She is the ICU in a hospital in Salt Lake City. On Friday morning she had an operation to repair a heart valve. That went OK. This morning unexpectedly, they had to operate on her again as there were complications from the first surgery. After surgery she was placed back in ICU with only immediate family able to gain access. This was communicated to us by her husband. Please pray, light a candle, send positive energy or whatever else you may do for her and her family.

Many Thanks,

StoneBear