A Mage's Musings...

Greetings from the depths of college, once again. I'm just chillin in my dorm when I SHOULD be studying for exams. Oh, well. In any case, I have an unfinished poem, and a few other things that aren't done, but I'm not going to do that either. I'm now throwing out a Q&A session for people. FEEL FREE TO COMMENT OR ASK QUESTIONS :) Here's the link for the test that I did. http://www.stumpyourfriends.com/st…
I don't know how well you'll all do, but there's the test. Also, if you have any other questions about my life, feel free to post them. I might or might not answer them, depending on what they are. But at least they're there. Have fun! :)

Not a whole heck of a lot going up here. Having fun in college, meeting people, hanging out in my dorm. Any questions? Because I am in desperate need of email to read, I'm not going to post anything more until somebody responds and asks me questions. :P Pretty much anything goes, and I do mean ANYthing. College related or not. Yeah... Right then. Later!

~Sio

Heya everybody, I know it's been FOREVER since I've last updated, but my summer courses are INSANE. I have an average of three hours of homework per night. Granted, nothing is collected, but if I don't do the homework assignments, I seal my exam grade. So, therefore, I do my homework, and study like crazy, and hope that I get a decent exam grade. So far, my grade is 56/60. That was the first exam, and as it's CalcII, I think I'm doing pretty good. I wrote this poem the last week I was up at UT, but I never had time (or motivation) to type it all up, so here it is for everybody to see. Also, if you take the time to read it, can you please take a few seconds to comment on it? I'm eager to hear any criticisms, comments, or questions about it. Thanks a bunch!
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A sleepy, calm night,
but no sleep for me.
My mind's rough as a squall;
my body as calm as the sea.

My body is peaceful,
serene and worn out.
My mind is much different,
troubled throughout.

A day seems a lifetime,
but life is just days.
The cycle is definate;
but its borders are haze.

My life is confusing,
of that I am sure.
A twisted affliction,
in bad need of a cure.

I long for that time,
where peace was at hand.
To turn back the glass,
now filling with sand.

It seems so far gone,
that time I recall.
And for all of my wishing,
it might not come back at all.

It pains me to think it,
that the good times are through;
I hope that it isn't,
but it might just be true.

I'll try not to think it.
I'll stay by her side.
But if things get much worse,
my feelings won't hide.

This isn't a warning,
it's not even a threat.
I just need to sort feelings,
or my actions I'll regret.


~Sio

Not a whole lot to say, aside from I'm still hanging in there. I have a big presentation tomorrow, and only 2/4 people in my group have any kind of research at all. So we're going to do a 7 minute presentation with only 2 slides. It will be a horrible mess. I'll be lucky to have a passing grade. But... *shrug* Oh, well. But aside from that, I have a new passion in my musical world: Michelle Branch. VERY good vocalist. So, yeah. I'm just chillin right now. Trying to take it easy, trying not to get too stressed. I'm working on the not stressed part. I really am! I'M NOT STRESSED!!! *sigh* But, yeah. Nobody left any messages, nobody left me any notes under the door, nobody poked my facebook; out of all of this, maybe this isn't such a bad thing. *shrug* Oh, well. I guess I'll be ok. Karen and I are still IMing each other, so I haven't completely scared her off (yet). And I think I am really liking this new livejournal view, I can see everybody's birthdays :D. So, now, hopefully I won't miss everybody's. I'll try not to anyway. But, yup. Any questions, comments, or anything else is up to you guys. I'll answer any random questions, but then again, I think that's a standing statement. I don't think I've refused any questions from anybody close, now that I think about it. But, yup. And life is always better with background music, of that I am certain. Well, I guess I'll catch you all later, until then!

~Sio
Music: Michelle Branch - All You Wanted (On endless loop)
Mood: Not bad, just chillin'

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What type of Fae are you?


Well, I think that's pretty close, as if this were the world of fantasy, that's what I'd be. I don't know about the 'life of darkness', but aside from that, I like it. ANYway... I'm sleepy, so I'm going to go to sleep now. Just wanted to let everybody know that I'm still alive :)

Not much going on right now. Just wanted to let everyone know that I am indeed alive, and that I am on AIM constantly if anybody wants to talk for hours on end. I had a very nice conversation with Maerie that lasted several hours, and it's VERY nice to be able to talk with somebody for that length of time. It was very relieving to know that I can still have those long conversations. Unfortunatly, I can't have them over the phone during the week due to the whole long-distance thing, but AIM still works :) I have also learned that I am very secretive around people that I don't know very well, but with close friends, I feel like I can talk about most anything, so long as they don't insult me or make me feel bad about it. So... yup! :) I guess that's about all I really wanted to say. Not a whole lot I can say at midnight. Here's one for everybody, just because. Post a reply and I'll tell something really fun that we didn't do. I really liked that when we did that earlier, and I want to do that again. Also, I have a muse!! I'm very happy. She's kinda like Kanria, but only she's my muse! :) Her name is Ruby, and she's a cross-stitched red fairy. She's really cute. Her personality is one-of-a-kind, though. I'm not entirely sure where her personality comes from, but I think she's my female-side given form. Odd? Sure, but then again, that's me! :)

It's now 12:08 in the AM on Friday, and I need something to do, as I'm not quite tired as of yet, so... I'm updating my LJ. I've learned something. I derive great pleasure from hearing a female voice. Not anyone's in particular, with notable exception to my Re, and it doesn't have to be directed at me. This could get me in rather odd and awkward circumstances, of this I am indeed aware, but I can't exactly help it. As long as said voice is happy, or at least neutral, I enjoy it's presence. The melodious nature of it, flitting from syllible to syllinble like the most elusive of butterflies, gently sailing on the current of words. Tis like the most saught after bird, only to take flight when it gives its call. That's how it is to me, anyway. I feel like I need to talk to someone female, not for the sake of saying something important; just to say. I love my Re very deeply, but of late, she's the only female voice I've heard directed at me, sans professors. I find that I am more attracted to voice than physical appearance, or at least that's how it appears to me right now. I guess that little quirk is what makes long-distance relationships work. How odd... *shrug* But, yes. That is how I feel. I don't know if any of you care, let alone need to know, about this, but it doesn't really matter, now does it? I don't know if I'm exactly lonely, per se, but I need interaction with a female besides my wonderful Re. I think that's why I fix people's computers for free. Simply to get interaction. Is this wrong? Is this unfaithful? I know not. I do not feel that I am being unfaithful, nor do I feel as if I am abusing anyone's trust. This is just how I feel. I am also feeling slightly poetic, as can be seen in the first few lines of this entry. My only wish is that I could talk with more of my friends from back home. It makes me sad realizing how stupid I have been. To Jess, who I talked with for hours upon hours, I am sorry for simply ceasing to call. But, as you have more guys in your life than simply me, you have other males to keep you occupied. And to Em, I was starting to get to know you, but it's hard to get ahold of you sometimes. Besides, you have Jon. To Maerie, I could really use a good talk. Not about anything in particular, but you have a very nice voice, and always seem to have something to say ;). To Rachael, I never really got to know you. I don't really know why, but perhaps I'll change that in the near future. I think that about covers the group, or at least the group that I know personally. Kari, I know little/nothing about, so I'm not even going to go there. I feel that I don't need "guy talk" at all, as I talk to Dan all the time. Dan's my roommate, for those of you that don't know. Also, I've learned that phones are wonderful, but nothing replaces hearing the words fresh off of female lips. When it's on the phone, it just seems "canned", so to speak. So very odd. Also, for those of you that don't know... I AM HAVING A GET TOGETHER AT MY HOUSE THIS SATURDAY. I just thought that I'd point that out. The pizza will probably result from chippage, but if that's a problem, I'm sure I can come up with something. Everyone's invited, this is an open invite. I repeat EVERYONE IS WELCOME. There will be many movies, as well as other random things. LOTS of conversation, I hope. And as the group was originally a 50/50 split m/f, I'd like to talk with females other than my Re. And I want to make this clear, it's not that I'm sick at all of my Re's voice, quite the opposite, actually. But I feel that I need to hear more of what's out there. So, yes. This is about what's going on. I think I got all of it out, as I'm now feeling the blissful feeling of slumber awaiting me. So, I shall retire for the night, and shall return on the morrow. Until then, I am, and shall continue being...

~Siobahn Sahani

Well, I've been up here for a few weeks, and everything is going pretty well. I have all the Dr. Pepper I can drink, and I can have a fresh waffle every day. Those are some dang good waffles, too, btw. I can also play video games whenever I have free time, and I don't have to clean up my room. These are a few of the perks I have found in my time here so far. Oh, I'm sure there are other perks, I just have yet to find them. The food's not great, but it's far from bad. I learned that chocolate-chip pancakes are really good, and I even made some at home. They turned out rather well, in my humble opinion. I have accepted the fact that my roommates and I well never see eye-to-eye. They are football jocks, and while I am playing Vampire, Dragonshard, and Baldur's Gate; they are playing WWF:Smackdown, Madden '04, and other random sport/football games. I don't think we'll get along. It's not that we actively oppose each other, it's just that I leave them alone, and they leave me alone. I kinda feel like a remora. To a shark, the remora doesn't really do much that's interesting, but to the remora, the shark is a source of endless entertainment. They have the most (what's the opposite of intellectual?) conversations imaginable. I'm really glad I can talk to Re over AIM, because if I couldn't, there would be NO ONE with a decent vocabulary who I can converse with. At least not at a long-distance rate. So, yes. There you have it, weird is as weird does. If being weird means being like everyone else, I'd rather be weird. You laugh because I'm weird, I laugh because you're all the same. I could go on and on. But I am not saddened by my seemingly out-of-place residence; quite the opposite, actually; I revel in my oddity. I have a bamboo plant, I now have A vine plant sculpture made out of a kneaded eraser on the side of my monitor, and I have a chainmaille shirt under my bed. What more can I say? I am my own little island of Mikeness, as Re would say. I have definatly had a lot of time to think. Perhaps too much time. Is there such a thing as too much time to think? I know not. All that I know is that various people have very different opinions on life. As Falstaff from HenryIV would say, "Life is naught but friends, drink, and joyful times." That was not a direct quote, btw. But the other view of life is Hotspur's, where "Life is but duty. Tis harder than merryment, but alas, the rewards are much greater." I like to think that my life is somewhere in between. According to my ChemE professor, I have OCD in the fact that I compulsively arrive early, and leave late, and always have my homework done, or have questions ready to ask. I do not believe this is a bad thing, but I also play my computer games a good portion of my free time. I do not believe that either is good nor bad, but the truth of the matter is that they exist. I am also reading a book relating to the battle versus Order and Chaos. Perhaps I should lighten my reading. I think my choice of books may be perhaps a bit too philosophical. Perhaps, perhaps naught. As Arthur said, "I know not what I will do or who I will become, only what I am." I think that's my philosophy on life right now. I'm not too overly concerned about the future, aside from the immediate, of course. Like, for example, the shower floor BADLY needs cleaned. I think I shall do that in the immediate future, as I am now relatively awake. I know not what caused such insomnia, but alas, tis not my decision to make. However, I have no homework on the morrow, so I can sleep in. Yes, I am falling back into Olde English as well as contemporary. Oh, well. *shrug* But, as I think I have typed enough right now, I think I'll work on the shower. I can't help but think that I typed all of this and said nothing. I don't know. Although I am in an introspective and philosophical mood right now. ANYway, I'm going to clean the shower. Laters!

~Sio