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Listen... I'm sorry the Poor weren't more beautiful,
dirt-streaked supermodels wearing the latest rags,
toting adorable waifs with the biggest eyes you've ever seen;
I'm sorry the criminals weren't hideous
monsters with scraped-raw voices so you'd know who not to trust.
I'm sorry my disciples don't wear halos, golden like the noonday sun,
don't all have strength like Samson, nor wear David's crown
and hiding my prophets among the milling peasant crowd?
...yeah, that was unfair.
I just thought, when I sent you into this world,
small and weak and crying,
you would know that no one deserves the pain they get,
you'd know that this life was a harder game,
and you'd have to think, and see and Help Each Other.
Now you've clawed and fought your way to the top.
I guess I should've warned you, the whole world is upside-down.
shadowlight: drawing of Superman levitating in a zen meditation pose (Superman)
I'm going to quote (loosely) from a comicbook, because I do stuff like that, and it seems artistically relevant to these times we're living in. I'm paraphrasing for the sake of brevity of context and compensating for lack of pictures. Sorry if it sounds like an off-broadway one-man play... so, a Superman Annual from the 90s, "Legends of the Dead Earth", put a little sign on the stage that says 'Superman created by Jerry Siegel & Joe Shuster'. Soft spotlight on a man in blue with goggles and jetpack, an heir to the superman legacy, as he reaches the climax of his story:

"They lied to us all along. They knew we wouldn't really fight them so long as we thought we deserved to be oppressed, that somehow we'd brought all our misery on ourselves, and couldn't do any better than that. They conquered us, enslaved us, and then they twisted every story they could get their hands on, to make themselves the heroes, the victims, the good guys, the deserving. I see now this isn't a job for Superman. It's too big for that. This is a Job for Everyone. and I'm going to fly up and write this in the sky in huge burning letters, where they can't tear it down or cover it up , where the whole city can see, and everyone will say, 'Look...Up in the Sky. It's ...the Truth!' "

The twists in the taglines are from the original.
shadowlight: Gonzo the muppet dressed as fictional gonzo journalist Spider Jerusalem (gonzo)
Ok, kids, consider the following scene (which really happened, except that I was at the other end of the room watching, which only muddles the issue, so forget it): A blonde woman is sitting alone in an empty employee breakroom, reading a newspaper. Her boss walks in, and jovially says, "Spending time with all your friends?" The blonde takes his jibe as merely a greeting, and begins talking to him about an article in the paper, ...about a 'nice guy' that everyone thought was friendly and charming, until they discovered he'd been hiding the corpse of his dead girlfriend in a freezer in a rental storage unit for 19 years. The blonde woman looks at her boss and says, "How could a person do something like that?" Her boss had no answer, but I do. Just as a man can be charming while he insults you, there is a difference between sociability and compassion; and old Fred the Neech had it backwards: compassion is not the morality of the herd. The morality of the herd, sad to say, is that something is wrong _ if and only if _ it is disapproved of by those around you... and if, ever so carefully you avoid getting caught, then there's nothing to disapprove of. Maybe, deep inside, the tension builds, but the fear of being caught is too great to confess. So you find some other way to justify your crimes (real or imagined, according to the rules of your herd; homosexual thoughts can haunt a lamb as harshly as murder) and let it scab over.
The ultimate virtue of the herd, after all, is to preserve the herd. Therefore we respect soldiers, because they leap into danger to ensure safety for the rest of us, a notion that both society and compassion can agree upon. I was told by an army chaplain last month that the typical soldier has a particular disposition: they seek to fill a heroic role (to be John Wayne, Captain America, Frank Castle), to be the brave, resourceful, stoic good guy fighting back the tide of evil. They tend to be perfectionists, demanding of themselves and others, not because they put a stick up your ass in boot camp, but because an eye for details and a suspicion about changes will keep you alive in a warzone. They tend towards black & white morality, which is why they’re willing to do a job like that. Again, if your team is wearing white and the other team is wearing black and the game you’re playing is kill or be killed, then black & white morality is going to keep you alive. (It gets messier, of course, when your team is wearing one color and the other team might or might not be anyone else in the whole country you’re in, even that little kid over there. and then they bring you home and take off your uniform and throw you a party where you have to convince your body not to fight your houseguests.) The chaplain gave this whole seminar. I’ve got pages of notes. For the first time, I felt like I really understood what soldiers are.
Of course, black & white morality is great for fighting wars (and starting them) but not so great at brokering peace or preventing wars in the first place. I’ve seen two photos so far, rebuttals to the ‘We Are the 99%’ photos, in which soldiers hold up letters declaring that they’re happy to work hard and don’t blame Wall Street for anything, and dismiss as lazy whiners those who do. As an idealist myself, that frustrates me. I know those soldiers don’t speak for all soldiers, although some people may see the uniform and assume that they do. I know that some soldiers are more Duke Nukem than Steve Rogers. I know that black & white morality and an action-oriented personality may cause them to speak first and consider the facts of the matter at some later date, such as December of 2075.
Nonetheless, I want to shout, “Don’t you understand? We’re on Your Side. You’re the ones who aren’t! You’re fighting us to sustain your own oppression!” ...but why should they listen to me? I’m not wearing a uniform. Changing society’s direction means leading the sheep astray, and their job is to protect the herd. Protect Society. even from the black sheep with their thinky ideas. even from time and change. even from the truth.

When the British Petroleum oil spill was spreading across the Gulf of Mexico last year*, there was a letter to the editor of the local newspaper. Its writer wished to remind all those calling for harsh sanctions and steep fines against bp to remember that who they would really be hurting would be the many elderly citizens of the United Kingdom who rely upon pensions from bp. Right-wing politicians sometimes point out, ‘corporations are made of people’. People don’t want to lose their job... and somehow, when the company budget gets tight, it’s usually the promises they made to their employees and retirees than get broken, the jobs of the little guys that get cut. Hurt us and we’ll have to downsize. The 1% know all about shifting the damage somewhere else, the blame somewhere else, the hidden costs and unfortunate side-effects somewhere else. Hurt us and we won’t really be hurt at all. We have people to hurt for us.

So, black & white morality might tell us that it’s 99 of us for every 1 of them, but we know it’s far messier than that. They have people to fight us on their behalf. Either because they believe the propoganda, or because they want to, or just because they want to keep their jobs. We’ve created a system where everyone needs money. Then they created a system so they have all the money.
shadowlight: Gonzo the muppet dressed as fictional gonzo journalist Spider Jerusalem (gonzo)
http://siderea.livejournal.com/897030.html#comments

http://zunguzungu.wordpress.com/2011/11/11/the-grass-is-closed-what-i-have-learned-about-power-from-the-police-chancellor-birgeneau-and-occupy-cal/

http://users.livejournal.com/merle_/505028.html

these three links have troll-free comment strings. read them.

http://www.rollingstone.com/politics/news/how-i-stopped-worrying-and-learned-to-love-the-ows-protests-20111110#ixzz1dk0n2cdA

this one has comments, some quite astute, some with links for further reading, some non sequiturs, some disagreeing politely or ignorantly, and some piles of deliberately insulting troll-leavings. Put on your boots and hold your nose as you plod through. Don't go unprepared.

Am I the Orwellian, for slapping warning labels on the comment threads with dissenting opinions? or is that what you need to do to protect yourself as a human emotional being who can't afford to be enraged 24/7? Is it the trolls (who don't care what the truth is, only who they can upset or insult in their rebuttal against the article at hand) who are the Orwellians?

Kids, when the year 1984 rolled around, and things weren't as bad as in the novel _1984_, we all had a good laugh about it. Meanwhile, the American government had been using doublespeak for almost 20 years to justify its military actions, the sitting president was using doublespeak to justify his pro-rich economic policy, and he would soon be secretly selling weapons to Iran (a radical anti-american theocratic dictatorship) to finance anti-communist rebels in Nicaragua. (It's not entirely a fair summary. Look up 'Iran-Contra Affair' for yourself.) Maybe our government was already bought and paid for by the Buyers and the Sellers, who were already selling our futures for a quick buck.

Freedom, and its opposite, are not boolean states of being, not absolutes or mere abstractions. Freedom is a matter of degree. Are we moving towards more freedom, or less? Are we free to do the things that matter, or only the things that don't matter? and when freedom is taken away, it is usually slowly, in an accumulation of tiny amounts, the way daylight fades and your eyes keeping adjusting until they can't adjust any more, and only then do you realize you're in the dark. You've been in the dark for a long time. and you don't realize how long until someone flips on that first painful light.
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My city is big enough to have homeless people (particularly since it's the central point for various dried-up state aid services, including mental health services) but small enough that you can recognize most of them after a while... if you look. I don't claim I always do look. One of these recurring figures is an elderly woman in a big black raincoat that drapes over her like a cloak. She walks around with a wheeled metal luggage rack containing a pile of black (read: opaque) plastic trash bags, each tied up tightly. I learned her name a month ago when one of the women from my church was worrying about where Sophia would go during the hurricane, or if anyone had even warned her that it was coming. ... Tonight, I went to the grocery store to buy milk and Sophia was sleeping, sitting on a bench in the vestibule of the store, next to the carts. I didn't want to wake her, because I figured she didn't have much time before the store closed and then they'd (probably) make her leave. I wondered, as I shopped, if there was something I could do for her, without waking her up; but i don't know enough about her situation to know what she really needs. I'm not sure I've ever heard her voice. In the end, I just slid my shopping cart back into the corral as quietly as I could, and said 'God bless you.' just loud enough to be heard, and went out with my groceries into the chilly night, feeling like I was about to cry. (I made my brother cry once, with something I wrote. Perhaps I could do that again, if that would be what made him finally see that liberalism is about the government doing communally those various things that as individuals we know we ought to do but seldom actually choose to do. On the other hand, that was when he stopped reading my writing. I'd hate to see him stop listening to my voice.) ... It's cold enough tonight that I turned on the heat in my apartment, even though heat rises from the two floors below. I sit here drinking tea and I think about those out in the cold tonight, and hope that Christ is out there with them.
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I went to two meetings today. (when did I become a person who goes to meetings?) My city, by virtue of being a state capitol, has Occupiers (apparently only about 20, but still enough for the effect, and they know what they're doing). The local university held a public forum to educate the public, in an intentionally-balanced if not entirely actually-balanced way, about the Occupy movement. Aside from people from the Occupiers (mostly in their 20s and dressed like college students), they had a Democrat state senator, a Republican state senator, and a state house representative who claimed he just happened to be in the building to sell back a textbook. (the bookstore offered him 10% of what he paid for the mathematics textbook, but, see, he'd already taken college-level math and knew he was being ripped off.) There was to be a Tea Party representative, but he chose to speak as a private citizen with everyone else instead, rather than claim more authority to speak on behalf of his party than he actually had. (From this, I learned that the Tea Party really is a leaderless organization, too... some parts are co-opted Baggers for Palin but others have different agendas or goals or values that might not match each other. there are many varieties of tea. so it's possible tea and pie can coexist instead of clashing. I imagine the poster for such a summit depicting art-school graphics of a blue table in front of red wall, with a white teacup and saucer emitting waving stripes of white steam against the red, next to a red and off-white apple pie, complete except for a tiny teensy missing sliver. Captioned: Occupy / Tea Joint Combined Assembly (dates here) Everyone knows what's wrong. Let's talk about what we're going to Do about it.)
Anyway, I was impressed with the democratic politicians' brief statements, but I felt the republican was stuck between his instinct to please those in the room and his training to dismiss the Occupiers as silly, ineffective, and message-less. He was right about how the partisans no longer really talk to each other. I hope he noticed that the Occupiers are trying to change that.
The second half of the meeting was organized in Occupier General Assembly format, which was educationally cool. It's a sort of parliamentary procedure re-created by bloggers. To start a new topic, you have to be put "on the stack", which is first-come, first-served, get in line and hope there's time to get to you after everyone ahead of you has had a chance. (As with traditional Rules of Order, I suspect this is intended to encourage brevity and chill such passions as tend to derail meetings). However, other people can respond to the current speaker with hand signals. Both hands held aloft, fingers spread and wiggling, means "I agree" (like a Like button, but not as noisy and time-consuming as clapping), whereas pointing like a pistol with your fingers means "I have a direct response to what that person is saying" (like an internet comment, with multiple pointers to a given speaker stacked chronologically among themselves) There are two moderators. One is doing the typical duties that would typically be aided by a gavel, a stopwatch, a vaudeville shepherd's crook, or a conductor's baton. The other is keeping track of who is on which stack and who wishes to be added to a stack. Just like on the internet, there were some people more considerate than others, or more eloquent than others, and so on. The man at the very top of the stack had an elaborate speech involving the national debt and allegedly free college for everyone, complete with a handout for the republican politician but not enough copies for everyone else, and had to be told twice to wrap it up so others could talk. But he was told to wrap it up. twice. and they would've said it three times or fifty, I think. They aren't about filibusters or letting any one person do all the talking.
I was especially impressed when one of the Occupy Augusta members said that, since they're on the lawn by the State House anyway, they've been talking over the issues that the legislators will be voting on soon, getting consensus, then attending the hearings to speak about it... and since they don't charge admission or rent, citizens from all over the state are welcome to come join them for long enough to attend hearings on issues that concern them, instead of worrying about hotels and food and so on. I was floored by the simple brilliance of this. They're using what's still (sort of) working in our democracy, and amplifying it.
It's clear they value the process of reaching consensus more than specific demands to be met. As another Occupier (Demi Colby, i think) said earlier, "we're not deconstructing government... we're REconstructing it." and they're encouraging civil discussion (much better than civil war) and civic engagement. As an Occupier named Josiah said, "If you have time to post to Facebook, you have time to educate yourself." I made sure to get his name because I intend to quote him on Facebook.

(interlude: after meeting #1, I went to workplace to get my paycheck. It came to exactly $666.16 but I'm cashing it anyway. The waxed floors were _all_ greasy and slick. Apparently the night crew did something wrong when they cleaned the floor. Wonder if it has anything to do with the manager that wanted to use the night crew's machines to get a fabric softener spill off the floor? probably not, since there were slick spots yesterday before that, but my cynical vengeful nature finds it tempting. Glad I wasn't working today. I got a haircut. Trimmed and shaved and having regained my pre-vegan weight, without my glasses, I resemble my brother. not surprising but strange anyway. Thus ends my few days of not worrying about my weight gain. *sigh* Then I stopped at the bookstore, spend too much time, and bought the last Superman before the relaunch (the one that contains the words "and they lived happily ever after") and Sun Tzu's the Art of War because I should read it, and then I should give it away to someone else who should read it. I'm more artist than warrior, but sometimes the war is more about hearts and minds than blood and fear. see also and compare to here/now: http://www.emcit.com/emcitS03.shtml#Art )

The second meeting was a job interview for a priest candidate for our church. He was very personable, knowledgeable, yet down to earth. (and he's semi-retired so he actually fits our budget) We were impressed. He'd brought more people to the last church he was at. He said the central point about his skillset was that he was great at the process. The collaborative, developmental process. He said churches are like gardens. You can't just drop in seeds and expect results. You need to tend the growing plants (aka: the flock of sheep) and you need the right kind of soil for the kind of plant you're growing, get the right pH balance between bitter and sweet, not so bitter that it stings, but not so sweet that the truth is glazed over.

I keep coming back to that poem by Emma Lazarus, "the New Colossus". http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_New_Colossus
this has become my prayer, the thread betwixt a church that fights for survival, a nation that cries out for justice for its people, the dreams of frantic sudden revolutions in distant empires, even, maybe, the tales of heroes hated by the very masses they protect.

Listening to the radio just now to stay awake so I can write all this, and I hear again a line I used to hear all the time from a certain person, God bless her: "Call on Me and I will answer you, and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." It's from the book of Jeremiah. I would call, but I already feel like God's giving me more signs than Times Square, and my head is swimming trying to see how it all fits together. Like, Double Rainbow all the Way writer's high here. bit of headache, too, it's okay.
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Kids, if you're reading this twenty or thirty years from now, if you've bothered to trace your Uncle Shadow's electron trails back this far... I just wanted to say, on behalf of my generation, for whatever world we've left to you... we're sorry. we didn't know. we did our best and hoped it would turn out right. History is so much clearer in hindsight. The confederates once thought that seceding from the Union was as good an idea as seceding from British rule had been. The details blur with distance, the shocking surprises of the past seem inevitable from the future. We think it was simpler back then...but it was never simple, and some times were more complex than others. There are things I need you to understand about what it's like to live in America, circa 2011.
Let's start with what we _do_ know already, in 2011:
Despite whatever you might've been taught in school, we knew Iraq had nothing to do with the 9/11 terror attacks _before_ we went to war there. We _suspected_ that there were no Weapons of Mass Destruction in Iraq. In short, there were plenty of people who knew it was a mistake before we even did it. They were ignored by the warhawks beforehand, and utterly conveniently forgotten by the warhawks after. We know this. ...except the we that is all of America doesn't. The week that Saddam was captured, I overheard a bus driver saying he thought Saddam was hiding in America, "so he could see his handiwork". Politicians advocated melting down Saddam's statues to make girders for the Freedom Tower. Politically, some of us know one truth, others know a mutually incompatible 'truth', and they don't care to be convinced with facts. They're happy with the world Fox News shows them.
We know the climate is changing, that there is scientific evidence of global warming. ...but we don't. On the coldest day of any given January, you can bet that _someone_ will make a joke mocking Global Warming... but it's October 14th, there was a 70-degree afternoon just a few days ago, (a couple of you went swimming yesterday) and no one's made a peep about the cause of such unusual temperatures, such stubborn summer, not one "Hey, is it warm on this globe, or is it just me?" ....Kids, maybe you swim in October every year, but autumns up here used to be fairly cold. We boil slowly like a frog, and those with the power to stop it have air conditioning and no incentive to change. (to be continued)
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Know this. I am here and I will fight you and your collectivist philosophy to the death. username ReardenMetal, comment left on OWS website.

People are seriously saying this stuff. That scares me. Bumper sticker says, "I'd rather be killing zombies." ....traffic is bad sometimes, but I'd take it over the living dead. More and more, I suspect that 'zombies' is code for 'people I don't like'. All these people out there are stocking away guns for the apocalypse, praying for the rapture. I'd rather we had a future where we communicated like rational grown-up human beings, and found a society that we could all live with, rather than some faction, even my own faction, coming out on top, reshaping the entire nation to suit their values, and conveniently mistaking for a zombie anyone with opposing values and shooting them in the head. Unfortunately, showing an ability to think about issues and change your mind is seen as weakness. A moron who is 100% certain is preferred over a genius who is only 80% sure, pending further research.

I hear people bemoaning the loss of common sense. Problem with 'common sense' is that it mostly only creates an illusion of commonality, and rarely can be recognized as sensible. It tends to lead people to shouting matches because "I can see this as clear as day. How can you not see that? You must be stupid if you see the world differently than me." It is more delusion than real perceptive ability. I wasn't born with a capability to sync up with the local common sense parameters. You have to actually give me a reason to do things. I'm disabled that way.
shadowlight: Gonzo the muppet dressed as fictional gonzo journalist Spider Jerusalem (gonzo)
*holds up sign*
"The church where I volunteer is slowly going bankrupt. We're having trouble hiring a priest because without another income, no one can afford to live on what little we can afford to pay; but we refuse to cut our programs to help the poor. The demand keeps growing. One of our programs has already served more people this year than all of last year, three months to go and their shelves are bare, and expecting another 140 clients next week. We're picking up the slack as government programs get cut, but we don't have the budget or manpower to carry all of it alone. We are the 99%."
Wait, I need another sign for my workplace, with coworkers who are nurses, veterans, former shop-owners, aircraft engineers, and scads of college grads, all working retail, usually three jobs for the price of one, so underpaid they still get government assistance.
and another sign after that.
Cripes, this whole country is falling apart. Mom always said when people get hungry enough, there's always a revolution. She could tell in the 80s that someday this day would come. Looks like the circus is finally out of bread.
Good. Now what can I do to help that isn't going to destroy my own tenuous grip on survival?

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