Dumber Than Advertised

I thought I'd update just to let everyone know why I took a break from being online a few weeks ago. I know some people were worried at my abrupt departure, and I'm really sorry for that. Thank you to everyone who checked in with me and sent me birthday wishes. Dine, thank you for your wonderful card. It was just what I needed when I needed it. ♥

So basically, about a month or so ago, I fucked up my shoulder, and the resulting pinched nerve got bad enough to immobilize me for two days and rendered my right arm useless for two weeks. I'll spare you the details of the endless doctors' visits, the medications that did exactly jackshit, and the panicked, agonizing ER visit that lasted half a day and finally led to the right medications being prescribed to me. What you need to know is that I'm better now, for the most part. I still have some pain in my arm and my fingers are still kind of numb, but I'm not living in constant agony, and I'm no longer passing out in exhaustion from trying to keep it together at work.

(I cried a lot at work from trying to deal with the pain. My co-workers did everything they could to make things better for me, and when that didn't work, they actually went and got my BIL and made him take me to the ER to get checked out. I continue to love my job and the people I work with because they are some of the best people on earth. Also, my BIL is amazing and took good care of me while I was incapacitated. I owe him a lot. He is a very good man.)

Anyway, the last month was hellish and brutal, but I finished my round of medication and am doing weekly massage therapy, so I'm in a much better place. I think I might need a few more massage therapy sessions before I'm back to normal, but for now, I'm basically offline because using the computer for more than five minutes puts too much strain on my arm, which makes work really interesting, let me tell you. I tried commenting on LJ entries today, but I didn't last more than a few minutes before my arm started aching again, so I'm not ready to be online just yet. I've been doing everything through my phone, so if you need to reach me, just email me and I'll get back to you eventually.

I'm sorry for all the birthdays I missed, and all the birthdays I will miss, but I hope your natal day was full of good things and people telling you how important you are to them. If I owe you fic, and I know I do, I will try to get it written as soon as I can handle working on a computer, and I hope it will be worth the wait. I will also make an attempt to read ALL THE FIC, especially Avengers now that I've seen the movie twice, when I get back online.

I miss you all, and I hope to be back soon.

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Taking a break from being online for a while. I've been in intense pain for the last week, and even anti-inflammatories and Percocet don't seem to be making a dent.

I'll be back when I can type without feeling like someone's sawing off my elbow. Hope you're all doing well.

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So I got sick again. And by 'got sick', I mean that I woke up on Thursday with a cough. By the time I got to work, I felt shitty. By the time I was done all my meetings, I was so cold that not even three layers of sweaters could warm me up. By the time it was 2:30, the BIL was worried enough about me to take me to the walk-in clinic to see a dcotor, who promptly diagnosed me with a high fever and shoved a prescription for antibiotics into my shivering hand.

I came home, showered in the hottest water I could stand, and then passed out into coma sleep for about three hours. Woke up, took my meds, couldn't eat anything because antibiotics makes everything taste terrible, and slept for another eight hours. I still felt awful on Friday and stayed home instead of trying to make it in to work. I watched a lot of bad movies and napped on and off all day long with a cat on my lap. I still couldn't eat anything because it all just tasted horrible and eating just brought on nausea, even though I was hungry enough to be nauseous about it. Basically, Friday sucked.

I'm feeling better today, or at least, I'm feeling good enough that I ate a whole piece of toast with cheese on it, and had a cup of tea as well. You know you're feeling better when you can actually drink tea. I will continue this trend of eating cautiously until I get my full appetite back, and then I just have to stop feeling weak and tired and achey. And stop getting sick all the time because holy shit, am I tired of that.

I'm sorry for not answering comments or posts. I'm trying to catch up on everything while I'm still upright. Happy belated birthdays to zombres and meus_venator. I'm so sorry for missing out on wishing you on your birthdays, but I hope you spent your natal days being venerated for being the quality human beings that you are. ♥

Okay, I'm going to go lie down until the world stops spinning.



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I'm so bad at tumblr, you guys. It's supposed to be my happy place, but then I get angry at people saying stupid things in a fandom that I don't even participate in, and then I am getting my ragey words and thoughts all over peoples' dashes. Ugh. Sorry for all of it. I'll just invent a thing that will let me punch stupid people in the face over the internet. It'll be easier.

On the upside, all that rage seems to have kicked my writing into gear? I don't even know what is going on with that, but I wrote a thing for a show that hasn't even aired yet, but has garnered all the controversy and all my rage. And I just... I am terrible at the internet.

If you're interested, it's for Elementary, it's my usual trope of 'two emotionally stunted crime fighters in a buddy cop flick', and it's Sherlock/Joan because I want Lucy Liu to have all the sex.

Elementary, My Dear Watson

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Next up is 'Avengers at a craft fair' for Lillian and the Teen Wolf/Mortal Kombat mash-up that Gus somehow mind-whammied me into writing.

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All of this is being done in a rush because I left my packing for the last minute, which I realize is entirely my fault, but anyway, today I am off on family vacation time so I'm gone for four days of food, stupid family stories, and hot tubbing until I turn into a squid.

Since I won't be around (I plan on not checking my phone every five minutes for once), I want to wish people for their birthdays in advance.

annlarimer, o_contrary, and rubywisp, happy birthday in advance. I hope there are presents and cake and company with people you like who know you and love you, and everyone making a fuss over how great you are. I'm sorry I'll miss it, but I hope it'll be a cavalcade of love on your birthdays. ♥

To the rest of you, I will miss you. I hope you have either a happy Easter or just a fabulous weekend of doing whatever you want, and I will be back soon to tell you about all things about me and my family got up to while I was away. There may even be pictures! (Crappy cellphone pictures, but this is not news.)

I'll also answer everything when I come back because I am terrible at managing my time in my personal life, although I do well in my professional life. Go figure.



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My Director just came in with fluffy pink rabbit ears and a wee tail, and gave chocolate to everyone.

HAVE I MENTIONED TODAY HOW MUCH I LOVE WORKING HERE?

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My sincerest apologies to anyone following me on Tumblr who had to deal with my endless bitching all day. I was trying to be more positive, but then today happened.

So, I've had this pain in the right side of my mouth whenever I eat, and it's been going on for the last week and a half. It's something to do with the crown I had put in six years ago, so I ended up doing the adult, responsible thing and going to see the dentist. She isn't the dentist who did the root canal and put in the crown, but she was really nice and understanding, even while she was whacking my tooth and causing me pain.

It turns out that I have an abscess building up in this misbegotten tooth because some bacteria from a previous infection might have lingered. Joyous. So now my options are root canal treatment, which would fix the abscess and let me keep the crown, but which costs close to $2,000 that I am never going to have. Or I could just extract the tooth for $200 and be on my merry way. I'm going for the tooth extraction because I do not have a spare $1,700 just lying around in case I need dental work done. God, teeth, why do we need them?!

The thing that made me want to cry was when my dentist said, "It's only $200," in reference to the cost of the tooth extraction, and I wanted to tell her that that is a third of my weekly paycheck and there is nothing 'only' about it. Not to mention that it will not be just $200; it'll be $200, plus taxes, plus about a hundred dollars more for the anesthetic because my stupid body has a high tolerance for drugs so it'll take about seven shots of anesthetic to get me numbed enough for any kind of surgery. I shudder to think what'll happen if I ever need major surgery involving anesthetic. They might as well knock me out with a club.

And there is a small, stupid, shallow part of me that doesn't want to lose a tooth because it'll be non-symmetrical, but the practical part of me knows that I have to think short-term now and long-term later, so I'm losing a tooth in two weeks. I'll just have to get over my issues with it.

The thing that got me through today was venting to the BIL about the racism and misogyny discussions happening on Tumblr re: Elementary and The Hunger Games because I was genuinely upset over some of the things being said. I give the BIL shit because he tends to get on my nerves at times, but he is honestly such a good guy. He let me get it all out and made the same points that I had made and was just basically a rock. I love that guy, he is fucking amazing.

I just want it to be the weekend so I can hide from everything in my pajamas and drink tea and read all the hockey fic and watch all the hockey links misspamela and nicolasechs sent me.



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I'm halfway through demon_rum's Everything is a Stall and I keep having to stop reading because I literally can't see through my tears. Jesus Christ, Marcus, keep breaking my fucking heart, why don't you?

“No, you don't understand.” Marcus' voice turned raspy, as he tried to fight back the pressure welling up inside him. It wasn't working. “He's still going to die, and I was a dick to you back there, and that's almost exactly how my dad died five years ago, and I don't want to be here, and I only went to med school because Pop wanted me to, and I hate being a doctor with every single ounce of my strength but I'm trapped and I can't get out of it no matter what I do because I own Sallie Fucking Mae $200,000, and I'm so lonely. I've got no one but an ex-girlfriend in Springfield and a mom who thinks the Nazis are making a comeback and I can't do this anymore.”

Go read it. It's the most amazing Eagle AU, and you will love it. Once you stop bawling your eyes out.



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From here:



If you go to the link, you will see the most brilliant tags ever, and now I want an Avengers/Mean Girls fusion. Tony can be Regina, Bruce is Cady, Clint is Gretchen, and Steve is Karen. Natasha can be Janis, Clint can be Damian, and maybe Pepper can be Ms. Norbury.

I'm not sure who Thor or Nick Fury would be, but basically, I just want this to happen now.

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Every time I try to make a post with words instead of videos or pictures or gifs, I just get horribly tired and quit halfway through. I seem to be doing that a lot more lately, so I guess this means another trip to my doctor and more blood tests. Bah!

Anyway, have some good news in point form:

my work contract got extended till September of this year. Which is really wonderful because right now, there are a lot of cuts being planned due to the upcoming budget, and everyone's freaking out right now. So I'm incredibly thrilled that I am staying on at this place for a little while longer. It's still full of amazing people doing amazing work, and I still love it here.

got tickets to go see Young Frankenstein: The Musical with the brother-in-law in May. MY DORKY EXCITEMENT CANNOT BE CONTAINED.

reserved tickets for the Ottawa Comic Con coming up May 12 to 13 where JEAN-LUC PICARD AND Q ARE ATTENDING. My inner Next Gen nerd is incredibly happy. I will be going with the sister and brother-in-law and we plan to geek the fuck out for a day. Have I mentioned lately how much my birth month is going to rock this year?

am going up to Calaboogie with the family to celebrate Easter. Two more weeks and it's family time! Also, there will be hot tubs and stupid stories. I can't wait.

could possibly be attending Con.txt and meeting misspamela if I can get my salary worked out and save enough in time. I want this to happen because omg Miss P hugs!

also, more salary means I can finally save up to go visit Cee and Danny. Hand to heart, this has been a dream of mine for a really long time. It's going to happen, this year or next.

similarly, will (hopefully) finally be meeting charliehey this June after ten years of knowing her. FUTURAMA AND MEL BROOKS MARATHONS, HERE WE COME. :D

I will be staying at bookofdays' apartment in three weeks and I will finally get to meet her cat. And go see movies with her. I am so excited! ♥

Fannish-y things:

watched 21 Jump Street and laughed myself into several coughing fits. Besides the fact that this movie clearly doesn't take itself seriously and writes all the filthy humor that appeals to me, there's a real sweetness and affection between the characters that I didn't expect in a movie like this. And not the "I love you, man" aspect of it either, but the very real friendship and complicated feelings between Jenko and Schmidt from their high school days to their cop days to the Jump Street program days.

I kind of want all the gen fic about them being buds and hanging out and cheating at video games and Jenko giving Schmidt tips about not being a nervous sweat bomb in front of women. I also not-so-secretly want stories about Jenko and his teeny, cute science nerd teaching him more about covalent bonds and making out on the couch, but since Jenko/Schmidt is going to become the main pairing of this fandom, I suspect I'm out of luck. Oh, well.

hey, did you know Avengers is coming out soon? WHY IS IT NOT OUT ALREADY? I CAN'T STAND THE WAITING.

bought The Muppets and Tintin on DVD, and watched all the behind-the-scenes stuff for the Muppets movie. You guys, they have interviews with the Muppets, and Miss Piggy and Emily Blunt square off, and Miss Piggy and Kermit mess up a line and kiss in apology, and Deadly shows off his dance moves. And they have a Muppet director and a human director, a monster producer and a human producer, and one Muppet makes a "key grip" joke. BEST MOVIE EVER. I still have hearts in my eyes over it.



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