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Which Sex and the City Player Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty


You're upbeat, insightful, effervescent and imaginative.

Sometimes a little too imaginative... You're all about the subtext, about what's going on between the lines. You very rarely take anything at face-value.

You also have a tendancy to be a little neurotic and self-absorbed, and fall for guys who are either (for the most part) emotionally unattainable or completely wrong for you.

That's okay, though, everyone loves you anyway. You're very well-liked. You always have a shoulder for your friends to cry on or an ear for them to gossip in. High-profile and fun, you're the life of the party.
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coming apart at the seams

here for the past few days, it just feels as if everything is crashing down around me. im not really in the mood to go into great detail but i will say that it is about damn time. there for a while everything was going smoothly and not a bad thing was occurring ( nothing so bad that i would consider it bad LoL ) i knew sooner or later something would just snap and fall. and well its starting. this too shall pass, i know. but i was a little worried due to that fact that i was so used to bad things happening on a constant occurrance that when they didnt i was like "whoa! something not right here" you are prolly thinking that i am demonted or morbid or whatever, but when you are so used to something and then it doesnt happen, it sends you into a spin that almost makes you sick.

i know its been a few days since i have written in this thing, but hey its not like i get comments so, whats the point!?

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a dreamer is one who can only find their way by moonlight, and their punishment is that they see the dawn before the rest of the world ...

 

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i guess it's typical to cling to memories you will never get back again, and to sort through old photographs of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know.

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    buzz of the AC is all that soothes me

If you should die before me, ask if you can bring a friend. --Stone Temple Pilots

MY BACK HURTS! =(

just a quick HELLO!!! it has been a lil while since i have updated this and that could mean one of two things (a) i have been too busy or (b) i have no life... LoL. im thinking its because i have been too busy! things have been non-stop for me lately. the subaru has been treating me good and pretty soon it will know its own way UP the road considering how many times i have gone out there lately! i was out last night with the fellas and we were talking about all the rumors going round. One of em piped up and said "yeah Boggs, pretty soon youre gonna be dating us all!" we all laughed at that b/c its so true. I am always with these guys and everybody thinks im dating one of them. JB said that people just dont understand that i am like 'one of the guys'. and that is sooo true! i mean i am 9 times outta 10 the only female and i am so close with all the fellas. i like it! LoL. people will always talk about others, i think it is humans second nature to talk about people/things that they either dont understand or that they are jealous of and frankly i dont care. if youre talkin bout me you are leaving somebody else alone! LoL. i know i know, that sounds cliche but hey, it fits! Lol.

me and Kim have been talkin a lot more lately and that makes me smile! i <3heart<3 her and i miss her soo much!! i think we have both grown a lot since we drifted apart but it has been for the better, or so it seems! LoL. love you babydoll!!! <3

.'.Everyday we move forward in life, but it's only when we pause to look back at the past that we understand.'.

Letting go isn't giving up, it's accepting that some things aren't meant to be. and thats what i have come to believe when it comes to me and my best 'guy' friend for the past 3 years! he has moved on and once again i have been left in the dust. only this time things will be different. i will not wait around for him to come back to me. i cant! i wont! maybe one day he will realize what it is he has given up. the only thing i fear is that when he does it will be too late. oh who am i kidding? how can everybody see through my words? when i say it doesnt bother me, how can they see right through? why do i let him do this to me? everytime he gets himself a girl, i get dropped. GRRRR!! UgH!!! he will always be my friend, he knows too much to be anything else!!



oh hey number .'.TwO.'. i love you!! =)i will see you later! LoL. oh btw, tomorrow i am thinking we should hang with 'your' people! its been a while since i have done that!! :p
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    thats the truth about guys-

You'll never know the half of my unhappiness

Your memory is a way of holding on to what you are, what you love, and what you never want to lose.

 

I FINALLY FOUND IT!!!!! this song makes me want to smile and cry at the same time ...

Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

A ship in harbor is safe,

...but that is not what ships are built for.


well the past two days have been aight i guess. last night i went with kelly and the toddlers to the fair! i had so much fun with them! LoL i got to go on some of the rides HeHe and all but today both me and kelly were draggin! those kids wore us out! well work SUCKED today as usual! it was so HOTT up front in my office!! UgH! nasty ... i think the AC was broke up there or something b/c it was nice and cool in the back offices, so not fair! bOO! but anyways, then tonight mom went to the fair with me. we took jeremiah and i was asked if he was mine! LoL. i was in the bathroom and a girl that i never talked to in high school but i think matured and realized things in college started talkin to me just like we were the best of friends LoL (it really made me laugh) but she said "did you have a kid?" i just smiled and said no. she then goes "oh because a few of us were standing there and saw you walk by carryin a little baby and we all looked at each other and said 'no way! is that hers?!' i told them i didnt know but that i would ask you if i saw ya" i started laughing and i said politely "well thats how rumors get started in this town, people assume before they know" she agreed with me and we both went on our merry ways! LoL . it was a funny moment i guess you had to be there b/c as i re-read that it doesnt seem very humorous!! well i left there and hung round town for a while, talked to opeytrice, and then headed up the road. there were just 3 of us there tonight and we all enjoyed ourselves. i got to really talk to one person whom i hadnt talked to in a while b/c his woman doesnt let him talk to me. (imagine that) oh well! and now its a lil after 3 and i am here. i left there at like 215 LOl and its a WORK night! whoops! haha ...


i have been thinking a lot tonight about certain people i have involved in my life and sometimes i wonder why they are even there; why i think i need them per say; why i let myself think about things like that when in reality if they were meant to be a part of my life thoughts about why they were would never cross my mind. but who knows ... i guess thats just another example of how complex i am. i swear! UGH! i am so complex at times that i could give myself a complex LoL if that makes any sense.


i was just thinking about my past and espeacially the past 2 years or so and how i have been through SO MUCH! and it makes me want to cry. its KUH-razy! and you know what i think? i think, if you look back on the events of your past years, whether good or bad, and you don't get tears in your eyes, than it was all a waste of time. so here's to my past ... <3 ..</3 PEACE OUT HOMESKILLETS!!!
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    Led Zeplin- House of the Rising Sun

dont let yourself get used to missing someone ...

... it will make you numb. it will kill a part of your soul

well at the moment i am waiting for syd to come pick me up from work so we can do lunch. we have been going to lunch together for about a week i guess and i just think thats awesome! LoL. i am going to pick up my car this afternoon!!! GO ME! yeah, its a Subaur Legacy, yes that is a family car LoL, but hey its all gravy! LOL. it def. has some get-up-and-go to it!! i like it a lot! i am planning a trip to motown on wednesday! Just for the evening so i can see some of my people out there. i havent seen them in forever and jus the other day mary called me and said she missed me and everybody had been asking about me, so i figured ' HEY MAN, ROAD TRIP!!!" woo-hoo!!
anywho, lets d
r
o
p
that and move on! LoL ( you like that lil 'drop' thing i did! i know you do, i am just too cool!! HaHa) its weird i just got takin over by the overwhelming feeling of happiness! WOW! that was cool. very intense. you know i love how i sit here and just complete ramble about bullshit that doesnt pertain to anything. Maybe thats why nobody comments on my journal! haha. i guess if i sat here and posted my daily activites then more people would but how boring would that get after a while considering all i do is work babysit go home and sit on my ass. LoL. yes! so exciting.

so i guess thats all for now folks, i will leave you with this ... Everyday we move forward in life, but it's only when we pause to look back at the past that we understand ... think about it! PEACE LOVE HAPPINESS <3 kB <3

yeah thats the one ...

well today was a pretty good day. work was KUH-razy! but soon calmed down. i went and test drove that truck today ... then went to markwood and checked out a few other ones. i need to stop being so damn picky and make up my mind. although i really have no problem driving the rents rides!!! :-) which by the way, me and syd had mom's jeep out tonight! and talk about craziness!!! DAMN!! "hell-OOOOO" "those are the skanky druggies ... i got one for them! GOOD MORNINGGGGG!" LMAO!! i love you syd!! nothing but good times ... even when we have bad times we still make the most of it. youre my number .'.TwO.'. and i dont know what i would do without ya!!!

so anyways, im heading to bed ... its been a LONG day!!!!! PEACE AND LOVE <3<3<3


A true friend is one who
Knows you as you really are,
Understands where you've been,
Accepts who you've become,
And still gently invites you to grow.

*You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but u cant close your heart to things you don't want to feel.*





Saw you last night Dance by the light of the moon ...
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na na na na

well i was sittin out in the truck smokin a ciggy-butt and i was thinking 'maybe i should make an actual update in my journal' so here it is ...

i got my license this past friday!!! woo-hoo!! i know i know, its about damn time, but better late than never!!! so me and syd took the TRUCK out friday night!!! i like it a lot! LoL.i need to get my eyebrows done. there was supposed to be a rumble friday night BUT it didnt happen so .. it was funny though. two families were involved standing across the street from each other. and both sides were sayin how they were going to beat the others ass. 100% humor!! me and syd got back to my house round 130 and then left again with MMM and HotRod. we went back home around 3 and syd went to sleep and i stayed up and watched the telly for a lil while. i was then woke up by my dog's big furocious ( spelling?) bark! LoL. then i heard foot steps on my back deck! it was 1030 in the morning and i was pissed. not scared or worried that somebody was at my house but mad that they woke me up LoL. it was all good though b/c it was the guy comin to pick up the RV. as i was walkin through the kitchen i heard somebody comin up the steps from the basement. now i was like WTF?! it was my sissyfriend though, so LoL nobody got hurt there. lol.

saturday was a pretty good day. went and looked at a truck. i am going to test drive it today hopefully! then went to winchester to eat dinner with the parental units. i dont know why but whenever my family goes out to eat, pickin the place seems like the biggest task in the world! we go back and forth back and forth and nobody puts in their two cents which results in pissy moods. LoL. but anyways, we went to this real nice italian eatery. they had a violin player and everything. dad said he wanted to go ask her if she would play 'the devil went down to georgia' but mom wouldnt let him. it was a nice dinner aside from the fact that our waitress SUCKED and i got hit on by the cooks! EWWWWW!

i got back hopped in with some peeps and went to a shin-dig. it was fun! talked to some people i hadnt seen in a while. i was rather emotional that nigth but im now gonna get into that. lets just say i learned a lesson. and i learned it from somebody that never should have be teachin me it. if that makes any sense!

met mom and dad round 3 on sunday, mom was a lil upset i didnt come home. LOl.

OH! plans have been made for me to go to my first BIKE RALLY! that should be AWESOME to say the least. it is the last one of the year in Ohio. WOO-HOO!!!! <3

but anyways, that was last weekend and now its tuesday ... ill post again later. PEACE
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