The music lives!!!

I finally went in the tournament thing. I got third place, and most outstanding participant!!!

So I've just had two whole weeks without J. It's been... interesting! I don't like being on my own much, but it was nice to have some space to breathe. And I got so much done!

Uni has started again, and I think that I am definitely going to switch to education next year. I'm doing all subjects that are for the B Ed this semester and they're so much more interesting than linguistics! Told my mum and she was actually good about it... I was expecting the "You need to pick one thing and stick with it" speech.

Hmm, what else has happened... my sister came down for five days, that was a barrell (sp?) of laughs. My mum's been coming down heaps, she's coming again today. She's actually doing stuff for my passport with me so I can go to Japan next year! YAY!!! Oh, and I was asked (not told, finally!) by my Si Fu if I wanted to be part of a female lion dance team with my Si Mo and some of the girls from Sunny Coast, to potentially go overseas with the Australian team which we're brother schools with. So I said yes, of course, as long as I wasn't thrown in to perform straight away. So next year I possibly get to go to Japan, Korea and Hawaii! (I get to go even if the girls team falls through, since J is on the national team.)

Been training hard, we've got a heap of new students and I really need to get a bit higher than I am to make sure I stay ahead as Si Mo. Well, to make it easier on J anyway, since apparently the Si Mo is meant to be a bit above the majority of the students in her training (everyone but the Si Hing or Si Jie, pretty much). Um... got into a whole new eating pattern while J was away, so I need to try and keep to it because I'm feeling heaps better on it. Hard when he eats half the pantry for dinner and gives me strange looks when I'm not very hungry at dinner. That whole, eat a big breakfast, a medium size lunch and a small dinner really works!

Anyway, I should go make myself look presentable for my passport photo... ugh. :-P

I can't believe how many really nice houses we could be living in if we were in our hometown. For a HELL of a lot less than we're paying here. Brisbane has absolutely nowhere for us to move to, on the southside close to kung fu school anyway. Its ridiculous. It kind of makes me want to move back.

Kind of.

We've had my master and his wife, and a whole heap of assorted students staying with us lately, for lion dancing and kung fu training. Its been a really interesting week and a half, but its starting to grate, having all these guests all the time. I'm just one of those people that like their house to stay clean, and its just not happening with guests all the time.

Getting closer and closer to time to go to Sydney! I'm getting really excited, I need some time away from all the noise and people at our house, and I want to see all the rellies. Sometimes a wave of loneliness will just hit me and I'll wish like all hell I was back in Sydney, the place that really feels like home to me. Well, not long now.

Zac got married last weekend, how sweet is that... makes me want to settle down, but I don't think I'm quite ready. I go through massive stages, really ready to get married have kids rah rah rah, and then ready to get in the car with my best mate L and go on a road trip to nowhere. But I'm away from my point, which is that any Hanson news, even when another one gets married, makes me so happy. I get so excited about silly little things like that!

Oh wow... S and J2 want me to go in a tournament! I can't believe they have that much faith in me! I'm going to have to work my arse off... its ages away, but I think I would be behind everyone else in it, and I want to kick arse for them!

LOL... as S would say... "How DO you like me NOW!"

I haaaaaaate being sick. It sucks, esp the crappy sniffly-cough kind of sick. And I feel really bad coz J1 has to do both our jobs. I wouldn't mind if it was anyone else! But he does so much already!

We had movies with a mafia theme this weekend. Goodfellas, which I've never seen and it was great, the Godfather (classic, I love it!) and Donnie Brasco. I love Johnny Depp, he is SUCH a talented actor. J1 has also been working on putting a vegetable garden in, which took him two days just to clear the crap out of the space he wanted. That's about all that's happened this weekend. Did I mention how much I HATE being sick??? I want to go and DO something!

I hate going home for holidays. It's not that its boring (which it is, but I don't mind that in small doses). I get to hang out with my in laws, which I love - they are really awesome and I feel so comfortable there. I get to go to the supermarket and walk by A and remind him what he's missed out on. Childish, yes... I need to get out of the habit. Its just so much fun!

But my family, God, they just stress me to the max. I spend as little time there as I can but they still manage to make me want to never come back. My mother is such a selfish, childish, materialistic wench (lol - V's word), which I realise that I can be a lot like too. But I don't think I'm as bad as her. I don't go to the lengths she does. I realise that now her children are almost grown she probably wants to go out and think of herself for awhile, but note that I've written ALMOST. My little sis is still at home, and I worry about her heaps. She's turned into one of those kids who think they can get their way in everything, because my mother just doesn't care anymore. She lets her have her way just so she can go out sooner, or whatever she wants to do that day. I'm so angry at her for that. She's completely changed from the kind of person I knew when I was growing up, and I don't know if its just that she was always that way and when she had kids she had to change. I don't know. Its gotten to the point where I just don't care anymore, it hurts too much to worry about it. I'm coming back to Brisbane and stressing about the whole situation and its having an impact on my home life, my studies, my work and my relationship. So this entry was just to get it all out, so from now on I will not let anything of what happens there affect me.

So! My knuckles are roughed up and bleeding from boxing on Anzac Day. The first time I've made my knuckles bleed from training! I'm so proud of myself, but want them to go away as soon as possible because they sting like all hell. Plus I'll have to wear gloves until they heal and I'd much rather not wear them. My Zhang Quan form is going good. I need to practice it heaps more though so I can be ready for my grading when S comes next. Just trying to get it as perfect as possible - the perfect angles, the perfect distance between my feet in each stance - is a bit difficult, especially in my totally dodgy backyard. But apart from that its all good.

I got a freaking SIX on my history assessment!

*dances*

YEAH!!!

Apparently that was one of the higher marks too... not bad for one night of work.

In other news... my master, S and his wife are coming down this coming week, which should be interesting. J2 says I should learn a lot because S is planning on going through a absolute mountain of theory. It will also be interesting because G, who trains with us as well, has been slacking off a heap lately. So I very much want to hear what S has to say to him.

I've also been wearing Hanson shirts to uni all this week. Its funny to watch some people take a glance and then do a bit of a double take, like - oooo-kay.

Get with it!

THE MUSIC LIVES PEOPLE!!! (I've been in a very big Hanson mood lately... its GREAT!)

So bad, naughty Mena has called in sick to her new job for the first time ever. It always starts off this way, I get tired and bored and just don't want to do it! I really can't let that happen this time. I HAVE to make sure this doesn't happen this time. A lot more is riding on it then was in my hometown! J1 and my ability to eat, to start with... he doesn't know that I've done this yet (he had to leave for work early this morning) and he's not going to be happy when he finds out.

I wish I knew something that could keep me motivated!

Yay! Finally got the majority of our furniture down yesterday, so we have something to sit on and eat at now. And our own bed! Although J1 has managed to forget where he packed the screws for it so we're sleeping on our own mattress. Even that is an improvement on S' (our housemate) bed that we were using. I could feel my back rejoicing last night :-)

Took today off uni which probably wasn't the best idea. J1 encouraged it though, I was just so stuffed this morning. I thought lots more sleep might put me in a better mood too, so took J1 to work and came back and went back to bed, went back to sleep for a couple of hours and feel a bit better now. Unfortunately I haven't been in the best mood in the last few days and I know I've been a total bitch to the house, so trying to change my mood and not take it out on my housemates. Or J1 for that matter.

Work has been absolutely mad, very hectic. Getting sick of it finally, but I've gotta do something and as I see it, its better than being a checkout chick or something. Plus experience in a corporate environment will look good on my resume for when I finally graduate.

Oh God, I just got incredibly tired again, so I may go and try to sleep again.

J1 has informed me that I am just as bad as G... apparently I boss him a lot. And thinking about it now I suppose I do. And J1 has been getting kind of upset through G and my very frequent arguments... so I've decided that I will try very hard to be the bigger person blah blah blah... it should be good for my training too. But it's very hard because G is just getting worse and worse.

I also made a resolution that I'm going to try and make someone feel good at least once a day. But I'm never very good at keeping my resolutions so I'll see how I go.