Don't Mock Me

It's way too long to update today but I promise to be here soon.

OUCH, I knew it had been a while since I last posted but that's just rediculous. I can't possibly catch up on all that time in this post.

Let's just gloss over shall we.

Ok March was a negative for our first IVF treatment. Our second was a no a few weeks back.

My Grandmother passed away the day before Anzac Day. Way to get the nation to remember her.

I've got cabin fever with this house and hubby agreed to move at the end of our lease shortly. He even agreed to pay rent at two places for a whole month so we don't have to rush the moving part. Man he must love me to put up with all that I've thrown at him the past few months.

That just leaves me with the issue of being awake at this time of the damn morning when I have to get up and pretend I'm human shortly.

ARRRRR

Ok more catching up next time. I hope it's not so long next time.

My Sister In Law gave birth to a beautiful (all be it 6 weeks early) baby boy on 30 January. They have named him Lachlan Benjamin.

What an eventful week we've been having. Tony's birthday yesterday, the day before his nephew was born. Nephew was 6 weeks early but I guess he's a pretty determined little man already.

I'm not coping very well at the moment and I hope Tony is up for tomorrow because I am definitely not. Way stressed and so scared and all I want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. It doesn't help that AF is here at the same time.

Anyway just wanted to update so you so you know what's up. I'm having a laparoscopy (ok so I probably can't spell) but if all goes well we may be able to have our family started by March. I'm crossing my fingers anyway. I don't know what I'll do if not.

I'm not really up for looking for another job either but I know I have to. Boy am I not pulling my weight at the moment. It's all too much for me and it just keeps piling up. I'll get there like I always do but.....I don't know how at the moment.

I hope everyone else is way better than me.

Love ya all.

What am I going to do? Actually I don't know but I guess it will involve finding a new job. The tuff thing is trying to decide if I can chuck a govt. job for private enterprise. My age doesn't help...I'm not a little chick any more and I'll be even older after the weekend rofl.

At least I was told today that Workcover is going to pay my gym membership for the next month so I can start working out again. I've missed stupid stuff like a bike that won't fall over when you don't steer and walking that doesn't involve traffic dust and up hills.

I am not coping well today. Hubby and I had a really bad argument this morning because I had to get him to contact the real estate about our new lease and he sounded like a wimp. We want to challenge the new rent and he's all pleading instead of strait out telling them that we think $15 per week hike is a lot for long term tenancy.

Laughter is my coping mechanism and if I'm not happy or seeing the funny side of almost everything, then I don't cope.

Anyway, I'm off to collect my mum from the airport. She's been away a few weeks. Yeah! no more looking after the cat (my cousins but it lives with her...don't ask). It's not that I don't like Errol but with allergies and a cold at the same time, it's been hard to go and spend time with him so he doesn't fret. I've missed my mum. Don't know why, when she's here we are often arguing anyway. LOL.

One of my friends asked the following and I replied :

What was the best thing you gave?

I think I'd have to say me. Hubby and I went to Townsville and had lunch with my grandparents. Townsville is about 2 hours on the plane from here, driving is 20 odd.

What was the best thing received?

The hug from my Grandma when she worked out who was talking to her and the hand holding back to the airport from my Granddad who never outwardly demonstrates his love.

I am part of a website and someone on there asked me a question about my voice and if there was anything else wrong atm.

I liked what I ended up typing so I thought I'd post it here. Just for interest sake. Don't read if you don't want to. I've looked at it with a hmmmmm view. Never put it like this before. :-)


About 3.... years ago I was born with a hole in my heart. That resolved at around age 12. As a result of all the complications with that, I've got a medical history taller than me. (I'm 5' 10") It says something when you move towns and the only people you ever hear from again are your Dr and your Chemist. (Yes this has happened twice).

Just at the moment.... in no particular order .. I have caught DH's cold which when combined with my allergies and asthma will probably turn into a bad sinus needing antibiotics or bronchitis/pneumonia as usual.

In August I fell at Central station on the way to work and hurt my left shoulder which needs attention (I think the last certificate said till March). BTW, I'm left handed.

About 2 nearly 3 months ago I had a different cold and lost my voice. The voice never came back. The locum GP thought it was my body telling me how much I hate my job and I'm not arguing ... my regular GP wants to rule everything out before we go to Workcover and claim it as stress leave.

I have bad kidneys, reflux, bad back, migraines, high blood pressure and on top of it all Trying To Conceive a baby for 4 years (although had a miscarriage of twins in 1992 from different partner). Yeah I've missed some major stuff but eh... who can remember it all.

Personally I reckon I'm only still alive as a major science experiment (and I keep the local Dr's and Chemist's employed not to mention entertained).

In short... when I get sick I go yeah, yeah ... next ... and I mean it. What's the point of dwelling. Chronic illness either puts you in a box or you ignore it and get on with life as best you can.

So now you can pick yourself off the floor. Hopefully stop laughing and chat away.

I really did mean it when I said I'm bored with it all. Today is a good T.T.C day. That's the only one of the above that I'm not dealing well with. It's probably because it's the only one I can't have any control over. Yes I'm a bit of a control freak.

Hubby and I got up, went to Ma's place to feed the cat and ourselves, drove to the airport, parked the car and went and got on the plane to Townsville.

We arrived up there and ma met us and then we took my Hubby past the place where we used to live, then we took him to all my old haunts on the way to the rock pool so he could say he's swum at Townsville.

My Grandparents had no clue we were coming and it was a great surprise for the both of them. They were seated with their backs to the door when we arrived so it was easy to sneak an arm around each with a hello and kiss on the cheeks.

They were very happy we could be there and we were able to have a number of family photo's taken. Only two grandchildren missing from the entire family today.

The flight home ran into a storm so it was a bit bumpy...got to feel slightly sorry for Hubby's arm, apparently I gripped a little hard.

Any way,absolutely stuffed and needing the sleep I didn't get last night after staying up to finish creating my wedding album (only took 2 1/2 years) and the World Trip album (from June this year) so that we could leave them in Townsville for Ma to bring back when she comes home.

Hope everyone had as wonderful a day as we managed.

Sorry for the silence.


My shoulder is looking very good according the the specialist.. the MRI showed no tears in the tendons however there was a fair bit of swelling so thankfully the cortisone seems to have worked so no surgery in my immediate future but unfortunately he thinks a minimum of 3 more months of physio. Yipee

Throat specialist is less enthusiastic...I'm now getting secondary issues because my vocal cords aren't working which will take a while to fix but eh. Waiting till after New Years to worry about that.

Mum has gone away for a few weeks so I'm house and cat sitting. She has my cousins cat staying with her. It's meant I'm a even busier than I normally am but he's such a lovely cat.

Can anyone believe it's Christmas Eve? Where did this year go?

Anyway, ....Hope you and yours have a lovely time tomorrow and that there's the Christmas present that everyone wanted.

Ok to catch up.....past two months the horrid week has been like over a week or more late. Friday last week I got blood test to see if anything was worth reporting...it wasn't.

Left shoulder is stuffed...Specialist referred me for an MRI (which I had Monday) and tomorrow I get an Ultra Sound guided injection. The MRI wasn't supposed to hurt but guess what....they were wrong. The injections killed and it's still sore.

Add to that....My Fertility Specialist appt went well. He suggested I see a Geneticist. Considering Christmas is close I was thinking New Year earliest. I got a surprise call last Monday night. Appt was Wednesday. Now my Left elbow is sore from the blood test he wanted on top of the one from the Friday. Poor Arm. And I have to try to see a Kidney specialist ASAP.

Wednesday hubby had a surprise day off so off for bloods and other work for the Geneticist and Fertility Specialist. Yipee.

I got a specialist appt for my throat (voice is still missing after 6 weeks) on the 21st plus return to the Orthopaedic Surgeon for the shoulder plus another blood test for the Fertility Specialist.

AND I got a letter from RBH to see their Gynecologists on Jan 12. Somewhere I've got to see the Fertility Specialist again in January. There's probably going to be a kidney specialist in Jan and I've got to try to find a new job because I can't stand my current place of employ any more.

Just for fun, (and to fit in with all these Dr appts etc) I've just booked for my hubby and I to fly to Townsville for 6 hours on Christmas Day so we can see my family. And tomorrow we have a house inspection.

ARRRRRRR

Any one want to swap lives for a mo?