Omi's Place to be Omi

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So I'm home. And I'm very happy to be home, since home is wonderful. And I'm loving having all this free time all of a sudden. Over the last few days I have been spending this free time playing Kingdom Hearts Re: Coded, since I had never played it before even though I owned it.

I have never gotten to play either Birth By Sleep or Dream Drop Distance, mostly due to not owning a PSP and thus letting myself fall behind. I've been out of date on Kingdom Hearts-related things for ages, so I've been avoiding fanstuff for fear of spoilers. This almost made me forget the degree to which I freaking love those games.

I've un-forgotten. I finished Re: Coded today. And now my brain is packed to bursting with Kingdom Hearts and I can't do anything about it. I almost want to play 358/2 again but I don't know if that would be a very constructive use of my time. Not to mention my brain is full of Sora and Riku thoughts and 358/2 is not conducive to that. But dammit, Kingdom Hearts was almost literally all I thought about in high school, and I don't know if I want to be that one-track again (however fun it was.)

I want to play more Kingdom Hearts now. Hope everyone's well.

Omittchi

MWAHAHA MY PAPER IS FINISHED!!

I'll post something more coherent later. I have internet to catch up on.

Ok, one paper down, one to go. The library didn't have all the books I would have liked--I only got about half the ones on my list--but that's much better than nothing. That means that I can start today. I'll go back tomorrow or Tuesday to go look for more. Tuesday would be easiest, since I'll be on campus that day anyway. It'll depend on how quickly I can get through the four or five I've got.

I can do this. I can totally do this. A little more than one week to go.

Hope everyone's well.

Omittchi

Ok. Got all the reading done for my 10-page paper, so I can start writing that tonight. The problem is that I still don't want to. Also, it's already like 10:30 or something over here, so I don't plan on staying up too late and getting too much done today. I'm definitely definitely definitely going to start, though.

Tomorrow I'm getting all the books for the other paper (the 25-pager,) and I'll be starting those straight away. No class on Monday, class on Tuesday (and the 10-pager is due), leaving either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning to go see my aunt for Thanksgiving, and I'll be bringing all those books with me. There will be class that Monday, and then the paper is due that Tuesday. And then I can rest.

The hard part of everything is starting.

(I wonder how high a percentage of everything I do on livejournal is complaining/procrastinating with regards to late-night long-term writing assignments?)

Hope everyone's well.

Omittchi

Dammit, I don't want to write my papers!! DDD: Or, more specifically, I don't want to read the books required for writing papers. If I could make it all up as I went, I could totally write these babies in a heartbeat.

My 10-page paper is due on the 20th, and I fully intend to get it done sooner than that. That's Tuesday. Thanksgiving is that Thursday. The following Tuesday, the 27th, my 25-page paper is due. I haven't even started that one yet. It's on pirates, so it should be a little more fun than the one I'm doing now; I'm mostly worried because I know that, although I will have a 25-page paper to turn in that day, come hell or high water, it will most certainly not be of the quality I want it to be. I'm also worried about how long the books are going to take me to get through, and I'm worried that I won't be able to find enough material relevant to my topic. I'm supposed to be comparing two Early Modern Empires with regards to some particular subject. I'm going to be comparing how the English and Spanish Empires dealt with pirates (Spain tried to defend against them, England tried to hire them), and I'm just really really hoping that I'll have enough to work with and write 25 pages.

But right now I'm still working on the 10-page historiography paper for Native American History and I don't want to do itttttt. DDDDDD: And so I am here complaining. Hope everyone's well.

Omittchi

It's starting to worry me that I don't feel motivated to do schoolwork. Usually at least I'll worry about letting people down or something, but I'm not even really feeling that right now. I'm well used to occasional "I don't wanna do this!" moments, but that's usually for just a particular assignment, and right now it's kind of everything.

What's really weird about this is that I'm not unhappy, it's just that school's not doing it for me. I'm used to school being my thing, and it's just...not as fun as I want it to be right now. Classes aren't as much fun as I want them to be, homework isn't particularly interesting, I'm not feeling any kind of compulsion to write my papers (and not in that way like "Oh my god, deadline's coming up!!" but in that way like at the moment I honestly don't care), and it's starting to disturb me. I don't want to fail, so I'm going to keep working (and I'll likely be freaking out in the near future), it's just not fun anymore. Maybe it's the classes I'm taking, and it'll get better next semester. It'll probably get better next semester anyway, just by virtue of me being used to it more and it not being anywhere near the end of the year. I just can't tell whether it's that this school isn't as good as my old one, or if it's just that I had more fun being an undergrad (and getting to take a whole bunch of classes instead of just history.) I don't know if I like either option here, really.

I dunno. Maybe I'm just thinking about this stuff because I don't want to read this book or think about my upcoming deadlines. I kind of wish work was over already so that I could focus properly on school stuff, but at the same time I'm having a lot more fun at work than I am at school, so it'll be sad to see it go. Oh well, I suppose I'll cross that when I get to it.

Hope everybody's well. Huzzah for Obama winning and Prop 30 passing! I was downright spastic yesterday. Nothing like homework to sober a person.

Omittchi

It's a funny thing about nicknames. I was thinking about it today. I know I am Kelly, I answer to Kelly, most people know me as Kelly, I assume people mean me when they say Kelly, I write Kelly on all the official stuff--but I call myself Omi when I'm thinking to myself, and I sign off as Omi when I'm writing to my close family. It's a very weird thing, and I don't know quite what I should think of it.

I dunno. I think my mind is getting all trippy on me because the book I have to read is so unfathomably boring right now. At least I only have another chapter or so, but I had hoped to get through it a little quicker... Hope everyone's well, especially anyone in the New York/New Jersey area.

Omittchi

So here I was, counting down the days until my job was over so that I could focus on my long-term school projects. I figured, today's Friday, store's last day to be open is Saturday, Sunday and maybe Monday to tear the displays down, start doing schoolwork on Tuesday. Paper's not due 'til the 15th, there's time.

Then the boss finished the schedule. No work on Sunday, but then we'll be tearing the store down for the next entire week, finishing next Monday. The 12th. Three days before my paper is due. Not to mention my other assignments. The work itself doesn't bother me (though apparently the boss is absolutely evil to everybody but me, for some reason), but I really don't like how hard it is to do long-term projects while working. I've been functioning on an entirely short-term schedule since I started work back in September, and it's going to be really hard to adjust and get all my shit done.

Although, as my mom says, as much as I hate half-assing, all I have to do is pass. So if worst comes to worst, there's always that. Hope everyone's well.

Omittchi

I dressed as Thor today! There will be pictures once I take them. Hope everyone's having an awesome happy fun time today, and I hope everyone's well.

Omittchi