me, january 2013
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nicefinalbeamBriefly, I just want to say - I don't know. I don't know how often I'll be updating my journal(s). I don't know if I'll ever get my writing mojo back. I don't know what 2013 will mean for me in my personal life or in fandom. I have absolutely no clue whatsoever.
But I do know a few things 100% for certain:
01. I love you! All of you. When the holidays came and I had cards from Poland, Belgium, France, the Philippines, Japan, right here in the USA and more - I can't even begin to tell you the amazement and the joy it brought me. I know such brilliant people around the world.
I would not know most of you if I wasn't an Arashi fan. I wouldn't know most of you if it weren't for LiveJournal. I've spent 10 years on this platform come March, and though I can sense things are changing? I'm not leaving here entirely, because I think there are things that can still be expressed here and I need this space.
02. That being said, I have started using tumblr and twitter actively. Because I'm finding more and more that it's where people - including my LJ friends - are spending time. I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want to be left out. I want to have fun, I want to be silly, and I want to see you all! So, if you're using either of those platforms -- you can find me @nicefinalbeam and sparkleboom.
So!
Arashi-related Dream from my weird brain:
Sho was the servant of a king, though I am not sure who the king actually was because he wasn't anyone famous or from my waking world. But said king gave Sho a very important task. Sho had to make Aiba Masaki fall in love with the king in a week's time, enough in love that he would have sex with him at the end of the seventh day. Sho had to do this by magically taking on the king's appearance (I guess like... polyjuice potion kind of deal?). Once Sho had arranged for Aiba to meet the king for sexytimes, Sho would step out of the picture and let the king have him. Aiba would be fooled, Aiba would sleep with him, yay for the king. If Sho fails, he will be killed.
(I know, extreme much? What the hell.)
So Sho goes about this task, I can see it in weird vignettes. Spending time with Aiba, being his completely goofy and charming self. They almost have sex, but then they don't and Sho follows through with his duty - telling Aiba to meet him the next night. Of course he instantly regrets it, because even though he has no desire to die, he doesn't want to see Aiba tricked into sex. So he attempts to stop things from happening, but by the time he gets to the king's chambers - the king is already in an angry rage. Aiba has refused him. Why? Because he could tell something was wrong.
"What could possibly have been wrong? He loves me!" the king cried.
"The person I love? Loves me in return, and I can tell you do not," Aiba said.
And then he looks at Sho and he knows and...
I think they live happily ever after somehow? I don't know because I woke up so it's entirely possible Sho got killed. OOPS >.>
Currently:
I wake up. I drink a lot of coffee. I have greek yogurt. I drive 1hr and 10 minutes to work (on a good traffic day). I listen to my favorite radio show the whole way there. I enjoy what I do. I like the people I work with, I feel accomplished and productive most days, I have a bit of wiggle room to be on the internet and be young. ♥
I drive home, listening to Arashi and CNBlue. I have too many television shows to watch and not enough time. I write sometimes. I don't clean my room enough.
I get back on the internet. I read all your entries. I smile at your tweets and status updates. I roleplay a little, I read celebrity gossip a lot D: I click on every Arashi link I can find. I battle head colds. I occasionally conquer weariness.
I watch YouTube videos before I fall asleep.
And when I wake up the next day, I don't really regret much at all. The only thing I miss is being a little more sociable with all of you, and rolling my windows down (right now, too cold).
:)
But I do know a few things 100% for certain:
01. I love you! All of you. When the holidays came and I had cards from Poland, Belgium, France, the Philippines, Japan, right here in the USA and more - I can't even begin to tell you the amazement and the joy it brought me. I know such brilliant people around the world.
I would not know most of you if I wasn't an Arashi fan. I wouldn't know most of you if it weren't for LiveJournal. I've spent 10 years on this platform come March, and though I can sense things are changing? I'm not leaving here entirely, because I think there are things that can still be expressed here and I need this space.
02. That being said, I have started using tumblr and twitter actively. Because I'm finding more and more that it's where people - including my LJ friends - are spending time. I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want to be left out. I want to have fun, I want to be silly, and I want to see you all! So, if you're using either of those platforms -- you can find me @nicefinalbeam and sparkleboom.
So!
Arashi-related Dream from my weird brain:
Sho was the servant of a king, though I am not sure who the king actually was because he wasn't anyone famous or from my waking world. But said king gave Sho a very important task. Sho had to make Aiba Masaki fall in love with the king in a week's time, enough in love that he would have sex with him at the end of the seventh day. Sho had to do this by magically taking on the king's appearance (I guess like... polyjuice potion kind of deal?). Once Sho had arranged for Aiba to meet the king for sexytimes, Sho would step out of the picture and let the king have him. Aiba would be fooled, Aiba would sleep with him, yay for the king. If Sho fails, he will be killed.
(I know, extreme much? What the hell.)
So Sho goes about this task, I can see it in weird vignettes. Spending time with Aiba, being his completely goofy and charming self. They almost have sex, but then they don't and Sho follows through with his duty - telling Aiba to meet him the next night. Of course he instantly regrets it, because even though he has no desire to die, he doesn't want to see Aiba tricked into sex. So he attempts to stop things from happening, but by the time he gets to the king's chambers - the king is already in an angry rage. Aiba has refused him. Why? Because he could tell something was wrong.
"What could possibly have been wrong? He loves me!" the king cried.
"The person I love? Loves me in return, and I can tell you do not," Aiba said.
And then he looks at Sho and he knows and...
I think they live happily ever after somehow? I don't know because I woke up so it's entirely possible Sho got killed. OOPS >.>
Currently:
I wake up. I drink a lot of coffee. I have greek yogurt. I drive 1hr and 10 minutes to work (on a good traffic day). I listen to my favorite radio show the whole way there. I enjoy what I do. I like the people I work with, I feel accomplished and productive most days, I have a bit of wiggle room to be on the internet and be young. ♥
I drive home, listening to Arashi and CNBlue. I have too many television shows to watch and not enough time. I write sometimes. I don't clean my room enough.
I get back on the internet. I read all your entries. I smile at your tweets and status updates. I roleplay a little, I read celebrity gossip a lot D: I click on every Arashi link I can find. I battle head colds. I occasionally conquer weariness.
I watch YouTube videos before I fall asleep.
And when I wake up the next day, I don't really regret much at all. The only thing I miss is being a little more sociable with all of you, and rolling my windows down (right now, too cold).
:)
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Date: 2013-01-27 09:20 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2013-01-28 02:44 am (UTC)Did my package arrive safely? It might have taken awhile.
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Date: 2013-01-28 03:13 am (UTC)OH MY GOSH. Thank you SO MUCH for reminding me of this! Every time I think I want to tell you about it - as I have thought about on LJ and Facebook too, I forget or don't have the items in front of me and I think "I'll tell her later, maybe I should mention cards first" and... bah. It's been way more of a mess than it should be because WOW. W.O.W. I never expected to receive something like what you sent and I was in pure shock when I opened it. IT WAS LIKE THE NEVERENDING ENVELOPE OF GOODIES. IT WAS LIKE MARY POPPINS' BAG!
I love, love, love doujin. I'm such a geek for fanart. STICKERS. THERE WERE STICKERS!! Pictures, magazines, adorable cards. It's like all the beautiful things of the world were just plopped into my lap, and even though you mentioned you were sending me things - YOU HAD A PICTURE UP AND ALL - I couldn't even fathom it until it was here. My younger sister watched me unpack it all and we just giggled for days.
I can't express how much it means to me. Really. And I've been trying to think of what I could send in return and I keep going, "Well a letter sure, but what American things would she even want? WE HAVE NOTHING COOL HERE OMG D:"
♥ ♥ ♥ THANK YOU.
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Date: 2013-01-29 03:22 am (UTC)Whoo, I'm glad it arrived safely! I have more doujin I might have to send along at some point. I'm having a recent fandom obsession with 2005-era Jun, and I went a bit crazy in Ikebukuro last time. EXTENSIONS! EXTENSSSSIONS. PAINTED FINGERNAILS!
DON'T YOU SEND ANYTHING REALLY. I just wants to make you happy! Letters are nice if you have the time, but don't stress yourself out, dokies? <3
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Date: 2013-02-01 02:14 am (UTC)OOO. I will never tire of Doujin, seriously. :D LOL aw Jun ♥
Letters are perfectly do-able! :)b
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Date: 2013-02-01 03:58 am (UTC)I can deal with that. :)
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Date: 2013-02-02 03:07 am (UTC)*throws the hot potato*
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Date: 2013-01-31 04:30 am (UTC)I'm glad you enjoy what you do :) It makes such a huge difference. I have a similar commute but... don't enjoy what I do. So it makes the time in the car painful =/ My day to day sounds so similar to yours, I just need to work on upgrading to feeling accomplished xD
Random proposition: If you're ever interested in another roleplay partner I haven't played in ages and love to. I make no promises about the quality of my skills though xD
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Date: 2013-02-01 02:13 am (UTC)Agh, I can't imagine my current commute with a bad job. It would be painful. I feel for you. <3
Okay! I have one person I've played with for years, whereas other people kind of tend to filter in and out again because my time goes elsewhere. So I don't want to be misleading and promise I'll be super devoted, but I like to play so it could be fun to try!
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Date: 2013-02-01 04:09 am (UTC)As for RP, don't worry I wasn't expecting anything super devoted :)
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Date: 2013-02-02 03:15 am (UTC)What pairings do you like to write? Mostly Ohmiya?
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Date: 2013-02-02 04:04 am (UTC)I mostly write Ohmiya and Matsuba, and I've also done Sakuraba in the past. I'll PM you contact info if you ever want to hit me up - for anything, not just RP :)
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Date: 2013-01-27 09:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-01-27 10:03 pm (UTC)I'm glad you like to see my posts! Hi there~ ♥
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Date: 2013-01-27 09:50 pm (UTC)I refrained but hello :)
I am wiseau-films on Tumblr. I just reblog stuff though, not really there to interact. But I love having pretty stuff to reblog!!!
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Date: 2013-01-27 10:00 pm (UTC)I remember you and I discussed the rpattzkstew scandal and how it was pretty hilarious to follow :D
Yay! I will check your tumblr out. I'm still trying to figure out how I want to approach it because of the interaction thing. I want to say things to people! Apparently you can add 'disqus' for comments, but I've not seen any tumblrs that do it. All I see is people re-blogging and adding comments through reblogs, but then you end up with the same post on your tumblr a bunch of times and that seems unorganized to me D:
I have to study more to find out how to bend it to my whims >:D but so far I've been able to post pretty Arashi things and that brings me satisfaction. ♥
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Date: 2013-01-27 09:58 pm (UTC)Added you on Tumblr. I assume you can guess which username is mine. XD
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Date: 2013-01-27 10:05 pm (UTC)But that aside, I like where I am right now. There's a peace in it, and after having experienced plenty of movie-esque drama in my life, I'm perfectly happy with the quiet. ♥
Yay! I will follow you in return~
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Date: 2013-01-27 11:39 pm (UTC)I definitely miss posting a lot more here in LJ. And now that I also try to keep separate blogs in Japanese and Spanish (to help in my studies), I hardly have the desire to think of something interesting to write about in LJ. But I will do my best !
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Date: 2013-01-28 02:54 am (UTC)Oh gosh, I can only imagine. That is quite a bit of work. I think that's part of what's been keeping me away as well. During the week I'm working, and when I get home I lose a lot of motivation and brain power. But hey! I posted today, and that's a step, right? And you commented!
Looks like we're doing good to me ;D
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Date: 2013-01-28 03:01 am (UTC)I have followed you in return :D I'm still trying to figure out how I want to utilize tumblr, but hey! I can post in a "chat" form, so there we go! No excuse not to talk to people sometimes~
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Date: 2013-01-28 05:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-01-28 04:27 pm (UTC)I worry about not appreciating the creative content of my friends XD
That being said, thank you! ♥ And if you change your username, just come back here and let me know who you are :D
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Date: 2013-01-29 05:55 am (UTC)I feel much the same! Sometimes it feels like on lj I am posting into a void, nowadays, but I still want to stay here and post here and have friends here and have this be my home base. I like tumblr well enough (well, the site itself is a mess but that's different), but I'm so spoiler-phobic and fandom-downer-avoiding that it's hard for me to follow people, even my closest friends. And I don't use twitter at all, and I follow dw but don't post there--ANYWAY I want to stay on lj and I want to post more and I want to feel like I'm not posting into a void and I want to read my friends' posts here, too!
Your life is sounding very nice, which makes me happy for you. ♥
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Date: 2013-02-01 01:53 am (UTC)I want you to know, I do read posts here. I am paying attention to any and all updates! I've just been terrible at commenting for a long time now. I will try and improve. ♥
Thanks! :D
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Date: 2013-01-29 05:45 pm (UTC)hope they're alright.
1hr+ drive to work doesn't sound like fun. but your job sounds wonderful. :)
i haven't been in arashi-mode for awhile, though i love browsing the comms and journals, reading and drooling over the boys; i haven't been writing arashi for months and i don't know what it could be. i love LJ (ipost stupid stuff a lot) but i guess there was a migration of blogging - which is great for the fandom. i haven't felt 'left out' but i understand what you're saying as well. i've had twitter/tumblr just didn't use it because (i'm old and shy and) it takes me way too long to understand new platforms. and i still feel weird following ppl since i don't really reblog, comment, retweet...
but I've followed you on tumblr :) took a courageous step. :)
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Date: 2013-02-01 02:05 am (UTC)I'm glad you're following me on tumblr! :D Hooray \o/ I think, ultimately, you have to do what feels right to you. *hug*
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Date: 2013-01-30 10:13 pm (UTC)Just rebloging stuffs, not really posting anything, tumblr has its own magical moments that I like to see ^^ (for example plenty of good Arashi merchandise for the eyes n the soul too hehehehe
Sometimes I do regret, thinking could be like this, should do it like this, had to put more into it...............but, in the end of the day, I always will think, that is all from me, myself. Everyone can say or advice or telling us things, still it's me who take the decision. Bad or good. Wrong or right. Stressful n stressful. Regret. No progress. Stuck. Failure.
It's all from me n it's all of me.
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Date: 2013-02-01 02:08 am (UTC)Definitely agree with you! It's all about who you are. ♥ And lol tumblr has been fun so far, so I'm happy I decided to put some time and effort in over there. :D