emo

go die.

i cant go to the dance.
never mind. all hopes are gone.
so maybe ill be back on aim. cause theres no point in being good if i cant get what i want.
anyone want a ticket. seeing as i bought them. for no reason.
its not even like shes mean. its just she has gay reasons for not letting me do stuff. like. i cant do stuff cause i am supposedly only nice when i want something SO therefore i CANNOT go. Holy shit. now im going to be miserable oh well...
FUCK.
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emo

good bye cruel world im leaving you today, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

if i cant use the computer then i decided to write in a real journal and to type it whenever i can, liek when my moms not home etc. the next few entrys will probably be the longest ill ever write,if you have the time, i suggest you read the next three paragraphs. they mean a lot.

|| January 9th || i did it again. its not like i have a bad life, its not that i want to die either. within the last week i have done the following wrong [+] cut myself [+] drank twice [+] was mean [+] went on the comp. and am not allowed to. [+] got mad for no reason.

everyones just got this craving for drama. we'll say it we dont want it, and that we hate it, but really were the ones who create it ourselves. why do we do what we do? take drugs, drink, run away, cut ourselves, get in ridiculous fights? i think its because we either 1) want to get away from it all or 2) we want attention.

for me i cant seem to figure out why i do it. seeing as my life isnt as bad as other peoples, is it because i want attention? if it is,i am a selfish whore, because i have tons of people who care about me. there must be a '3)' out there somewhere. i hope to find it someday. if i can't, i sure hope someone else can.....


|| January 10th || my mom said that i cant go to the dance --> i think she'll change her mind though i just gotta listen to everything she asks. [ i didnt listen to her when she said get off the computer last night thats why she said i cant go ]


|| January 11th || i felt like shit so i didnt go to school. thats it. now im in a fucking bad mood cause people are fucking stupid. whatever

ill write when i get the chance. comment please. \\   <-- also written in  my livejournal. __losing_myself
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if this is love; its fucking killing me

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE LYRICS

"The Ghost Of You"

i never said i'd lie and wait forever
if i died we'd be together
i cant always just forget her
but she could try

at the end of the world
or the last thing i see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever ever...
ever...

get the feeling that you're never
all alone and i remember now
at the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
she dies

at the end of the world
or the last thing i see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
for all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

if i fall
if i fall (down)

at the end of the world
or the last thing i see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
never coming home
never coming home
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
for all the ghosts that are never gonna...


- My Chemical Romance
"The Ghost of You"



&




New American Classic Lyrics
by Taking Back Sunday

"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember but I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.




you should know by now..
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