muddster, posts by tag: happy - LiveJournal

ok, here it is.
went to a movie tonight with the new guy (ok, this is too hard to do, his names chris, done). The worst movie I've seen in about 6 years, not as worst as alien 4 but really close. the name of King or some nonsense, can't remember.
Anyways, we go back to his place after and had a great time. No cencered bits, but a lot of fooling around, caressing, petting and making out. Really fun. He's a bit sadistic. Loves that I'm ticklish.
I'm really glad he found me and that I replied. that I took a chance and met with him.
I don't know how far this will go but fuck, I don't care.
I'll hopefully see him tomorrow and we can continue.
I'm happy for the first time in quite awhile.

So I've been on this personal journeyy thing lately. I am ttrying to transform my understanding of my life and how I interact within it to myy environment, people...
Anyways, part of this is experiencing certain substances for the first time as I have shyed away from them my whole life.
Last night I had mushrooms for the first time and I really loved it. I had them with a friend that I trust and we just hung out, went for a walk, visited other friends so they could entertain and laugh at us. The extreme warm and happy feelings a had during the night were amazing and made me really appreciate what I have. at 3:00 in tthe morning I was lying on tthe floor listening to music and valuing my life. I may gripe and complain about my single situation but over all I am very lucky and happy to be where I am in my life. I am open and out, I have amazing friends, a great apartment, I live in a fabulous city, I'm canadian with a good education system, health care, welfare and crown corporations.
I couldn't imagine living somewhere else, I did for 2 years and at the end I had to come back beccause here is reality, other places just pale in comparison.