well this past weekend i was in nj for bamboozle, basically 3 days of bands playing and at night just running around the hotel causing mayhem haha. besides that i havent been up to much at all. still single working at the same place not liking it. lots of sleeping and shows. not much going on really or anything to update so thats why i dont do it. if any of you are interested in anymore of my life feel free to im me whenever. well till next time......
hi daddy!!!! haha, hey whats up people. its been another long time since ive updated but i bet your all used to that now. i havent really been up to much lately just work and sleeping and hanging out on weekend. last weekend we went upstate and it wasnt bad. saw some snow and one night the thermostat actually said 4 degrees. way too cold for us to be outside around a fire. some of us had real good conversation about time travel and ghost's, quite interesting. but overal i guess iv been alright i havent been sad or happy so i cant complain ya know. i havent seen a certain friend in a while and i get to see them and i will be quite happy cause i luv being around this person. well tomorrow im going to nj to see taking back sunday yay haha ill do my best to act like a 15 year old little girl when they play. over the next couple months ill be going to nj several times to see some good shows like midtown/senses fail, glassjaw/thursday, my chemical romance/head automatic and then in may skate and surf cant wait. and then whatever long island shows i might go too also. so yea i need something or someone to entertain me and add excitement to my life, anytakers out there? i swear im a nice fellow haha......
well its been about a month since i have updated nothing much has changed since then. some crap happened in my life that i hate but i just basically tried to ignore it but it made me be dumb and try to tell someone my feelings just to make sure they know exactly how i feel for them. i need motivation so i can do the things i want with my life. maybe i should just give in an become an alcohalic or however its spelt. if anyone who reads this wants to help me or give me advice im all ears. iv been sick alot lately also which fucking blows cause im so used to not being sick at all and here i am being sick like 2 of the last 3 weeks or more. shoot me now pleaseeeeee
WE ARE DYING SLOWLY EACH DAY, ARE YOU MAKING MOST OF THE DAYS YOU HAVE LEFT OR ARE YOU COUNTING DOWN THE HOURS, MINUTES, SECONDS.........................TIMES UP!!!!!!!!! BAM YOUR DEAD. KNOW MATTER WHAT YOU THINK YOUR NOT INVINCIBLE, EVEN THE MONA LISA IS FADING. LIVE EVERY HOUR LIKE THE LAST....
well this wont be a long entry. i just feel as if im one of or the biggiest sucker of all time. just a pretty boring and disapointed weekend. so if anyone feels like getting treated like gold and walking all over im your person for the job. so just contact me and this could be arranged at your leisure. adios
"Just slap me in the face dont stab me in the back."
hmmm so what have i been up to lately. i feel like i have a need to update this since all of you people really want to know whats up with me. haha yea right. well what have i been up to since last time i posted. well let me see i am 22 now, yea im getting old as fuck. i went upstate the 2nd weekend up july. it wasnt that bad. basically hung out, shot bb guns, hung out around the fire. it was somewhat relaxing but also a little blah cause someone was there but thats life. i dont know whats up with my life. i found out my complaining bothers someone so i will stop do it to that person. i think im just going to tell everyone im fine when they ask how i am just to make life easier and stuff. nothing much has changed with me and i dout it ever will but eh. work we have been working on this design contest for something that will be at suny farmingdale. its like a 9/11 memorial site and a site for long island as we came together over what happened i dunno. its tuff working on this cause like 6 or more people are giving ideas and its tuff to narrow it down but its something different. i hope it comes out ok. oh yea
"i find myself sleeping just to pass the time. i find myself working just to make sure im still alive."
well its been a real long time since iv updated this thing. i dont even remember what my last entry was about but it doesnt matter. not much has changed in my life. still working full time, still hanging out in my room alone, still no girls wanting me haha. i dont even know to express anymore on how i have been feeling and stuff. i wish i didnt have feelings for certain people and i wish i had some more people in my life who understand me. eh wishing is overrated just like me. my wish for something that you will never have you know. i should complain so much about my life since its not all that bad i just want things to change but they never will....
ill always be an after thought, all always be the ps on the end's of peoples messages. ill always come last, always.......
tomorrow is going to be thursday already yay. iv been doing ok lately i just need to find stuff to do after work during the week and i think i will be fine. iv been doing ok about whats happened with my life. i think i made the right choice so yea. hopefully this is a pretty good weekend even thought as of right now im prabobly not going out friday and who knows what i will be doing the rest of the weekend. the weeks are just flying by now it just seems like a couple weeks ago was christmas or something. im glad spring is finally getting here so i can go back to wearing shorts again. i just hope we dont have a really hot summer blah.
it seems like everyone thinks im going crazy or something the last couple days. so i told 2 people i can no longer be friends with them. i dont really see a huge deal in that. i just had to do it no two ways around it. im not going to go into why i cant be friends with these people but maybe one day i will. i told my friends that they could still hang out with these people and i would not care at all. i dont have like a passion to hate those people but its just like i cant be friends with them anymore. like i wish the best to them and everything in the future. and these people can say whatever they want cause i wont care, they can call me a bad person/friend or whatever cause it wont bother me cause i know i WAS a good person to them. i just think things have gotten to the point of being comical. whatever adios
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