Jennifer

I know you've all been anxiously awaiting my updates; so here goes! Expecting baby #2 in September! My awesomely fantastic amazing son Alexander was born February 16th 2011 <3

I'm six weeks pregnant. :) We're over the moon! <3 Due Feb 2nd 2011

Sooooo....

Josh and I got married on November 28th. n_n

My mom and the kids flew in on Nov. 14th, we celebrated Keanu's 6th bday the next day... lots of prep and New Zealand sight-seeing for them.... then Josh and I got married!! Kai was the ring bearer and Keanu was my flower boy and my mom walked me down the aisle. Kai was so cute and polite with the rings and Keanu sang me Ocarina songs and twirled around as he dropped flowers (He sang me Zelda's lullaby, they're SUPER into Zelda now)

They left back for the states a few days ago and man does the house seem lonely. I got really used to having Josh around the house too, he was off for 3 weeks and it went by SO FAST.

Wedding party was SUCH a blast. We got married in his parents backyard and then had a big BBQ with LOOOOTS of alcohol lol (I didn't get drunk though! I wanted every single memory cemented in!) and it was soooo fun and relaxed.

Married life is pretty awsm.

Mrs. Jennifer Kerr :D

I bought my wedding dress and veil last night. O M G.

I have to post this somewhere because it's just crazy drama and people keep asking about it so yeah.. Here we gooooo.

I went to see my sister this weekend, with my mom, Kai and Keanu... We wanted to see her and let the boys and my nephew Nathaniel play together, and I wanted to see my dad.. EVERYTHING was gravy, me and my dad went to the grocery store to pick some stuff up for the kids and stuff.. and while we're there, my sister calls my cell phone and asks if it's okay if my dad's ho Rhonda shows up and I'm like "ummm o_o I don't know, sure.".. I could tell she wanted me to say 'No' but I didn't want to be a bitch. This was my first mistake. I'm a bitch, I should just be a bitch and not pretend to be nice. When I'm nice, people walk over me. SO. My fucking bad lol.

Turns out, Kelly didn't really have an option because Rhonda was already 3 minutes away and was like, "OH YA we're bringing our new dog too". >_> and yes, it did shit on the carpet.

So Rhonda and my dad are fighting on and off and it's like.. Jesus. x_x My dad kept asking her to leave and she would keep telling my mom how everyone loved her (Rhonda) and how Nathaniel just loved her and kept telling Nathaniel that he should come walk the dog with her. My sister kept saying, "It's raining and he's sick, no." and she just fucking KEPT ON PRESSING IT until my mom was like, "Rhonda. He's sick, he's not going outside in the rain."

Nathaniel HATES Rhonda, she smothers him. He wanted to hang out with Kai and play Bejeweled and watch Handy Manny on my mom's laptop and Rhonda was just going nuts trying to enforce how much everyone loved her and keep the attention on herself. So I was sick of this and took the opportunity to take Keanu into the bedroom and put him down for a nap. I could hear them fighting more off and on while we were in there and was glad to escape for a bit..

UNTIL!!!

Rhonda decides to come into the bedroom and turn on the light right as Keanu is falling asleep and insists he should get up. After he jumps up and goes "IT'S MORNING TIME TO WAKE UP NOW" she's like "OH LOL SRY" and closes the door. I just shake my head and sigh and let Keanu out and just sat there for a minute, clearly pissed off. Rhonda acts all surprised when Keanu comes into the livingroom like "OH LOOK WHO'S UP HI" and shit and Kelly comes into the bedroom and we're talking and it eventually turns into her showing me the Tankini top she bought for going to the beach in June and was asking if it looked okay and blahblah sister stuff and she has me try on this cute Bustier and we're like "lol this is fun" and have my mom come in to take a picture of us..

So after we call my mom in, Rhonda decides she has to be a part of the fucking show and not only invites herself in, but her 10 year old daughter, too. So my mom is like "Oh you better not do stuff like this anytime soon haha" and I'm pretty sure it was the fact that MY mom was being the responsible parent instead of RHONDA, she was suddenly like.. "Come on Angel (her daughter), lets go into the living room."

So Rhonda goes into the living room and starts literally CRYING to my dad saying we're taking pornographic pictures and we're being immoral and unGodlike and shit.. and my dad gets PISSED off and is like, "Where the fuck do you come off? Don't tell me about MY daughters, I TRUST my daughters. If you don't like it, then fucking leave." and she's arguing with my dad and I was like, "Oh fucking lawd." and got the boys into the room with me and I can hear them all arguing out there and so apparently.. Rhonda actually says this to my mom,

Rhonda: "Timmy go talk to Jenny, I'll talk to Kelly."
My mom: "Tim better not go in there and try to scold her, Jennifer won't stand for that. She's not going to let anyone talk down to her like that."
Rhonda: "Well Timmy and I just need to go talk to OUR daughters about this. I just feel so bad because I was just so upset by what they were doing."

and goes to get up and my mom was like,

"Hold the fuck up, sit down. Those aren't YOUR daughters and you won't be saying SHIT to my daughters. You need to back up and step off, you're out of line. They weren't doing anything wrong, you just want to turn this into yet ANOTHER little drama party, like you've done ALL DAY LONG. How many times have I had to take my grandsons out of the room because of YOUR mouth? How the HELL do you come into someone's house and argue with THEIR father all day long?"

and Rhonda was like, "Oh no you just need to shut up and sit down because I'm more their mother than you are so you just need to shut up."

and my mom was like, "FUCK you Rhonda. Everyone in this house is somehow blood related except for YOU, you need to get the fuck out and take your God damn drama with you. NOBODY wants you here, how many times do you need to be asked to leave? Jennifer is MY daughter, and Kelly is HER BLOOD SISTER, don't talk to me about being anyone's mother, I was LEGALLY Kelly's step-mother for 10 fucking years. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?"

Now, my mom is 5'1 and this bitch is this 6"+ tall Amazon ORANGE fried blonde bitch. But do you think my mom is going to stand down when someone is fucking with her kids? HAHA No.

So I'm in the bedroom talking to my dad, with the kids with me.. and he's telling me I don't need to explain myself because he trusts me and Kelly and how out of line Rhonda is and how this wasn't going to be happening again and stuff.. My dad isn't stupid, he knows me and Kelly. I was really glad that he stopped me from explaining myself, because he was right. I didn't fucking need to explain myself. I'm a grown woman and so is my sister.

So I stop him and said I needed to get out in the living room because I could hear my mom yelling and he was like "no wait, wait" and I fucking bugged up like, "NO. I am going into the fucking living room, my mom is involved and if she touches my mom, I'll kill her."

and he was like "Okay, let's get out there" and he has to rush past me to get between my mom and Rhonda. My mom tells me and Kelly to go into the bedroom with the kids because, by now, my sister is crying because Rhonda has fucked up fucking EVERYTHING so far.. My sister is in there, hugging Rhonda's poor daughter, who is like MORTIFIED by her mom..

So I open the door and my sister is like, "no just stay in here.." and I was like, "No, I'm going to protect my mom."

So I got out there and was standing in the hallway with them.. and it was like

Me -- My mom -- My Dad -- Rhonda

and Rhonda is trying to grab at my mom and my dad like, FLIPPED out like

"DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH MELODY, THAT'S MY DAUGHTER'S MOTHER. FUCK YOU RHONDA, YOU FUCKED UP EVERYTHING LIKE USUAL. GET THE FUCK OUT TO THE CAR, NOW. DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH HER, THAT WAS MY *WIFE*."

Which PISSED Rhonda off, because Rhonda has had to live in my mom's shadow for as long as she's known my dad, which was her own fucking bad for sticking around when she knew my dad was still head over heels in love with my mom. It's just the way it is, everyone knows it. I understand if she's jealous, but she had turned the whole day, which was supposed to be our FAMILY day, into the fucking Rhonda Drama show.

So my dad finally got Rhonda to fucking leave, and then my mom and dad argued for a minute or so over my dad bringing this kind of drama to my sister's house, and how my sister doesn't need that shit in her life. They ended up in agreement and my mom was talking to my dad and they hugged and shit and he left and we just sat there in fucking AWE. The kids finally got to go back to playing and stuff and my mom and my sister's mom were like, PISSED.

My mom and Kelly's mom are really close and Patti is like, FURIOUS over Rhonda pulling shit again. I mean, when Patti showed up, my mom was like "This is Auntie's other mom! This is Grandma Patti" it's just the way it is. Rhonda just needs to step the fuck off and go back to snorting coke fucking ELSEWHERE because nobody wants or needs her bitch ass around. Kelly was upset because this was supposed to be our special day, we haven't seen eachother IRL in like, 2 years. She's cursed with being too nice, she doesn't know how to ask Rhonda to fuck off.. she's actually handed her a handful of anti-anxiety pills and told her, "Something is wrong with you, just take these- you need them more than I do. Just PLEASE leave my home." it's so fucked up.

Me and my mom live pretty boring lives over here so it was like.. O_O drama!!!!!!!! My mom was so mad, but you could tell how it made Kelly feel good to have my mom protecting her like that. Rhonda kept trying to get back to Kelly all "YOU NEED TO COME TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW" and my mom was like, "NO fuck that, you've done enough. Leave Kelly alone and LEAVE." it was SO crazy. @_@

Yes, I realize that I haven't USED Lj in a long time, but...

WHO THE FUCK ARE ALL OF YOU PEOPLE ON MY FRIENDS LIST? o_o

I think it was Bender who brought up Lucid Dreams to me. Bender or someone.. *Scratches head* Either way.. I had one last night. It was kind of like being trapped in my dream, kinda scary..

I realized I was dreaming and it was like, "what the hell?" and in my dream, I broke my glasses (AGAIN) and I was like, "NOOO~" and then I was like,

"Hey.. wait.. no, this isn't real.. I'm must be dreaming.. I AM dreaming. OMGWTF WAKE UP O_O"

..and I couldn't wake up. So I decided to wander around.. and sometimes I remembered I was dreaming and sometimes I didn't and would figure it out again.. Like, I was carrying something and I left this room where the boys were.. and as I was walking in this hallway.. I saw my dad in this room, and it was like a double take.. I looked up, kept walking, stopped, walked backwards back to him and was like "o____o hi" and he was like,

"JENNY! What're you doin here? blahblahblah" and I was talking to him.. and he introduced me to the kids he was with, that were like, his girlfriends kids.. The little girl's name was 'Princess' and I was like "LOLWTF" (his IRL girlfriend's daughters name is 'Angel'.. so.. yeah. Princess, Angel, same stuff.) and anyway, I was like,

"Um.. Okay, I've got to talk to my mom."

So I went back to the room where the boys were, and my mom showed up, and I was like,

"Dude, my dad's here." and she was like,

"Nooo~ Why? ><;" (they don't get along. well, he's like 'zomg @_@<3' and she's like 'go awaaaay') Anyway, so I told her,

"nono it's okay because I'm dreaming so he's not REALLY here" and she was like,

"...what? o_o" and I was like,

"okay I have to go get coffee"

So I went to this scary Starbucks place.. and it was all deserted and freaky looking.. but I was like, "zomg need coffee to wake up" and got my coffee and left and was wandering around.. and I saw Josh chasing Kai, and then Josh just like, walked off, so I went back over to Kai and was like,

"What're you doin' out here? Let's go back to the room." so we did.. and I didn't know I was dreaming at that point because I was too worried about Kai.

I worry about him a lot when I dream. Dreams are so cloudy + hectic, it'd be easy to lose a toddler. Okay anyway, Dinners ready so brb.

K, back.

Before I went to Dinner, I was talking in the chat about dreams and Mark mentioned having a dream where he was laying on his bed and he looked up, and a spider was lowering down on him and he jumped up IRL and took off..

The SAME exact thing happened to me, I saw a spider lowering itself down at me from it's web, and I leapt up, turned on my light and ran to my door. But right before I left the room, I realized I had dreamed it and went back to sleep (kept the light on. u.u;) ..

Sometimes I think when you go to sleep, you go into a kind of "Dream Land" that transcends the ideas + thoughts in your head.. I'll dream about things and then people will tell me about them the next day and it's like, "Uh, deja vu.." And don't even make me MENTION my invisible man-cheater dream, that was SO bizarre.

The other day, Alia and I were sleeping on the phone, like usual, and we both had almost the SAME dream, it was a TRIP. We were both in a game land with game people, and we both had a Sean there, and all SORTS of matching stuff. I don't remember it all now, but man, it was crazy..

I'd like to take some sort of dream-related class.. Whether it be anazlying dreams or studying what causes them + what happens to you when you dream.. :o

Okay. I talked to Josh and my mom this morning and found out exactly what happened:

It was around 11pm. I was asleep in my room.. Josh was in his room, mom was downstairs.. They suddenly hear me YELLING and SCREAMING my head off, Mom is like, "Wtf?" and Josh comes running in and opens my door and I'm in bed, hollaring, make-up smeared all over my face,

Jen: "I SEE YOU, YOU CHEATER. YOU DON'T FOOL ME, I SEE YOU AND YOU ARE A CHEATER!"

Josh: "Jenny, what's wrong with you? O_O"

Jen: "YOU'RE A CHEATER"

Josh: "I am?"

Jen: "NO"

Josh: "What's wrong?"

Jen: "YOU'RE GOING TO THINK I'M CRAZY, I'M NOT CRAZY"

Josh: "Tell me"

Jen: "YOU KNOW WHEN YOU TAKE THE MEDICINE AND YOU SEE THE INVISIBLE PEOPLE? WELL I SAW HIM. THERE WAS AN INVISIBLE MAN IN MY ROOM, I SAW HIM JUST NOW. I'M NOT CRAZY, I SAW HIM, I SAW HIS HAND, HE OPENED MY DOOR!"

Josh: "..What? XD I opened your door."

Jen "I'M NOT CRAZY, THE INVISIBLE HAND OPENED MY DOOR, HE WAS JUST IN MY ROOM, I SAW HIM, HE DIDN'T FOOL ME AND HE'S A CHEATER BECAUSE HE'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE INVISIBLE"

Josh: "Oookay."

Jen: *Suddenly moves across bed toward nightstand, is EXTREMELY confused and still half asleep, turns on lamp* "AND I'M SLEEPING WITH THE LIGHT ON"

Josh: "Okay Jenny."

Jen: *LAYS BACK DOWN, DEAD ASLEEP*

Josh: *Walks out, meets Mom in the hall*

Mom: "What was wrong with her?"

Josh: "Well. She caught the cheater. Ask her about it."

Mom: *Goes into Jen's room, touches Jen's cheek* "Why is Josh a cheater, baby?"

Jen: "MRRF" *is pissed off and sleeping*

Mom: k. :[ *leaves Jen to sleep*

Jen: *Sleeps til 3am, has been up since* >.>;

Okay. So. They filled me in a lot, what *I* remember is I was laying in bed, and I saw my door open, and this invisible hand was opening it, and I was pissed because the hand + the person it belonged to wasn't supposed to be invisible and it was cheating.. and then I was talking to Josh.. I don't really remember my dream, it's like, something really familiar that you can't remember. I remember SOMETHING about an invisible man being in my room, but I don't remember any details.. and I specifically remember yelling the line, "YOU DON'T FOOL ME" even though I don't really remember much about the yelling. I just remember feeling really confused but sure that everything had happened. Makes you wonder what really goes on when you're dreaming.. I've often thought about the mysteries surrounding dreaming, sometimes I think it's like visiting another plane of existence.. and maybe other people visit you too.. For some reason, I don't think the "Invisible man" was just some random dream I had. I dunno. It just seems REALLY familiar. *scratches head* Maybe I am crazy. n_u

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