April 4th, 2007On this day in different years

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im tired of these lame ass rocker kids on myspace who think just cuz they listen to Pharrell and Kelis that they are rockstars. lame ass.
anyways sorry i aint been up. I've been workin and well playin my new video game[pathetic, i know]. My buddy Matt let me borrow it for my birthday..which by the way was ok. i had some good ass crab legs at Joe's Crab Shack:) I get my first paycheck on FRIDAY! I don't go to school FRIDAY or MONDAY! flippin awesome! 
i got my MRI finally. it sucked. they stuck freakin needles into both of my shoulders...to inject ink in there. that was not cool..and it took 4 hours to get an MRI on both. it was an awkward experience. i hated my nurse. she was this loud ass black lady from N.O.[i have nothin from ppl fromt the N.O.] but yeah she wouldnt shut tha fuck up..and she was scarin the shit out of me. she was makin me think they was about to take a big ass chunk of meat of me. "Yeaaa bebe if u can't take it just let me no. and well hold u down" WHAT THA FxCK lady??? lol thats no. thats not cool. thats not normal. 
man im pissed cuz i dotn think i can take computer graphics next year because the school hasnt given me BCIS yet and i need that b4 i take it..wich is fucked up cuz i was really lookin foward to workin with the real photoshop lol.

why do i always have a crush on the weirdest offputtin dudes? i guess its because i dont find myself that attractive...and i dont go after the guys that i really liike because of my dominant fear of bein rejected and humiliated...so i settle for somethin that is way less than what i wanted...causin most of my relationships to fail because i maybe never really wanted to be with that person in the first place. whoa... an epiphany!