I feel soon, I will sink..into you..

For awhile I didn't have the strength to be thin, and yes, I mean the strength to be thin..because that's what it boils down to. But you know what, I came to realize I don't have the strength to be fat, either. Vegan as of now.. Not to be trendy and stupid like every other kabbalah-loving faggot homo out there, but I didn't each much meat or animal products before, kiddies.

So basically..this is just another way to restrict what I eat around my family.

800 today, about. No more though..fast until I go back to school, then 500 per day. The fast is mainly to make up for thanksgiving.

2 yogurts = 200
1 banana (small) = 105
305, thats it for today.

Got the last of my fast food, lol. Fast til Sunday, 4:00

Sluffing school tomorrow..And honestly, it's because I can't stand the thought of being this huge in front of everyone. I feel like that's all anyone can see about me, and the thought is too depressing. Fucked up again, I blame not only myself but melissa. Everytime I go to her house I fail miserably and eat anything in sight. So..as it were, My "diet" begins at midnight tonight. Nothing from the bread group with the exception of rice cakes. Never over 500. Right now, however, i'll enjoy my mcdonalds.

Until 7:30 thanksgiving night, 300 cals worth of liquid allowed each day.

I'm officially starting thursday.. After thanksgiving, and all.

Six o' clock, november the 21st. I'm ready.