reader discretion implored

I feel like an ancient asking for this, but wouldn't it be nice if people were pleasant and considerate towards strangers? It's silly to complain about, because it sounds like I want compensation for being kind to people, but perhaps I'm currently just more emotional than usual and take things to heart when I shouldn't.

The people at the station weren't much better. I do not understand how no one these days lets people get off the train first, but is already rushing to board. No one noticed the wheelchair lady or the guy with the crutches — both of whom I'd held the door for earlier at the station. I got on the train last, being shoved at.

Anyway, I got yelled at by the ticket lady on the train. She was annoyed I didn't put my small but heavy suitcase up on the shelf. The shelf was already full of other people's stuff and I am not allowed to lift heavy things as I am recovering from my surgery. I hadn't left it in anyone's way, it was as close to me as possible, but she was in a bad mood and I suppose she felt she could take it out on me.

Just... this isn't how I was raised. My mum did a good job instilling manners in us and now it seems they are utterly useless. One good thing is that I made some people smile. I would focus on that, but unfortunately during the whole ordeal with the ticket lady I moved wrong and now the surgery wounds are a whole lot more painful that the were previously. It will pass, I know. And I'll get back to making people smile tomorrow at work. I hope each one of you found something to smile over today. <3