bunglebrot

"I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it."

Facebook drama! You know how there are "comment" and "like" buttons on newsfeed items but no "dislike" button? So if I dislike something, I just comment with "/dislikes."

So when I saw

Michael Falcone Thank you to the delegates of the 2009 Massachusetts State Democratic convention for passing a progressive platform with a resolution against slot machines and other forms of expanded gambling here in the Commonwealth. A special thank you to my neighbors in the 2nd Suffolk District delegation who voted overwhelmingly in support of that resolution.

I commented accordingly. I don't like the government disallowing consenting adults from choosing to do things that may be self-harming. He deleted my comment.




is it so bad to voice my disagreement?!?
Between Michael Falcone and You

You: >:O

Michael Falcone: on my page, absolutely.

You: it showed up in news feed. friends make comments. that's how facebook works.


So if I can't speak on "his page," then I'll have to speak on mine. So I updated it to "dislikes [his status message]."

He then commented on my wall, "are you a child?" before defriending me. Am I being petty? Sure. Is he a tool? You betcha.
illyria

FAIL

I am one large fail macro in my own eyes.
they took the leaves

Wrong Icon

This is my grammar/language/communication icon, but they "they took away" really fits how I feel right now.

I just got off the phone with doug. I ended it. I told him that I need to see someone more if I'm seeing him, and that I'm putting forth unreicprocated effort. If I didn't have feelings for him, I wouldn't care. But I do, and so I've been upset and hurting. So I give up... on us.

"Okay.... ? i guess im a little confused"
Me: "what are you confused about?"
"i thought i made things clear the last time we talked about this... that these weeks were gonna be a bit crazy."

I told him I'm sorry, but I just can't keep doing this. It hurts too much. We said our good nights and hung up.

afterwards, he texted, "well that sucked. thanks. have a good night then"

This is a rough time of year for him emotionally (for reasons that aren't mine to share), and I'm aware of that. But I offer to spend time with him, and he ignores my emotional buffet tables. I can only take so much rejection. If he were to call me and just ramble on about everything going on his head, that would make me feel like a part of his life. But, basically, I don't feel like I'm a part of his life at all. I somewhat feel that I have abandoned him during a hard time, but I can't keep wasting my own energy like this, and spinning my wheels.

I hope he decides that he doesn't want to lose me and tries to make a connection with me. But he was rather accepting about this, so I doubt he will. My heart is probably much more broken than his.

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bunglebrot

PSA

I lost my phone. It was found by a kind person, strangely, in Kenmore Square, although I must have lost it on the T, so somebody took it off the train and abandoned it in the station? Idk. However, I have not managed to arrange a pickup from her yet, since I do not have my phone to call her with. Does this qualify as a catch 22?

So, uh, for now, the best way to reach is by e-mail or AIM. You know my domain name--just send to anything at that, or naziwigs or cybrtree too. As for AIM, I'm Gemini6Ice and Gem6Ice at home and Gem6Office while at work.