George Carlin RIP

Seven Words You Can Never Say on Television. Some People Are Stupid. Stuff. People I Can Do Without. George Carlin, who died of heart failure Sunday at 71, leaves behind not only a series of memorable routines, but a legal legacy: His most celebrated monologue, a frantic, informed riff on those infamous seven words, led to a Supreme Court decision on broadcasting offensive language.
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i have cut my drinking down. i shouldnt drink at all. but now its on the weekends. still getting over the breakup. things like weather really bring back memories, when things were so good.i found a shirt i let her use when she would sleep over. tore me up a bit.it was under the bed..next to an old sex towel.lol..threw them both in the washer.i deleted her number from my phone so i cant call and make a bigger fool of myself.sometimes i am ok,sometimes the loneliness keeps me awake and i dont want to go outside. i have had this song playing over and over in my head for weeks...

In My Darkest Hour - Megadeth

In my hour of need
Ha no youre not there
And though I reached out for you
Wouldnt lend a hand.

Through the darkest hour
Grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
No one cares for me.

Did you ever think I get lonely?
Did you ever think that I needed love?
Did you ever think to stop thinking
Youre the only one that Im thinking of?

Youll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too.

Things will be better when Im dead and gone
Dont try to understand, knowing you Im probably wrong.

But oh how I lived my life for you
Still youd turn away
Now as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
All these years I thought I was wrong
Now I know it was you
Raise you head, raise your face your eyes
Tell me who you think you are, who?

I walk, I walk alone
Into the promised land.

Theres a better place for me
But its far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first,
Please God send me on my way.

Time has a way of taking time
Loneliness is not only felt be fools
Alone I call to ease the pain
Yearning to be held by you, alone so alone, Im lost
Consumed by the pain
The pain, the pain, the pain.
Wont you hold me again
You just laughed, ha ha, bitch

My whole life is work built on the past
But the time has come when all things shall pass
This good thing passed away. 
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Started writing again...

The Corpse

Each time I held her in my arms

she became a little colder

I tried to revive her

but still she said nothing

Her eyes became dull and distant

and her breath soured from within

The sounds that came from her throat

were cruel & spiteful

She looks at me

face hardened with contempt and disgust

any and all former affections

were dead and gone

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When people are done with you

That’s it

You are no longer needed

Services no longer required

Don’t get up upset

Just accept it

Just leave

They have

Keep your self respect and dignity

And walk away quickly
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i know there is no excuse..but i blew what little sobriety i had. starting over. girlfriend has called it quits because she wants to help her family. the really sucky thing is...i go through bad withdrawls sometimes. sweating..sick at stomach..but i am trying to keep myself busy so i stay out of trouble. anyone who glamourizes addiction..doesnt know shit about it. its ugly and cruel.
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