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I thought I was ready but I don't want to let go... not again...not again...I don't want to say goodbye but I don't have a choice. I'm not ready for a shattered heart again when I just started picking up the pieces. I want to scream please don't leave me but I know all I can muster is a whisper and a "goodbye little one". :'(

It went better than expected - praise the Lord!

I declare this month podcast month - I will be listening at least once a day woop

Disneyland was so much fun for New Years!

January was such a fun and busy month.

February has been not too bad so far. Valentines was fun also.

Nervous/excited about events in March.

So much has happened ... feels like I ran a triathelon for a few months with stops on a playground along the way.

Christmas time, yay.  I love that my husband wears a santa hat EVERYWHERE we go the cutie pie ^_^

I'm sure everyone's heard of no — shave — November... but I've decided to try out a no — sorry- November. I'm trying to get out of the habit of saying sorry too much. Instead of saying sorry I will say thank you....

Instead of sorry for spilling the cup -Thank you for helping me clean up the mess I just created...

Instead of sorry I'm taking so long to get ready — Thank you for waiting for me so patiently...

Instead of sorry I'm so tired I must be boring — Thank you for spending time with me...

Instead of sorry I've been so disappointing — Thank you for having faith in me all this time...

Instead of sorry I'm so clumsy — Thank you for appreciating me...

Instead of sorry I'm talking so much — Thank you for listening ...

Thank you, not sorry, will be my anthem this November.

Excited to see how this experiment turns out :)

Still such a heavy heart... :'(

Things are starting to look up. I feel God working in my life. I'm so excited for Monday that I can hardly hold it in. My life is about to change forever - and it feels wonderful, exciting, indescribeable ^_^

My Husband: Randomly out of nowhere ... " I really like you"
Me: "I like you too"
My Husband: "I like that you're so weird.... but I'm weirder"
Me: kotc

^_^

Yesterday was my birthday and it was so great!

Friday people took me out to dinner and that was really fun.

Saturday people threw me a small surprise party with an awesome cake and it was awesome.

Sunday, my birthday, friends from everywhere gave me great messages and love. Then my awesome husband took off work early for a surprise. He took me to the new aquarium where we saw tons of sea life and even land animals. I got to touch the sting rays which was cool. I hung out with the otters for a while and they were sooooo cute. and THEN there were penguins ^_____^ Not only did we watch the penguins we got to go in their enclosure and HOLD THEM AHHHHHHHHHH BEST DAY EVER!!! It was so cute and they were so cute and I want to take one home and they were all cuddly and they kept trying to jump in my lap and they let me play with them with cute play toys and LOVE LOVE LOVE ^__________________^

We did other cool stuff then came home and my amazing husband made me an amazing dinner and it was so lovely *twirl*

I saw a gross bug that totally freaked me out and I can't wait for my husband to come home and hug me and tell me it will all be ok like the hero he is :(

On another note, did you ever play the game truth or dare? Someone texted me a super blast from the past that reminded me of a truth or dare game we played that actually brought everyone together... guess it's not always a silly game

also on a positive note, I made a new friend that might teach me a little arabic... I just have to find the time to practice ><