Hello all, I'm new :)
A wonderful person over in the 
vaginapagina community gave me the link for this community. I had no idea there was an entire LJ community for people who were as insane about having babies as I am. 8D
I am 26, currently in a wonderful committed relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years, and we both have lots of plans for marriage and babies. At some point. Probably (hopefully) when we can afford it.
Interestingly enough, we're on the tail end of a pregnancy panic. We use the FAM method as our primary form of birth control, since we know we're not financially ready for a baby any time soon, with condoms for fun times during the time after my period and until I can see a very clear handful of days after ovulation. This month though, my luteal phase has appeared to be much longer than usual, which had me freaking out (today would mark 17 days past ovulation, if my charting has been accurate this month, which it might not have been because I can't seem to stay asleep or wake up when my alarm goes off and keep having really bizarre, creepy dreams all this month). I took an HPT last night, because I just couldn't sleep without some sort of answer either way, and it was negative. I was both incredibly relieved and incredibly disappointed. I know we're not anywhere ready to take care of another human being, but I've wanted a baby pretty much since puberty. It's hard to relate to my closest female friends because most of them are actually anti-pregnancy for themselves (it's just not something they feel is a calling for them, which is fine), with my best friend actually having a phobia of pregnancy (like, visibly pregnant women creep her out). It's nice to see that there's a community where my baby-craziness isn't looked at as some weird cry for love or attention or lack of hugs in my childhood or something.
Anyway, even with my negative HPT, and my temperatures finally, slowly dipping back towards pre-ovulation levels, and light cramps that say my period is on its way, there is an annoying part of me that's hoping I'm one of those 10% of women that gets negative HPTs until she's practically ready to deliver and that my temperature drop is some weird estrogen surge.
I know it's not true, but, like so many other people in this community it seems, everyone I know is getting engaged, married, or pregnant, and I'm insanely jealous (one of my friends just announced her pregnancy on Friday, and she was on the pill, in addition to two of my friends on Facebook awaiting the birth of their second and third children, and my cousins and friends posting pictures of the adorable kids they already have, in addition to my brother having just gotten married and they have two kids, and my stepsister getting married in June, and my one friend getting married in December, ugh). Someone tell me they can relate (well, I assume many of you can, as you're here in this community). But I'm wondering if anyone else in this community charts and has hoped against science and nature and everything else that the chart was lying, even though you knew it was for the best if it was true. I really do feel like such a weirdo. ^^;
vaginapagina community gave me the link for this community. I had no idea there was an entire LJ community for people who were as insane about having babies as I am. 8DI am 26, currently in a wonderful committed relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years, and we both have lots of plans for marriage and babies. At some point. Probably (hopefully) when we can afford it.
Interestingly enough, we're on the tail end of a pregnancy panic. We use the FAM method as our primary form of birth control, since we know we're not financially ready for a baby any time soon, with condoms for fun times during the time after my period and until I can see a very clear handful of days after ovulation. This month though, my luteal phase has appeared to be much longer than usual, which had me freaking out (today would mark 17 days past ovulation, if my charting has been accurate this month, which it might not have been because I can't seem to stay asleep or wake up when my alarm goes off and keep having really bizarre, creepy dreams all this month). I took an HPT last night, because I just couldn't sleep without some sort of answer either way, and it was negative. I was both incredibly relieved and incredibly disappointed. I know we're not anywhere ready to take care of another human being, but I've wanted a baby pretty much since puberty. It's hard to relate to my closest female friends because most of them are actually anti-pregnancy for themselves (it's just not something they feel is a calling for them, which is fine), with my best friend actually having a phobia of pregnancy (like, visibly pregnant women creep her out). It's nice to see that there's a community where my baby-craziness isn't looked at as some weird cry for love or attention or lack of hugs in my childhood or something.
Anyway, even with my negative HPT, and my temperatures finally, slowly dipping back towards pre-ovulation levels, and light cramps that say my period is on its way, there is an annoying part of me that's hoping I'm one of those 10% of women that gets negative HPTs until she's practically ready to deliver and that my temperature drop is some weird estrogen surge.
I know it's not true, but, like so many other people in this community it seems, everyone I know is getting engaged, married, or pregnant, and I'm insanely jealous (one of my friends just announced her pregnancy on Friday, and she was on the pill, in addition to two of my friends on Facebook awaiting the birth of their second and third children, and my cousins and friends posting pictures of the adorable kids they already have, in addition to my brother having just gotten married and they have two kids, and my stepsister getting married in June, and my one friend getting married in December, ugh). Someone tell me they can relate (well, I assume many of you can, as you're here in this community). But I'm wondering if anyone else in this community charts and has hoped against science and nature and everything else that the chart was lying, even though you knew it was for the best if it was true. I really do feel like such a weirdo. ^^;